ok, almost there~!

huhu..my weekend was filled with burnt money and on loan..ahaks..and almost bought the really wanted ipod..ahahaha.

tributes to bff for all the attention showered..heh~! hope you're fat already with the special homemade roti boyan and kopok lekor (tq fila) and starbucks coffee yg aku buat sedap tu..ahahaha. sorry ye dear, if yesterday turns to be one of your ugliest moment..tp ko dpt plasma tv yg diidamkan? hehehe..that crossed one of your wishes already ;) i think the other 2 is within reach this year..*crossfingers*

oh, sorry for the temptation..but was worth rite..siap tergedik2 lg dgn bdak starbucks...but it was way weird heh, since i really dont think we were late that nite...kan kan? but your sushi's always great..walaupun bukan ko lah yg buat..ehehehe

huhu, i've jz wrote in random..but what i've done last week quite great...screening with the TSCers..i jz way beyond like la with kak min. hahaha..having watched muallaf makes me wonder and evaluate back whether i am a good muslim. well, not even close to good yet, but not bad either..but i will be better. as death is definite..everyone gonna face it.so, i want to be a good one. :) the other not-planned screening, which happened on the same nite is a special docu on poverty in rural area in pahang..having watched that too enlightens me to become more aware of what surrounds me and at least have the empathy to know what's going on in the world apart from my of course hectic work life..oh, please let there's be balance in me life. :D

of course, girls nite out with yatoque..with fila, cant make it, as she's quite bz with family matters..her sister safely delivered baby boy..yeay~! less attention to idris..ehehhee..takdela..:D:D oh, talking about baby..one of my good friend, huda's too safely delivered a baby boy..nama tatau lg..org tanya tk terjawab pule..haha..thanks min for the mms pix..tk smpat lak nk upload..tahniah encik azrul + puan huda untuk baby boy anda..ckp kat baby, nnt auntie kukos dtg k...:D

apa lagi, apa lagi..oh, im on break~! from one part of life..i would like to concentrate more on works without jeopardising my life la..so called balanced life, konon...ini semua thanks to the course im taking, which i will graduate next tuesday...long story short..i've to write my goals and dreams in paper...hehe..gudlaks to me~!

minggu lepas terasa lambat..harap2 minggu depan akan berlalu dengan cepat...dan bolehlah selesaikan apa2 yg patut...seperti beli ipod? ahahahaha..no lah...lotsa other things..

okla..taking care all! nk balik rumah dulu..kt opis ni..psst, tq bff tolong anta..tunggu k, our girls nite out~! chillies and maybe movie? ehehe..muwahs

tattoo'd~

haha..mcm terkena plak dgn lagu nie..uhuk uhuk!

"I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'll always have you"

tattooed, figuratively i was..but the best thing is, i will always have it..haha..

based on saharil.com, my pick today is "mudita" which is explained by wiki ->"mudita is a Buddhist (Pali and Sanskrit) word meaning rejoicing in others' good fortune." so, expect me to be a very very sweet little girl who shall rejoice in others' good fortune! hehehe.

the other one is Schadenfreude, a German word meaning 'pleasure from misfortune'..but, between you and me lah kan, i like this word better...ahaks..uhuhuhu...where are the sweet little girl, huh? hehehe...but takpela..apa2 pun, im still that notti notti one..ahaks...

yes, for today..i go for mudita~! want to share happy news with me? i'll make you happier~! muwahs..

my supposed 99th post...now, it's the 100th!

"haha. countdown to the hundreth. ahaks. well, im not one to post daily, my life forbid me to. ahaha..well, here it is..after almost 1 year and 5 months, the number finally almost reach 100. ahaha. nothing much actually to ramble today..im going to work, maybe alone.

house is installed with pest control this morning. hopefully all is ok.

craving for kopok lekor."

there you go, that was supposed to be my 99th post..ahaks..but with God blessing, turns out to be my 100th post in nottikos.blogspot.com today, 5th March 2008. it's obviously not 1yr5months now..ahaks..

oops..kene kluar kjap..brb.

ok dah..meh sambung..almost 1yr 7months now, my dear blog.nothing mature about it, though. i just wrote what i want, what i like, whenever i feel like it~!

but since, this is my 100th post..it wont hurt eh, to write what happened today..(arinije kot..cm tk dpt nk pk whatevr happen to my life in chronology)
-no work..go seminar only..haha..another excuse to be very very RELAX..(if u know what i mean)
-got news the list of appraisals results were uploaded..huhu..a very shocking + good news indeed.Alhamdulillah! hmm..dan terasa mcm tk percaya je..ada org tu..makin gempak appraisals..betul ke?
-gossiping on works related item, as if la..uhuks..me going to do TM for real..saiko btul..gonna leave ESS for real..sad sad sad.
-poor k.mas~!jahat sgt jiran die soh pindahkan kucing2 die..jahat sgtttt..she was so devastated that she shall move too with her precious cats.cats.cats. oh, she offer us to adopt one of her cats..so tempting..but the decision is up to hommie. *cross hands* hopefully she'll agree.but if she is, no more fantasy of cik/encik kapas + si comot yang comel..hehehe. kitten actually, the name is joni. hehehe..tah btul ke tk tu..hehehe.
-oh, br kembali dr menemani asnani (kelig keje) utk jalan dgn kete baru..punyalah dgn percayanya igt die dh terer..rupanya hentam kromo juge..siap kluar vista td tk pasang lampu OK? betapa saikonya muke aku..ahahhaa..but all went well..selamat smpai ke rumah nie ha.Alhamdulillah
-oh, oh ye...hommie hasut makan mcD..:p tp mkn jugak sandwich buat sendiri telur goreng+hotdog! hehe..sama jek..but at least sendiri masak..oh, oh..she would like to heat our almost lemau kukis..the first one ok..but the second batch! uhuks..semerbak satu rumah..i did not notice the burntt..tp..mmg harum la satu rumah..ahaks..trus mcm, kitorg..ah, tidak~! yatoque.....!~! trus sorok kukis dlm kabinet..ekekeke..tgk tu yatoque, betapa sayangnya kitorg kt ko..tahan kemahuan ni.supaya ko dpt merasa kukis~! ehehehe

oklah..nk samung baca some light reading -> "the manny" :x

taking care all~! muwahs.

kukis kasih sayang dari hommie~ ;x

tenkiu for hommie, berhempas pulas buat kukis untuk diri sendiri dn juga saya. with sole intention, to bring some to office. hehehe. more like 2/3 of whole adunan..ahaks..

dearest fila, walaupun terdapat rintangan, kukismu masih tolerable.. sedap aja dilidah ku..ekeke..weh, bukanlah~! sedappp sgtt! marilah berusaha lagi..there's lot room for improvement~! haha..br buat 4 kali nie..we got a whole life to implore..hmm..kene pkpk ni nk kasik kat calon2 mak mertua nie nnt..ahaha.

kepada cik yati, kami berdua menunggu kedatangan anda..cepat tau~! nnt kukis abih..>;)

hari minggu yang sgt hebat..3 recipes, 3 new bought books, 3kgs gained at least..ekeke..

yeah yeah yeah..masih ku igt "hopes+fears" ku. no worries. nite2~!

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updets: gamba2 kucing comel~! :D psst...pardon the quality, my camera phone..biasa2 jek..hehehe

yg ni, nk kasi nama encik atau cik kapas (bergantung pada jantina)

yang ni pulak, si comot yang comel..hehehehe

[kalo dapt amik dedua ekor kan best~! tp semua ni, adalah emotional thinking not rationally...huhu]

week ends with sistas~

hommie too, of course..ahaks.

started with last minute plan lead to stressful nite..but all was worth it~ dan seperti biasa, telefonku mati tiada batt. it might suggesting something, but i chose to ignore.

oh, the plan --> make it short, enjoy one hella movie with kekure.."there will be blood". memang bertumpahnya darah malam tu..hahaha..lucky enough, amukan puaka kekure, no victim was initially down..:D

that nite, i was so tired, physically and mostly emotinally..i slept like a log. oh..my two sis come over too. which make it hectically haywired..as they dont hv keys..and me watching movie..how how? haha..

