back to me.

Hey you
So you never really found your way
Stay true
Did you ever make it through today

That when I think about a day without it
Everyday’s the same
You wish that you could find someone
But I’m the only one to blame

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way back to me

terpana.

i cant still accept the fact that i'm gonna interview the Mem. huhu. what should i ask? what should i do. already star-stricken upon asking her for an interview session. hahaha. i went all hot and red..can you believe that. maybe that's what would happen should i finally see my husband face to face. haha. oh, btw..she herself update her calendar "discussion with hazera" <-- that's me..omg! this is like next to another other big things gonna happen to me. kan dah ckp, i'm star-struck! gila kan? ahahaha.

huhu.wish me luck, i really need that! in work, studies and life!

oh, i'm planning for something red to be added in my precious, real soon. ahaks.

and beginning to miss hero back. ini semua gara2 mak mertua tegur nie. terpana..

Ada

Tahukah dirimu, Kawan?

Dalam serpih-serpih cahaya

Dan gerak-gerik halus benda-benda

Tersimpan rahasia

Mengapa kita ini ada


-dari Maryamah Karpov, catatan Andrea Hirata


nota: tetralogi indah penuh insaf saat selesai membacanya. :)

sungai lenggang.

sangat sayu. dan kuat, penyebab aku tidak akan pernah putus asa InsyaAllah. dan juga akan terus berusaha. teringat pendamping pemberian bff. terima kasih atas ingatan. :)

jadi, bagaimana mau tingkat motivasi diri? sabar, fikir, laku, ingat mak+bapak..andai terlupa, ingat sungai lenggang. ;)

well, this few last weeks..personal life, work and studies have definitely makes me not a person you want to mess with. haha. anyway, i did have fun falling for abang stephen, wish for someone just like abang jason, almost in tears during the last performance in klpac, having the yes and no feelings of stupid thinkings, stress out with work (or maybe the bosses), wish i was far away from here with somebody who love me, my first exam for mba (gila susah, ok! have to read and think more..maybe have to stimulate brain more), oh, assignmentssssss~! :( please learn to say no and meant it, oh..kene marah sbb makin berat..haha. oh, quite sensitive these few weeks (not proud of it, really), unintentionally went out with bff, attend wedding with nani, geng the movie with kekura+habri, pekan sehari@shah alam, among other things.i spent like..more than i can spend..that's horrible. and friend did not pay debt which was under my name.and hv no courtesy to response any of my messages (which is totally uncool!)..i have enough financial problems to think about. i want to buy a house. rumah atas tanah. period.

well, to think about all the above makes my tummy hurts. i believe someday all these probs would be settled. InsyaAllah. ok, nk sambung membaca, semoga dapat sesuatu. terima kasih andrea hirata.

oh ya. it's friday the 13! jatuh bgn sendiri ok! ;)

mati.

datangnya dalam pelbagai cara, lambat selambat-lambatnya, cepat secepat-cepatnya, senang, susah, mudah, seksa, sakit, payah, muda, tua..ianya pasti berbeza untuk setiap orang.

aku..tak tahu bagaimana aku akan mati kelak. mungkin esok, lusa, tulat..atau entah lah. tak terfikir lagi. tapi memang mati itu benar. sudah tertakluk dalam qada' dan qadar ku. jadi, jika masanya telah tiba..apa yang aku harap, aku gembira dan bahagia dengan hidup yang ditempuh, aku telah bahagiakan mak dan bapak, hutang sudah habis terbayar..dan jika aku ditakdirkan berkeluarga, zuriatku diharap menjadi insan yang berguna di dunia dan akhirat.

satu ingatan pada diri sendiri. :)