saturday was fun. morning @jusco midvalley. got myself signature hot choc which burnt my tongue..(sakit lg..mkn x sdap dah) shopping groceries to cook nasi ayam! my conclusion is, come early to supermarket, fresh fresh fresh. i ate salad and baby tomato for breakfast..yummy~! oklah, hv lunch of nasi ayam..it was great. disbbkan semua lapar..lupa nk tangkap gamba~! sis said, the presentation was good. kipas~! hommie said, can do business ni..@kl sentral..hari2 die makan..weks..oh skali ngan jimmy..and the stall would be called, "nort nasi ayam". haha..funny~! pastu semua tewas dn tido. haha..oh ye..my other sis also came..which make us 5 person all. ina, yana, ila, fila and me. yg tewasnya 4 org..sbb ada la sorang tu gi dating. ahaks. oh, lupe..sbb tido yg mcm x bersedia, boleh lupe tuan rumah nk datang melawat anai2..ahahaha..kesian adik2 kene paksa bgn. ;D

ptg merangkap malam, we (me+yana+ila) went to pantai dlm pasar mlm. it was great. the plastic bags we brought back was countless. ahahaha..nafsu nafsu. pastu mkn lg malam tu..ahaks..habiskan nasi ayam.got satay, ayam tulang, apam petak yg sdap, apatah lg..oh, the real reason we went there in the first place is to get us things to cook nasi lemak..haha

tewas skali lg, semua org pg tadi. yana, who earlier planned to go back yesterday postponed her journey to eat nasi lemak..haha..sanggup. but all went well. the nasi lemak was good too..love it~! bertambah 2kg semua org..ahahaha..aku lebih sket kot..haip..oh, menu for breakfast cum lunch is..nasi lemak+ayam goreng berempah+sambal with udang,ikan bilis, kentang+ikan bilis sedap+sayur kacang goreng udang+starbucks coffee gazebo blend. nyum nyum..our deserts is courtesy from yana, rojak buah pantai dalam.

thank you to all who participate..it was a great week ends spent together. looking forward for next week. muwahs..cya @sg rokam.

adakah anda betul2 yakin dengan pangkahan anda? ;-)

29.02.2008

closure.

i do not believe it, i guess. but at least, i do not deny it.

NO, is what i get. I'm not going to ask for "nape?". Just let that be.

do not be sad, i said, as there are those sadder than me.

so, is this a closure for me? as far as the ego said yesterday..it is.

oh, i dreamt of someone (rather odd but sweet, t'was) last monday. thank you stranger (kinda) for making my day worth smiling/blushing all day. stress is a four letter word.

gatal tangan.

hey hey~! guess, where i am?

guess la..ihiks. @lobby EDC, UUM. jauh nun ke utara saya pegi. terlupa kn nk bawak passport..kalau tak dah boleh ke selatan thai..ihiks. :D saje jekla menggatalkn..dah nama pon tema gatal..ahahaha.

ckp pasal gatal nie..gatal plak tangan ni..dua belah plak tu..tk suke pule..maksudnya mcm duit dpt..duit pon keluar jugak..huhu..tak boleh berbelanja nmpaknya..uhuks uhuks.

ptt nk kluar ni ha..tk keluar2 lg nye..mana tah org yg ditunggu2 ni tak kunjung tiba..oklah, segan lama2 kat sini..nnt org lain nk gune juge~!

nk baca buku, kasut buku rubina by sufian abas. lama2 baca...terhadharilah kita dibuatnya..ahaks..:p

tudeloo~!

Before It's Too Late~

I wondered through fiction to look for the truth

Buried beneath all the lies

And I stood at a distance

To feel who you are

Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you

Is the one that would save

A life you dont live is still lost

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it

Love til you feel it

It's all that we need in our lives

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

booming "hoo-hoo"

"seperti sang pungguk rindukan bulan
terlantar dia di bucu katil
irama lagu-laguan jadi teman
entah kenapa berputik di kala
hatinya akan kekal pemuja rahasia.."

oit~ berangan pulak..syooh syooh..buat kerjalah..ahaha

182

my supposed lucky day. well, i feel luckier already. haha..

will you dance with me tonite? :x 

good day~!

while, im updating this (again!)..i'm crying..not that there's something bad/sad happening..like now..but i cannot help it..this song, jz keep me doing it..crying, i mean *sobsob* me cant sing it properly also..yelah, i cant stop crying what.haha. the lyrics + melody melancholically stabs thru my sensitive heart. :D anyhoo, please read this poem..you, who knows me..shall understand. 

"If you could told me everything

You could have found what love is

If you could have told me what was on your mind

I would have shown you the way

Someday I'm gonna be older than you

I've never thought beyond that time

I've never imagined the pictures of that life

For now I will try to live for you and for me

I will try to live with love, with dreams

and forever with tears"

fyi though..it's not mine..googling about "X-Japan-Tears", the song that always kept me crying. huhu..i found this poem..sources said, there would be times that in the end of this song, the poem is recited by the band. 

you are happy when..

you smiles a lot and in the edge of hugging everyone! yes, that would mean every strangers you met along the way..haha~!

he did it, he did it, he did it~!

:x

on other notes..dok melayan Nidji "Top Up" album. i like it~ but the first one was the best :D

"bukan aku tk cinta, tp aku tk mampu.."

hazera adalah seorang yang malas 2 hari ini. sbb bos xde.:))

mana cik fila ni..kata nk layan movie? :p ok..make a move first..nk masak bubur, sup sayur dan ikan pekasam mak buat..nyum nyum nyum..lapanya terasa..cepat2 gerak gi masakkkk...tata!

update khas untuk puan rynn~

hello all~! how's your holiday? hehe..mine was OK. I spend my 2 of 3 days leave in the office. haha.. even it was half day..it was worth it..ihiks. :D:D

takde lah aku rajin sangat OK..but i felt it was some responsibility (walaupun macm aku buat mcm opis aku sendiri..hehe)

untuk kesenangan puan rynn, aku akan cuba kasi clear sket cerita aku..ihiks..:D but no worries, puan..mostly crap. x paham pon xpe ;)

updates dari mana2 yang aku igt:
1. blk ipoh, ada la diskasen family sket..yelah, adik aku nk kawin beb..insyaAllah bulan 11 or 2..nnt aku jemput k ;) ada pape idea tak utk brg berkat? i'll be happy to receive some comments dearest friends..:D
2.ye, terima kasih cik yati kasi clear..aku naik gred. Alhamdulillah..more responsibilities to be held, obviously. :D
3.cuti aku byk lg, sbb tuhla berusaha utk habiskan cuti thn ni..disbbkan ongkos pon tidak membenarkan tahn ini, x dptlah digunakan utk ber"vacation" di luar negara..sehingga terpaksa membiarkan cik yati kita ber"vacation" dgn kawan baru dia..ehehe..jgn marah ek babe~! (psst, thanx call td..walaupun cubaan tk berjaya..maaflah, di waktu kejadian kawan awak yg sgt bijak ni..blk kg tk bawak charger blk..padan muka kt dia..sekarang masih charge)
4.sedang melayan dunia baru..ahaha..dan juga berusaha utk tengok sindarela tetiap minggu..wish me luck!
5.masih berusaha juga mengosongkan harddisk.hehehe..sebb nk isi citer lain lagi..
6.masih setia juga menunggu "writers guild strike" habis, supaya boleh donlod dan layan series dgn gumbiraa~!!

oklah..aku br blk dr ipoh ni..tgh basuh baju sambil layan dunia baru..hehe..so, taking care ok puan rynn. thanx singgah~! muwahs.

love life.

it's fuckin' indescribable life can be. huhu..it's sucks today, mostly.

sangat tk cool~

my intention was good..tego2 setelah lama tk bertego sapa kan..is, "oit, sombong~!!" dengan nada memain, sounds rude? knowing me, tak ke itu mmg aku..but..tegoran mengatakan aku bukan islam, mmg sgt tk cool..ok, memberi salam mmg bagus..tp wajib ke memberi salam dlm YM? hello, where are you...heaven?~! oh, F U la...uhuks..pastu nk lgi memberi ceramah ttg mmberi salam itu satu kewajipan..oh, please...salah la ko menyakitkan ati aku skang...eee...aku mmg marah skarang...tk bg salam dlm ym boleh isu kepada dia..so, you can go to your lil community..and i wont be in your little community, period. sekian, terima kasih~!

built to last.

so, not to make this long long long..i've just got to tell you truth..nothing but the truth. i am in love..ahahaha..i just hope the other person knows it too..which i highly doubt it. haha

this, is my hope towards the ever-to-be-if-it's-ever-gonna-be anything..:x

oh, i'm pretty much high in my selfless mind..ahaks..(tolonglah sedar, minah oi!) i'm so full of myself i cant properly think of the consequences..what i do know is i'm crazy..ahahaha..this must be because of me <-- caffeinated. it does me, sometimes..caffeinated, sugar high..i really did well in that division..ahaha..i can climb this very building of block 3 and sang my heart out..just to let him know what i really felt..do you think he'll hear me~?! *batting eyelashes*

or, it must be the song that i've heard first last yr @MTV, and it has successfully haunt me back this year. and without fail, i'm still loving it~ oh, it must be my sensual mind working it's way. damn~! i bet if i were destined to be dead, right now..my autopsy result would be..love anxiety overwhelmed~! ahahaha..whatever i was rattling, like now~! oh, it MUST be the coffee, definitely. fyi, i've got 4 sacks of coffee bean from starbucks..how do u think i'm gonna finish that huh? coffee freak, that's me..

you are my sun in my universe~!

i'm pretty much adore mike, from melee. he seems err, shy. :)

ode to abg heath~

1979 - 2008

It's sad when someone you know dead
Even sadder when that someone is someone you love to watch
Saddest when that one can relate you to something
Devastated when he leave a mystery behind
But who am I to judge, let alone define
May you rest in peace..:)
Is only what one can hope.

Heath Ledger is that someone that catches my eyes + heart in "10 things i hate about you", "a knight's tale", "brothers grimm" and "casanova".

yes, i'm one sensitive girl. thank you.

dan tidurlah..

haha..i wish~! mana boleh tido bai sekarang...ahaks..br pukul 1.55pm..ahaks.

adakah anda terasa digunakan bila:
a. dicari hanya jika ada perkara berkaitan HR berlaku?

humm...tak kot..ahahaha...

andra oh andra..your voice is kinda sexy. i like~! alamak, curangkah aku kepd husband?..oh, tidakk~!

whatevr i'm mumbling of..sbb pc lembap la nie..tkleh nk tgk gossip girl pilot. uhuhu..dan oh dan..ihiks..better stop, like now~!

okla..andra+thebackbone..mmg sgt best. lirik for lagi..dan lagi..*enjoy!

huhu..x jumpe plak..so, relaks~!

oh..x saba nk cuti raya cina yg sgt pjg..i dont care..nk cuti jugak~! haha

selamat hari lahir bff~

maaf lmbat ye bff..:D:D so here goes..

sorry this year, i have not done my job well as you have your new best friend..ahaha..siap recordkan lagu birthday lagi..ampun ampun..ahaks.

anyway, hope you have a blast on that day..which i knew you did..;) so, a year older..not a soul older eh..marilah kita bersama kekalkan kemudaan kita smpai bila2..ahaks..muwahs muwash..and believe me, even you hv "new best friend" >:) i will always claim my right as your bff..;) muwahs muwahs..thankx for the cake, dear..it was way delicious..i gain quite a few pound, TQ. haha..maybe i should stop being your all beloved "tong smpah" huh? ehehehe

lastly, selamat hari lahir my dearest..semoga terbuka hati ibu utk benarkan kamu berkahwin..;) i'll always be there, k ;) :x

Alhamdulillah!

Syukran Alhamdulillah for the rezeki given to me. Thank you thank you thank you. It is expected, but not this month..so I have to say I am shocked when the HR man told me congrats, for whatever reason I'm not sure of. and more shocking when PL ask me to see her with another colleague..as I was like, "alaa..ada prob ESS lagi ke? huwaa~!" when I went to see her, congratulations is what I got and I was in total shock and glad as well, as extra money is quite what I seek this few months..haha..tp x dpt pon..:D:D kene usaha lebih lagi nmpaknya.

On other notes, updates for the past few days:
1. On the event of my last updates, actually there was some issue pertaining our house. Well, it was a mess, still is :D my hommie mostly..her room is leaking (we're on 13th floor..upstairs is studio house..so, the top of my hommie's room is like nothing and only roof. got anai2 some more..her bathroom door cannot close. okok..jgn bg info byk sgt..haha..so the story went like this..we ask for one particular foreman to come and have a look..(because of the free checking, according to his iklan..cheapskate la katakan)..then the fella come and bombarded our house like there's no tomorrow..membebel2 tah apa2..he rudely comparing me with the pintu(wtf~!) but me being one lil nice girl just hear whatever he said..believe me..die mmg suka bebel dan sgt mcm kasar perckpannya..okla..to think of it..mcm tk bagus la sgt cara die ckp tu..mcm tkde respek tau..but maybe itu mmg cara die ckp..so i wont judge more..okla, the story nye..my hommie was so pissed off with him. kirenya..malam itu adalah amukan puaka hommie. ok done~!
2. yatoque's coming over..and we were and always be a good host for her..haha..have dinner of mcDs bought by her..and we eat eat eat sambil diskusi hangat mengenai perkara yg terjadi sebentar tadi..tuptup tup dah pukul 12..boleh ke? we're like still hv plans for the nite. haha
3. after, clean ourselves..go to hommie's room and layan movie~! it was so great...memula layan "Enchanted"..it was fun, it was fantasy, it was dreamy..and it was heartwarming..but the princess was so opstimic rasa nk baling2 jek..mcm hello~! does that kind of story exist in the real world? ye lah kan..since i havent found my soulmate..trus rasa mcm tk best...tapiii..the second movie what's make us all dreamy..hahaha..tyler prince is seriously gorgeous~! haha..we've watched "Sydney White"..it was hilarious, funny and make us feel differently of dorks..as in a way, we're all DORKS in our own way..hehehe..so kesimpulannya, janganlah memandang rendah kepada orang lain...sebabnya..semua orang adalah sangattt ISTIMEWA ;) muwahs to all. okla..on the dreamy parts..we all so high of tyler..he is so handsome..dan saya sgt spoil..sbbnya...i did reveal that mr long is married..hahaha..semua org benci aku..wakaka..sorry..~!
4. hari khamis..cuti..bgn lmbat..mama hot datang..bila die dtg br bgn..we have brunch of roti bakar...(it was my current fav as the other day..the smell of roti bakar at level7 sgt memikat hati..and i have 2 slice of it..tak malu nye budak) and lotsa kaya, jem, baked beans with egg (bff masak) and semua lah yg ada dlm fridge tu. haha. oh, mama hot datang nk wat keje..with helps of hommie..i tolong tgk jek. :D pastu lunch+dinner plak kt kedai sup sendeng..sgt kenyang + gemok..pastu beli cakoi yg sgt sdap..haha..best~! mlm tu tido awal konon. :D
5.jumaat keje..huhu..sgt bosan. but i half-day.konon nk pegi mmc, melawat kawan2 but tk jadi sbb aku yg sgt ngantok dn tidoo..haha but berjaya la smpai keje dlm kol 12 dan oh..k.mas dpt kek..birthday nye esoknya. :D makan puas2 dan sgt gemokk..ahaha
6.blk kampung..malamnya..yeayy..bas kol 10..sorry ye..terlmbt..byk keje la..and weekends..tidooo~!
7.sabtu-kemas bilik..adik, belajar elok2, kalo tkde SAP, i shall consider pembelian motor..ahaks..oh ye..sbb tgh tgk amanda bynes..minat plak kt die..then tetibe mlm tu ada plak citer die.."What a girl wants"..layannnnnn~! best! siap tido kol 245am..lmbt kan.. oh ye..kemas bilik mmg sgt penat~! pastu main badminton lagi..pastu main2 ngan anak sedara lagi...mmg sgttt penatt..:p
8.ahad...tido smpai bosannn..ahaha..pastu nabil dtg..hahahaa...comel jek budak gemok tu..siap berlakon2 jatuh plak ha.......berpeluh die lepas aku blk dr pasar malam..hehe..
9.isnin pagi..blk kl kol 430 am..yelah konon malas nk blkk..sbb nk tgk citer tiga segi setelah dijemput penulis/director, woo ming jin kt facebook kan...kene lah tgk..okla..:D keje mcm bosan..pagi2 dh smpai opis..kol 730 am..dhla tkde passcard..seb baik pintu blakang bukak..so awal gila smpai ..dn terhapa2 dibuatnya...pg got walkthrough..the afternoon was the most tension bit of the day ..got meeting with user..seb baik tkdela byk songeh sgt...tp adalah jugak songehnya..ahaks.blk2 konon nk tido..hommiw ajak kluar makan..so okla..takpe takpe..oh...i did hv dinner of Dominos..huhuhu...gemokkkksssss plis~! ahahaha
10.oh, after a long silence..yelah, i did one "ekspresi dirimu" a while ago haha..we're cool now.oklah kan? :-?

okla..that about all what had happened to me last wk..(walaupun tk cukup byk kan..yelah..bukan ada org baca..hahahaha) but today..it was OK. :D:D

oh..silalah layan stolen by dashboard confessional..jz like the title.the song has succeeded in stolen my heart by its first hello. :x

- Dashboard Confessional Lyrics

"NOOoOOOoOOo"

ahahahahaha..i cant stop laughing! ok, i mayyy be a little late, but i totally agree with TIME naming YOU as the people of the year last yr i think..haha..pardon me, if i was wrong. ahaks..but i did remember that..because YOU is everyone who made the intener or was it YOUTUBE popular~! YOU who made video as funny as hell can be or whatever..so, talking about YOUTUBE, i was videohopping . still do..and i found this..hilarious~

bob,"mikey ways's phone number is.."
"NOOoOOOoOOo"

hahahaha..funny funny! the other one that prominently stucks at my head is..mikey falling down in one concert in which the culprit is mr gerard way himself, the ever meanest brother of mikey (my dearest adik ipar,wakakaka) but i still heart them..both..yela semua..crazy kan? wakaka..aku gila..gilakan kamu..oh the song performed was cemetery drive.

and my life currently does sounds like cemetery drive...way down way down way down way down way down way downnn~ i miss you, i miss you so farrrr...and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard~

huhu..damn i miss him~

ok, happy new year~! today is awal muharam..and i hope everything is GREAT this year..:)

psst..i've checked the above..about YOU. check this out~! rupanya tahun 2006. hehe

shut up and smile~

heya~! this song was like lingering on my head ever since i've watched fan's video of gerard+mikey on why we love'em..which was like weeks ago..haha..the way's brother..they are so lovable~! and the irony is..the video maker has used the song from a band that totally despised them..ahaks..but yada yada yada~! i jz love both of the band..ihiks..each with its own reason..bowling for soup(hereafter, shall be known as bfs) for their happy happy songs and mcr of course, for their gorgeous frontman..and they're rocks~!

so, please..i present you..the words from the happy band~! if you dont like it, please..shut up and smile~! >:P

----------------bfs-shut up and smile~-------------

Its not the end of the world
In fact its not even the end of the summer
But thank god the tv is on
Cuz theres no way we could know
Anything that’s goin down
Or how were supposed to be feeling about it
I cant tell you how much I wish we could shut up and smile, yeah

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream and a hug

Take a good look around
Does life really suck
Are we just complaining
I hope that this mic is on (testing 1, 2)
Cuz im on a roll here
I hope this is making some sense
I hope that you’ll throw up your hands and sing it
And tell all the haters that they should just shut up and smile, yeah

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream

All we need is love and beer
And old school metal and holiday cheer
TO be happy
(All you need is someone near)
like ben and jerry
(to hold you close and pretend that they care)

can we all just, get along now
we found something that we all have in common now
we can hold hands, do keg stands
water skiing sounds great to me now

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe we’re a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream and a hug

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surfing youtube for the vids..:( didnt found it..but i found this..ahaks..mcr exclusive interviews @melodi..gerard was kinda not in the mood.maybe jetleg..i presumed..ahaks..but he's still my husband..mikey was alright..but kesian die..he's like being stopped on the part when that interviewer ask something on other band bitching about them..well, i dont give !$%*$* either darling ;) luv ya~!

it was wet, it was tad awesome~!

ehehe..it's been like a week~ and only now i'm going to update on the how i finally met my hubby? damn, it was a very damn busy week, i say. ahaks..anyway, finally i met him~! about 30 metres away, that was. ahaks..well,that's how close we are..ehem ehem..tk kisah la..because mixed feelings is what i felt during the whole one and half hour in the drizzling wet awesome parade. it was wet, and totally awesome + amazing in one breath. and me and my bff + sistas were dancing, screaming, singing like there's no tomorrow you know..ahaks. to date, the most awesome concert i've ever went..you rock, husband~! as proud as it may sound, you totally rock my world :* and now, i cant stop thinking about you...and it's no secret who you are to me, no matter where i am..ahaks ahaks..love you to death~!

they received such a good reviews on every newspapers i read and i've kept. it's like in every papers, daily, weekly, free or paid..such a good review..huhuhu..it's a missed though that the whole gang was not there..get well soon, bob~! wish you well ;) but gerard was rad, mikey too, frankie (good things your family thingy is OK) and of course cool ray~! goreng gitar gile cool~!

they performed almost every song i know by heart, helena, cemetery drive, im not okay~, welcome to the black parade (of course~)..to list was like listing all the songs of my chem~! to the end, it's like alovehate relationship for me..i almost cried during "the desert song"..it was like deep in my heart i know..it's going to end..gerard's going to end this..:( the whole crowd was eventually feels the emotion captured by him and all was silent and really into it. haha..me was emotionally swaying hands with bff the whole song and i cant help but feel sad. huhu..desert song's really cool, but at the same time sad~! and yeah, they end it with "famous last word"..which was a very good song to end such a theatrical act~! yeah babe~! you are the most effing band in the whole world that nite!~

well, pix is such total failure that night..my attempt in borrowing my bro's cam failed miserably. huhu..only our pix was cool as hell~! but i love pix of the stage backdrop..sgt cantikkk~! house of wolves..:D what else, enjoy some pix..:D

bak kata bff, "bukti~!"

me + bff

saujana mata memandang~

my chem's backdrop~

as a whole, the stage, sound system, the props, gerard, the whole gang was totally ROCK~! love you guys..cant wait for more! crossed hands, hopefully they are allowed again to come..hehehe..u effin' punk rock band~! cant wait to hear ur new song, even that means i hv to wait another 2 years..i rela, dearest! ;) ahaha..okla..

updates of the week:
1.keje bagai nk gila..almost 7 days a week, err definitely 7 days. i need rest this raya haji~!
2.berjaya dptkan diari starbucks, thanks ita..muahs muahs..cant wait to scribble on it~!
3.dia mmg sukar difahami. please, jz forget about it.
4.financially broke.must do something about it.
5.creative mind is absolutely in need of some exercise.
6.lunch, dinner is fully taken care of.
7.definitely have to exercise regularly,pronto.
8.balik kg esok malam..hoye~! hopefully, shafiqah natasya is still home.
9.lama gila x jumpe hommie, and e'eh..sapa tu?

..lastly, we'll carry on..to make this life most fulfilling..thanx my chemical romance for being such a good support for me in facing the workloads..yes, my chem saved my life~! ye ye, no worries..i know DIA YANG MAHA BERKUASA~! AllahuAkbar~!

i'm a maple.

my key quality is independence.

i quote k from the star, today~!

"You are quite an extraordinary person, full of imagination and originality. You're very clever and have a good memory.

Ambitious, proud and hungry for new experiences, you are still somewhat shy and reserved, and often nervous.

You have many hung-ups and tend to have a complicated love life, often because you're proud and wont be pushed around."

haha..thanx yatoque. most of it true. hukhuk. he's particular..damn, i never beat that :p

anyway, im just crazier and overanxious by minutes. cant wait to see the whole gang of my chem~! hope the complete set's would be playing. gerard,mikey,frank,bob+ray.muwahs to all of them~!

huhu..i miss gerard, already~

stardust.

yeay, finally went to see it yesterday..despite the problems occurred when our booking no. has expired. damn gsc..seb baik en mohd asyiq ada tolong kitorg..tk mcm mamat kaunter sebelah yang takde langsung sifat2 CRM yg bagus..muahaha..all in all, i so love stardust and also charlie cox..or better still tristan or tristran. :x

boleh tk namakan anak saya tristan? ehehehe

Alicia Keys - No One

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cuz

Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So til the end of time
I'm telling you
There is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

bad news comes in double, or might be triple~

yeah yeah..sighing is not a good thing to do..uhuk uhuk..but today + yesterday..bad news keep on coming..

1st, not so bad news la, my dear husband would coming to town..yeah~! but, a bad husband he can be..no free tix for me to see him..:( that's an OK, as we're (me+bff) will try to get discounted price or better, free tix just to see him and them...ahaks..ah, me and my fantastic imagination~! oh, forgot to tell, the tix is ridiculously expensive..(hehe, i quote ppl in internet..heyho~) but because i love him, i shall do the above..ihiks..or i'd be devastated not to go!

2nd, i told my dear sis, ila, about it..and she said, "mahalllnyaa, camne nk pegi..ila student lg.." uhuhuhuhu..well my dear, paying RM106 for a concert tix does sounds expensive..uhuks..eh, that's not the bad news...it's the news."is gerard way's married?" yes, he is. yesterday doesnt sounds so bad as today...uhuks..i've been surfing and reading on the news..and it was like, 2 months ago..can you imagine..where have i've been? why i dont know a bit at all about this? hell, this sucks~! but ok, i'll accept the defeat with the confirmation, he is and still is my husband..until i found one decent guy, ahahahaha..well, i just love being me, impulsive smart stupid girl in love~! ahaks..oh, okok, the other wife is beautiful without the punk outfit. you go girl~!

3rd..humm..our team, didnt make it to our company race..:(( news that is not acceptable. the other team who got it even got our name. totally unacceptable~! uhuks..my dear sis, ina, even postponed the engagement date for this. sure as hell i feel guilty about it..sucks~! bluwek.

okok, enough about bad news..uhuks..i got work to do..might have to work on weekends..and i know i "hutang" post with roomie..ye la, lama tau tk update..uhuks..psst, byk ni senanya citer..but i feel so lazy and brain freeze with words recently.

ok, taking care all~! cya husband!

it's my birthday~!

hukhuk..it is. well, nothing special on this day..just a day, that i might got a little attention a bit..ahaks. :D

thank you for all the sms wishes, phone calls, and everything, my dearest friends + families. ahaks.. more love~

will be back to SgRokam soon..and believe me..i'm on leave today, eventhough i have came and still here at the office..:D what to do eh? dont hv anything special la in mind to do..huk huk..with me being sick (flu+fever a bit+cold+cough)..hukhuk..

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taking care~ happy raya!

Eid mubaraks, everyone~!

uhuks, since the last updates..it was like in the mid of fasting..and now, just another 2 days to celebrate raya or "eid"..ihiks. finally, i made the e-card to circulate to friends, and i will gladly post it here. :D with some notes, notes of love, if you may..ahaks..


to everyone, Selamat Hari Raya + Maaf Zahir Batin.. makan lebih2 sket ok~! hehehe..:D

utk hommie, maafkan aku selama ada tersalah pape ke..ok? kot2 ada yg tk terpuas hati ke kan? yelah..keadaan rumah tuh mcm horror jek slalu..ahaks..so kosong-kosong k, muwahs..cya next week..pastu jgn lupa buat cornflakes choc tau~! this time, i will be doing what you've done..muahaha..oh, td ptt boleh jek buat sessi bermaafan..ahaks..takpe takpe..after balik cuti~!

untuk bff, selamat hari raya beb~! maafkan aku ok, walaupun tadik kita dah buat session tu kan..tuh la..tk dpt nk peluk2..ahahaha..takpelah, virtual jelah ye..ahaks. akan ku datang ke rumah ko raya nnt..wait for me~!

utk kekure, maafkan aku kalo ko byk terasa ye, sejak 2 menjak ni. :D:D kosong-kosong..datang lah umah raya ni..kalo ko dtg..aku buat la something special..ahaks.

yang lain tuh..mcm takde la kot..jz a big hug to everyone~! and please, have a FUN and SAFE raya, kay~! muwahs.

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ok, done on the wish. :D now, i would like to tell about our little event 2 nights ago~! bermain bunga api di tgh2 malam-27..:D which we conclude was the night! :D bff and i both were having so much fun playing the not so good fireworks, as it was kinda "masuk angin" and after lit it up for a few secs, it went dead. huhu. not so best..but we did hv fun experimenting with the fireworks like hanging it on the liner and lit it up with us sing along raya songs..ahahahaa...so much fun..and we didnt realise that we've been playing, like for hours...ahaks..how's that for being such a kiddo~!? ahaks..but then, we were those with heart that as young as children..ahaks. what else eh? oh, we did wake roomie, but she was so tired..she didnt even wake up..uhuks..sorry mate~! but we did hv fun the other day, right? ihiks..ok~! since we didnt have any high-tech camera that night, it's quite limited on what kind of experiment we can do..but heck, it was reaallly fun~! and you know, what's more funny is when we've gone to sleep..bff kinda confused which way is the door.. :D ihiks..ini semua gara2 main bunga api sampai kol 2 dan pastu dok lepak2 baca cleo..ahaks..wohoo, what a night~! insyaAllah, akan ingat sampai bebilaa~! ok, cheerio! hv to do some work before depart to 2 hours journey to bro's place.

taking care all~! selamat hari raya + maaf zahir batin~!
hv fun and safe raya!

fall to pieces.

is something i dont want to be. ahaks.. but i guess i am. yesterday, i lost my other-half. at work. no more sametime, no more ride home to lrt, no more working together on saturday, no more sharing latest gossips, no more praying together2, lunching together2..uhuks..it's hard eh to let go of things as such. but for what's worth, i hope she's cool at her new place..anddd, dont forget to meebo, my dear~! :p

to date, classes is like on every day...uhuks, and my brain is like working sideways...i hope all the
info is cemented and fully understood. ahaks. very tiring. and no use of complaining as this is fully work related..ahaks..and i dont know what's i am babbling about~ better stop like, right now..ehehehe

what else aa..this week sucks~! :D thank you.

dan tak saba nk kembali ke rumah...hoyeaa~! oh, what should i get him? huhu..rasa nk bagi jek ..err..tak kot..ahahaha

okla..mau tidur dulu..nighty nite~!

..malam bulan dipagar bintang..

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Makin indah jika dipandang
Bagai gadis beri senyuman
Pada bujang idaman

Belai kasih ingin dimanja
Dengan cumbuan mesra
Untuk pelipur lara
Penawar dik asmara

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi
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haha..klasik tak? tgh layan2 lagu secara rambang, terdgr lagu ni & terasa tk dsempurna jika tidak kongsi bersama lagu ini. ahaks..layan jgn tk layan~! eh, mestikah aku kumpul rindu jika emangnya tiada rindu darimu untukku? :x

Saat dunia masih milik kita.

Apakah kau pernah merasa semua
Yang tlah kau dapatkan terbuang percuma
Dan seakan semuanya menghilang sia sia

Begitulah rasa yang sedang kurasa
Saat dirimu meninggalkan duka
Dan takkan pernah hilang terhapus terlewati

Akankah semua
Kembali seperti yang dulu
Akankan semua
Menjadi indah dan sempurna

Seperti saat diriku dengan dirimu
Hatimu masih milikku
Dan dunia masih milik kita

Hidup adalah tak seperti yang pernah
Kita bayangkan dan kita impikan
Terkadang ada duka dan juga menyakitkan

Seperti saat diriku dengan dirimu
Hatimu masih milikku
Dan dunia masih milik kita

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i love the way the song goes. with flows. :x

ahaha.

jz finish organizing my room, a.k.a. dissemble my kayu bedframe and relocate the penjara nor frame. ahaha. hee..more spacecy..but dearest bff and also sistas might hv to sleep over the floor..>:) ehehe..no worries dearest dearest..always a good host i am, please please sleep on my spring bed. ahaha..

well, i feel a lil gloomy today..must be the all day sleep i have, or the full marathon of g&g and also kami. uhuks..not too forget bewitched..ahaks..best best best~! oh, i did not go any further than my balcony yesterday..thoughts of cooking bihun goreng thrown over window as my malasness to go out embraces me..:D i've cooked magi goreng sedap instead. totally sedaps..ehehe..with my over manis tea..but who cares..only prepared them for meself. and it does taste great.

it's sunday already~ uhuhu. i havent done my work yet..huhuwa..help help help~! please let there be some rajin left for me to do it..oh lupa..i've organised my hundreds of pix..yeay~! more to print..hoho. but to date, not about pix..akhirnyaaa..bajuku sudah siappp..mekasihh bff~ tidak sabar mau berjumpa nampaknyaa....ehehe..di manakah ye? sleep over, again? ahaha..

okla..maybe it's time for me to sleep over at yours, dont you think?

what else eh? time to sleep..wanna wake up for sahur..:D nighty nite, everyone~! muwahs.

gonna rock your world~

do you miss me? cause i miss you. ahaha

20092007

semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam. ;) morning sunshine~!

come one, come all~!

quite a weekend i have and havent had the chance to write accordingly..hehe. thanks to workloads and also myself. haha..so, in brief..my weekend was hectic, fun, jerits2 manja gitu and food, food, food~~!

details:
1. rabby and baby sophie come sleep over. owh, with bff..ahaks. we were like lunching and dinner @2200 as our beef stew was ready by then..ahaks..but it was deliciousss and finger licking good~! baby sophie was more cuter and also quite cranky by the hour..ahaha..but not too forget, her auntie noor is crankier..muahaha.
2.went to ikea with intention to get the new catalogue, but to no avail. well, quite devastated but hv to letgo.
3.watched disturbia, sambil jerit2 manja, and gossips a little with bff. yeah, yeah..:p welcome for the thank you. yeap, i gave her priviliges to sleep on my cosy little bed. ahaks.
4.sunday morning, woke up a little late. and kene paksarela membeli bahan utk masak. thanx roomie for lunch~! delicious~! ahaks
5.gol&gincu. sexier and juicier by the week. btw, i way love shasha's room~! bila nk cat bilik ni?~!
6.tido jek keje dan agak malas nk membuat keje. :( so, i dont like~!

ok, now..last 3 days. at work, hectic as ever..we're gonna go-live one system this saturday (br teringat, camne nk blk kg nie?) so, it was like hell in my place. and i was being quite gila2 this few days..with classes on this one module, tm, and tomorrow, py. and also others. i have to master at least 5 modules. man~! that was tough. not only modules, skills too. java, webs, configs..huhu..and i miss him..

there, i said it. uhuks..weeks feels like forever, and i did not even wish him. that was not good~ what i've been up and about, i dont know. with my other half in office leaving by end of this month..i must say, i feel quite not great. please, please, let there be motivator in me..please, please let me be a good girl and eat my sahur, and read 4 pages of Quran after solat. please let me be extra good and be at office at least before 0800. and please, please..let me be extra rajin too. please, please, let my brain works well so that i can learn and explore life and work. please, please..bersihkan hati saya sempena bulan ramadhan ini.

oh, ye..sy agak sedih ni..sbb kedai yg sy nk pegi b4 pose ni, tknak masak nasi goreng ikan masin dan telur dadar utk saya. lepas tu, kedai sup sendeng pon tutup..ali cafe pon..pastu derang taknak gi stoberi field..tp akhirnya makan a&w.. but it's ok..sy redha. :D

oklah..rasa mcm nk blk lah, sy sgt pnat..tolonglah rajin sket..nk basuh baju, nk basuh 2 sets of bedsheet (penat tau jadi saya), nk bukak katil, nk solat terawih, nk online kjap kt umah..pastu tido..

oh, last words..dear all..i'm sorry for my wrong-doings..selamat berpuasa semua. ;)

"Make You Smile"

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the sun shining in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the freeway

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear with your voice ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the DJ

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear with the noise ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, I'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

..gediks mode..

i love you, always forever..near and far, closer together..everywhere, i will be with you..everyday, i will devour you..:x

jgn salah sangka..having heard this song by donna lewis (after so many years), reminicsing those innocent time. kalau tk silap lagu ni sudah berumur lebih 10 tahun (around that time~) okok, just googled it..it was 1996..close heh? 11 years wow~! that's how long since i heard it last..gila lamaa. hehe..dan sangat cute~!..when i sing-along this song, terasa sgt gedik. hahaha. okayla..terpaksa mengaku, sy sedikit gedik..muahaha.

oh..psst, teringat satu lagi.."i could be the one" pon sgt gedik..ehehe..but cute definitely~! terpaksa post satu gamba gedik..haha..oops boleh ke, teredit sekali..:>

...

sepi sendiri aku benci.

that's the way..

my love is, my dear. hehehe. i always love a poet i guess. but me, i'm no poet..eventhough how much i wanted to be..i could never express it well..more likely to spoilet..ahaha..

been listening to smashing pumpkins's zeitgest..not all..but this particular song. this song..okla..billy corgan..abang botakku~ (slain pakcik din..hehe) his unique voice is so haunting and dreamy..isn't he? ahaha..well, he is. one of those person that i'll look up to..yeah, i got many personality to look forward to, for different occasion. well, a girl got to have lotsa option open but only one to remain as numero UNO :D well, been working on that one. tough luck~!

having heard the new album, i always would remember their other works..said sadly (sad and beautifully written), stand inside your love (just breathtaking and romantically epic..just love it when billy kiss the girlfriend's feet..ah, the affection~), thirty three (jz discover this one, pure acoustic and honest), try try try (melodically lyrical) and many many more..to list down all, would take up entire days of mine. where oh where art thou, my poetic heart?

That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
I'm always there for you
Yeah, I'm always there for you

yeah, baby..if you let me, i'm always there for you. ALWAYS~

nothing much.

what i achieved this past few days..nadaa nadaa..ahaha..neither i hate or like it. i dont feel any balance at all. i pissed off at quite some things..and i love other things too.

mix of feelings being thrown and wasted..i dont want to be wasted but then..i just, was. sucks, eh~!?

however, i managed a very great nite out with the gals to gwen's concert @bkt jalil~! all that thnx to bff..muwahs..love ya babe~!

what should i do? what should i do? nothing much, i guess.

aku mau.

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

KepadaMu aku berserah untuk segalanya. :) Tabahkan hatiku untuk apa jua jawaban. Kuatkan semangatku untuk semua kemungkinan. Syukurku dan sujudku untukMu Yang Maha Kuasa.

"abang mak dah takde~"

that's what my mother hv said, in the trip that seems like forever to the muslim
cemetary. I was shocked to hear that and together we cried. I held her small frame
close as i reached for her hands. She was so fragile. I was too. I can feel her
sadness. it was indescribable.

Remembering the day that I met Obek Juri last year, it was devastated as he was no
longer the uncle who used to bring me and my brother to walks, trips when I was in
Singapore. When I was small. When my speech was still tongue challenged. When I
was so excited to ride on double decker bus and fell off my seat, while singing.
haha. biasalah budak lg kan..(everybody still remembers that, you know & yeah,
that's the routine stories to be laughed about la..yeah, about me) when I was
that cute innocent little girl, which still am. ahaks.sorry la, terangkat bakul
plak..

but he is still my dearest uncle. the father to all his sisters. my mother, & my
aunties. i may not remember all his kindness, but i'm sure he will be remembered
by his grace, kindness, thoughtfulness and above all, his love.

i'm not good in eulogy..i'm sucks at it..(very true)..seeing him yesterday in the
strectcher and looking all sick and fragile, being carried home. (if you're in
s'pore, it is quite a hassle in conducting kenduri's (happy, sad and all). I cannot
tahan my sadness, and me being me..i cant get myself to kiss him..but at last, i did
manage to kiss him goodbye. he died peacefully at noon on Sunday, 29 July 2007.
of cancer.

So long, farewell. ;)

kota singa, here i come~

my singapore trip come early. instead of year end, i shall go tomorrow nite. i was told, my dear uncle is already critical. :( i'm sad, i'm glad, i'm confused, :(

whatever it is, i'm coming. whether i like it..or not.

hear, hear~

i'm married~ yippie, in development..ahaha. effective 1st July recently, i am a proud wife of mr gerard arthur way..mrs way..hehehe..funny..ehehe..okok~ only in 110 ok. yet, i'm just plain happy. ok, husband..luv ya~

on other notes, just finished love life. sad but happy. the author really developed its character and situation and it felt like i really know them and feel them. uhuk uhuks. they're so real..they feel real and close.. well, it make me aware how to cope with fear of not knowing..and cancer. i'm scared of it, no denying it..but i'm hoping the best..for me, my family..and others. to my dear obek juri, i'm sorry i ever try to avoid you. i'll come over someday..ready. he might not read this, but take care.

my work: quite sucks, but thanks to my other half..and others..we're ok. oh, not to forget, him. TQ. kerana korang semua aku masih di sini. *poyo*
my life: bosan gak la..but dengan quite golongan yang sama, aku masih OK.
bff: sgt rindu.
familia: rindula kat derang.
cinta: are there?

all three down~

yeah..jz finished the last tale from "ecstasy". so loving it~ despite the so brit accent i dont quite understand..but still the characters was nice..all the revenge..the emotion, the rage..it was all cleverly plotted and was a good read. hope to finish "trainspotting" anytime soon..ihiks. totally rad~

gonna start reading Ray Kluun's Love Life anytime soon. hopefully t'was good. a very true story about a husband losing his wife to cancer. uhuks. *sob*

"the most honest love story you'll ever read"

going postal~

no my sabtu..no my whatever in details. briefly what happen as below:

1. my sabtu: went to the curve with intention to join apostrophe but i'd passed for ikea..shopping~ blk tido and then went to my bro's family day @montkiara equestrian park. layan concert rocks (ada radja, ella dn lain2) and bla3. blk tido flat.
2.my ahad: melodi? berita hangat "hans&erra". visit my dear sis @UKM KL. agak kopak la perjalanan. blk ke klcc yg dgn tujuan sbg stesen lrt klcc jek..tp dh ke kino dan membeli belah buku. but loving it. bought kam raslan's confession of an old boy. dah abih pon..besttt~! oh ye..balik rumah..makan dinner ngan rumet kat stroberi field yg sgt byk.
3.my monday:pegi keje..pastu tk igt la plaka apa yg prominent for the day.
4.my tuesday: pegi keje..tensi..dan juge dpt call and pegi klcc..lagi~ ahaha..met up my cousins and auntie..oh, ye~ i emailed him..and seems quite OK!
5.my wednesday: half-day, tourist guide to my cousins and auntie to masjid jamek/jln lrt. bought myself kain..lagi~ nice~ feel good/happy? die bosan dulu..haha..so happy smpai petang or malam...sis came over..with intention to watch transformer..ok, pernah tk seumur hidup korang wayang cancel, last minute..dan only inform, when we're trying to get in~ so like %^&amp;%&*%*#^#*& well i'm about to go postal..but i cant..so i just leave the task to my friends..
so dont think i'll be watching transformers. haish tp bff soh tgk gak..camne? later will think about it~
6.my thursday:nothing prominent too..tense lebih..and also silence..menyampah..what do he think i am? weks. oh, yatoque sleeps over..we hv fun alittle bit. she brought dinner for everyone. bersyukurlah walaupun leftovers. ehehe..oh, lupa..briefing by projectsPD. seems i have to strive more..you never know what would happen..uhuks..oh yea, i sat beside one mamat that i happened to have a crush with..before i know he's married. since then, he's only a colleague..tp kureng nye kenkawan, nk gak soh aku dok sebelah..weks..seb baik nothing happenned..ker ade ek? ahaha..only me and him know. >:)
7.my friday: went to work with bff..well, seems like our lucky morning, despites "friday the 13th" haha...yelah kan, since my bad luck has passed on wednesday..huhuhu..pepagi dh ke menara bekerja~ i see other side of a colleague..or more..but it was OK. he did but it was sucks. oh..bizi jugak~ and i did called mak before blk..she told me my so-called boifren lalu..as if la kan..ahaha..oh..forgot..i said goodbye. for good i hope.
8.my sabtu:pepagi kene bgn dn bekerja demi kompeni terchenta..tk dpt join another apostrophe session..huks..naseb baik tk crucial as the first go-live~ jadiknya, kol 1245 camtuh dh kembali ke rumah~ bagus..we went to seremban..me and roomie to anta tempah our baju-bajuan..pnat la haa..kitorg lukis2 design nk buat baju apa..in the end the makcik tamo terima pon lukisan kitorg.but no hal..tk kisah..and went jalan2 and makan2..menggemokkan diri yg mmg sedia gemok ni..ahahah..tk kisahlah, asalkn happy~! okla..currently dok dpan pc and ngadap blog..nk mandi and settlekan hidup~!

taking care all~ have to do something about my postal state..maybe i should be more postal to get what i really want. so goodbye to you my dearest..i really meant it.

trips to klcc.

blur blur~

“here i come” la sgt. X-( i've came..i’ve queued..i’ve joined a riot. ahaks..you know what..having queued since 730 am in the morn...at klcc..there~.morning at klcc..keje pon takde la pegi seawal tu tau. so like #^$#&&$*** okla..my dear friend yatoque who came 1 hr earlier did not manage to get the bag either..so much for limited edition. the management sucks..the campaigns' too. but what the heck~ i got the notebook. thank you dear. and you can expect "boycott anya hindmarch" campaign from me. dr tatau nama brand tu smpai la tau...mmg nk kene boikot. weks. oh, check out the pix. this gotta be the longest entry ever~ haha

the shop..nun jauh hujung sana~

see the girl with the pink bag..that's yatoque~
pakcik guard yg sungguh2 menghalau depan kedai~

xxx

on other notes..i've been like to klcc this week for three times. for the first i went to summitSAP07. it's like an event of career day and also seminar of SAP. an ERP solution widely used in the world. since my beloved company used the solution which started live this year..and also..(also la) i might be brainwashed to love it..ahaks..tipu je la..takde brainwash pon. :D so i go la..collecting freebies. ehehe..but because of i hv meeting that morning..i cant come earlier..hence dont get many freebies..and left to go alone without my buddies..ahaks..takpe la..dont mind..haish..but the one that i want to story is..as below. :D eh lupe..the first trip to klcc's was on 3rd of July 2007.

ok..the story went like this..so it goes, we buddies want to eat that break refreshment..malangnya tk la jadik..sbb nya..dah si mamat pelayan yg tego aku tu..ckp kol 230..ok la..tunggu..yelah agak lapa jugakk..tak lunch lg kn. pastunya..nani's quite hesitant and insist that we straight away go lunching. kasik kenyang perut..ehehe..tapinya mama aza pula mcm mau tunggu..ibu roni and me di atas pagar...nk dkat 230 tuh tanya la lagi..best jek mamat tu jawap kol 245. mau jek kitorg 4 org ni sepak pelangkong sama mamat tu..tp atas dasar budi bahasa yg tinggi dn juga agak lapar dan mcm malas nk layan..kami berempat pon chow dan pegi makan ke klcc yg agak jauh tuh la..dr kl convention centre tu..ah..sakit kaki i tau. :p tp cerita yg aku amazed tu bukan kt convcent. tpnya.kt tmpt kitorg lunching. nk dijdkan cerita..kami berpecah kpd 2 kump. 1st kumpulan yg lapo gila dn tk saba nk makan.iaitu aku and mama aza. *wink* dan kumpulan yg agak lapa tp nk ke guardian membeli something iaitu nani dan ibu roni. so kumpulan 1st ni pegi la beratur..oh ye..we've decided to eat at KFC. yumm yumm. tgh beratur ni, pkpk dan bincangbincang la nk makan apa kan..yelah..nk la kenyang dn juga budget2 juge..ehehe..ok..sampai lah turn aku...wah, "hello, i'm betty"..kt screen display tunjuk harga kt cash register tu kan..ugly betty..aku terdetik~ agak mencapai chacteristic gak la..but sweet...;) ok..aku order..kasik x-meal n cheesy wedges ek? ehehe..and adalah celoteh2 sket..iya lah aku kan peramah..muahaha..angkat bakul ni..ihiks...pastu aku cm tgk2 sambil auntie betty sediakan order aku..and sekilas aku terpandang tang die top-up cheese yg sgt bykk kat wedges aku..dn yg sgt heaven..aku mcm..wah cool~! bagus nye auntie ni..tdk kedekut..i love...ok..then i got my order and thanked her..and off to favaourable seat at crowded kfc. okla..perenggan lain plak..pnat baca.

Pastunya, mama aza pulak sampai kt tmpat kitorg...die pon amazed ngan layanan auntie betty yg sgt marvellous..die pon mmg dpt cheese top-up yg heaven..aku mcm dlm hati tu..haish..makcik ni mcm tau2 je kitorg ni suka cheese..ehehehe..pastu cerita2 la..dn memuji2 lagi auntie betty..sorry ye..i call her auntie bcos, she's a lil older and so nice...i'm so going to queue up on her line should i go to klcc's kfc again..ehehe and order myself cheesy wedges...there goes my story about the world greatest service provider, miss betty of kfc klcc. you go, girl~! ahaks..itu br kumpulan 1st. 2nd group ni..dh la beratur panjang...pastu lembap..nani mintak cheese top-up kt wedges die dpt seco'et je...jadik kitorg (me and ibu aza) ckp...lenkali kite carik line miss betty..sgt cool~! ahaks..there goes my 1st trip to klcc this week. balik opis..tau tak kol bape? almost 4pm. ahaha. but takpe2..dh dpt consent boss. :D

2nd trip to klcc, i met up my dearest friends yatoque..just to hang around..bitches about bitches..taklah..sembang sumbang jek~ and layan friendster,,ehehe..dan sembang2 la lagi kan..dgn minum caramel frap and java chip. uhuks. miss my coffee jelly~ i should make my own eh? Ok..the 2^nd trip was on Wednesday 4^th July. We first met up at the lrt station..and yatoque..yg lapa ajak mkn Burger King. yg sgt value for money ni..ahaha..for rm10 we’ve ate one whopper, one mango juice, chicken nugget and union ring..wow~ ok, i must admit I’ve been eating like there’s no tomorrow nowadays..uhuks..weks. but tk kisah la..uhuks..argh..what else eh? Okla..done with the eating..on with the shopping..konon la..membakar kalori sebelum tambah kalori utk dibakar lg..eheks..pegi mng, mcm bosan walaupun sale..pegi mng klcc pon bosan juge…but that red purse mcm menariks..tk beli pon..ahaha. and then zara’s quite bored too..but we did went to kino and bought myself a lanyard..dh rosak la. bila lah agaknya leh dpt coach’s ID lanyard yg sgt cool tu..uhuks. takpe2, that time would come. Then we went to that anya hindmarch boutique.(ala brand yg aku igt sgt dh tu!) to ask about the limited edition sale. I remembered how excited we were to get our hands on the bag..well, guess you know what had happened eh? so much la for the limited edition~ enough la bout it..and we go on to starbucks and have our drinks and straight away surf with my ibook and friendstering..ahaha..oh, updates~! Br dpt tau dr yatoque..bag limited edition tu ada 2700 untuk Malaysia..2000 dh kasik kat org2 media dan juga kaya dn korporat. Left about 700 for the boutique…and me quite sure, I’m among the 700 ppl..didnt get the bag. Tp utk menyedapkan hati..i told me, that’s was all duniawi~

Ok..samung2..tk abih2 lg n ink updet ni..ahaks..okla..loving my girl’s out with miss yatoque.

the third one is on Friday, 6 july 07. the day i almost got my hands on the “bag”. Haha..enuff said.

Err..actually, there was a 4^th trip. What? Four times to klcc in a week? Mmg dasar..sgt kompulsif. Okla,,pls forgive me as klcc was supposed to be a station for my trip back home to Universiti.haha

Alas, I’ve went to kinokuniya and bought meself books~! Baca jgn tk baca..dan terjadi kejadian kasta td..menyampah plak..hello..only purchase above rm100 got paperbag? Haish la..i bought almost the amount tau..kasik je la..kedekut btul kino ni..ni yg nk bukak kedai sendiri ni..haip..mende tk best jgn ceritalah kan?

Ok..then I went to the Petronas Gallery. That’s where and when I believed that I’m not what I supposed to be..ahahaha..ok, leave it to that..hv to type off..mau pigi makan and all..menggemukkan diri.

Next: my sabtu. :x

nothing happened.

i am ciknort. i'm falling..for almost 13 years. only on last february.. on the 8th, to be exact..i've make a move.after initial contemplation..after two phone calls to my two best friends..after "silence"..after "home"..after contemplate again ..after all the nervousness thrown away over the window..after 13 years..the response was ok..glad.. but, i'm not sure. i'm not sure does he feels the same way. i'm not sure. how was i to know for sure? i'm confused. it is complicated. i'd rather hear he'd say..wait..i dont really know what i'd rather hear..it's july now..we're ok ok..nothing happened..we're ok ok..we're ok?

ps: anya hindmarch, here i come~

chemical romance: 1 down, 2 to go

at last, i've have started reading Ecstasy: Three Tales of Chemical Romance by Irvine Welsh. Damn funny the first tale.A Rave & Regency Romance. hahaha. Should I know the tale is damniest witty + hillarious story..i have read it sooner..but being me, such a collector~ only collect, read later. i missed some of the fun. but why oh why, Trainspotting does not captured me that well. The urgency was not there.

Cant wait for the second and the third. oh, when will my own chemical romance arrived/emerged/muncul? eh~!

you.

You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

--
am i vain? vain as in " excessively proud of one's appearance or accomplishments"? hm..dont think so. haha..all my sis, well i think, families been talking behind my back, (of course!) i did have resemblence of some Zizie Ezzete's character. can you believe that? am i that bubbly and as animatic as that? huhuhu..heck, if i was..maybe i should hv that pride thingy rite? haha..whatever la..i'm just that ordinary crazy overgrown woman as i am right now..ahaks..

it's all because of you..yeah, you~! if you're vain, i should back up now..yeah, since all the guys i like would likely out of league..yes, married..enganged/gay (whichever true)..and again..married~! i just lost hope on men. haha..wishful thinking

but really, if you are or maybe you hv someone else..i would throw in the white flag. yes, i wouldn't take what's not mine. :)

haha..so much for writing this. i should be a writer huh? or maybe i should open a bookstore? hmm..so little time for so many things..how to focus when you think you are capable of doing things simultaneously? but i do think i make a good wife..(haha..kes malas nk keje! *grin*) oh..well.got a solid 5 years to decide! think think think~! act act act~!

ok, currently in love with michael buble's husky voice in everything. so, like i love~! oh, but, i still love my dear boyfriend (despite the rumor) but deep inside..i dont mind if he's gay..muahaha. yelah, he's like something lovable but yet, not reachable..in this small world of planet Earth. :D

ok..that's about bla bla bla..now something about work..hectic! but i always managed to get a few (lotss, maybe!) laugh along the way. june and july and afterwards, my life would be as hectic and quite not rich..ehehe..but i shall maintain that richness in heart, kindness and of course, love! there's lots to contemplate..to think..to earn..so hopefully all can be done!

why cant i be 10 and start over? (haha..another wishful thinking)

gossiping with roomie just now about my childhood. the one that i dont understand and something i tend to forget..that's when we..well i mostly, found out how vain the guy is..but my empathy and good will to him for recovering. ok, enough.. but i still have this little fear of what's might come.

i hope you are not vain. you are what you seems to be..but most important. you are what you are.

ok. to work is something i failed to ignore. so come one come all, to my tragic affair. now, today..tomorrow..

16 June 2007; 1:50pm

Lahirnya Nur Faris Danial Nur Azam. At least I got the time's right. zohor..haha. He was born two days early from expected dates. ahaks..but all in all, he's well..his mom too, and that's great. Such a big boy he is. 3.1kg..cool ha? anyway..my dear..tahniah~ semoga baby Faris membesar dengan baik. muwahs.

ps: ikut hidung siapa tu? :>

what a start~

well, i'm off to work early. before 7..all eager to eat breakfast at mcD, hot cakes, in fact..but alas, not so lucky me...no hot cakes, but it's OK..i still have that shrek mania! toys..donkey and pino~ ehehe...that SIs sure jealous..muahaha...then, it really pissed me off..well, i have already planned to wear these three baju..and today, is my black kebaya and seluar..i'm all black today..and you know what? i dont deserve any kind of humiliation today..atau umpatan2 menyampah ni..i can wear anything i want whenever i want...it's not up to you or you or you...to comment on what i would wear, ok? unless, of course, i should ask for your opinion...well, you makciks can all rot..for all i care..ahahaha. selamba kutuk aku~ ok, enough said about that..cause that wont bring me down today~ :D i'm still all black and still be today..so bear it..suka atau tidak. hahaha.

then, i bought myself business news..good, i read something good 'bout my dear company. let's all the bolehness spirits rise high today~ and even my 2nd ceo looks good today..ahaks. ok, it's 8:32am..let's all of you and me of course, "membanting tulang, mencari rezeki yang halal~"

good day~!

Posto posto~

nothing's new~ still the same old me..who like that same old guy..with the unknown reason. if he can read mind, i would like mine to be read..by him, of course~ ahaha..read my mind. ahaha..

having listen to kaiser chiefs, travis and danny elfman's choc factory OST, recently..i've got so much obsession to date. oh..not to forget, my boyfriend. i heard him yesterday. whoa, it's still amaze me. how i always liked him. :x that's..my forever obsession.

1. my ringtone: willy wonka, willy wonka..the amazing chocolatier..ahahaha
2. sms ringtone: i dont love you. obses.
3.current playlist: travis - closer & my eyes.
kaiser chiefs - everything is average nowadays (so true!) & boxing champs
4. food: happy meal mcD: damn you shrek mania! ahaha
5. kain fiesta: ahaha..having bought myself china silk..and soon--> "songket tabur". my cash flow like air sungai you know? huhuhu
6. business news: wah..tumbuh bak cendawan selepas hujan. good reading tho.
7. magazines: uhuhu...tk berani nk kira berapa byk saya beli..:D
8. my bed: i love my current setting of bed..so like, i love~!
9. him: oh..semakin obses. why?