post secret

sometimes i wish he's getting married, or even gay..so in a way, i could move forward. but that's gonna hurt, lots! :|

saya suka!

I forgot today is public holiday for Selangor, and was quite confident driving to campus to resit my paper. There, right in front my eyes, I could see that I'm sooo going to be late for my paper! It's not even Jalan Bangsar yet, and I kept on braking~! Cuak satu badan seh!

As I'm quite good in finishing up the story without the climax, haha. all turned out OK! I managed to resit at about 3mins late. rupanya start 10.15am~ huhu, I hope I pass. The result would be out Monday! *cross hands*

But what I really want to highlight here was during that drive, I was listening to Nadia fly.fm rumbling about show stopper hits, and this song was the winner! and to think about it, mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku~ ;|

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa dicintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

Telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

RM102.93 and re-sit Econ paper. huhu

this few days was hectic with personal issues caused by yours truly and also work..and news in the study department. huhu. but Alhamdulillah that personal issues has been a success after calls after calls to machines and bebelan tk sudah..haha. and thank you for the rebate, and i will surely come again. <3

works quite sucks, no doubt about it..but of course after not much toughts, just bear with it. hehe

in that study department..before lunch yesterday, it was great news..and right after lunch~ I have to re-sit! huhu..so goodlucks to me!

i'm quite happy with myself anyway, as my 2009 journal's quite filled with stuff. turn out, I dont have such a boring life! haha.

holiday party plans?

what holiday?
what party?
what plans?

Thanks but NO, thanks.

I have lots in my mind to ponder out, really! but i was and am quite pissed to those who had make being a guarantor, a pain in the ass~!! I mean those who didn't pay loans etc2 and thanks to them, most people felt that it's not beneficial to be one. In the end, you will kene one..they thought.

And now, I have no one willing to be my guarantor~ Not like I'm going to run away pon kan?..I'm not like ppl I've known..but never mind, this is just me feeling frustrated. So, who would care rite? I think I have been a guarantor..ah, yes..for my sisters scholarship, and oh yeah, my colleague's company loan. Well, that's where I draw the line I guess. OKla, i should have learned my lessons.

Never to assume~! even, when really, what you want is to help out a friend.

*be nice to ppl

let's move on~

i lost a friend on the net.. :( it's a shame, but worry not. real world is where we shall meet, and YM (occasionally)

or, this one? huhu

i like this.

myHalloween!!

yeehaa!! have a blast with tyson and the boys along with THE entourage namely kekura, harry, nana and sistas!!! my halloween's cool! next year i'm thinking COSTUME PARTY!!!! hommie, can or not? hehehe

oh, happy birthday ADIK!! congratulations NURUL!! and I have quite an insight at National Art Gallery!! definitely going back soon!

oh, again! i got a surprise from NY Film Academy. I never tought I would get THE booklet, since they are @NY and me @here and I've already downloaded the .pdf. anyway, maybe that's where I'm gonna be someday, who knows~!

ain't tyson's one hella guy~!? :x I bet he stinks! ahaks~

I've been tagged~! here goes..

1. MOST WORN Lipstick/ Lipgloss
for lipstick Benefit my treat or Estee Lauder Pure Color Crystal Lipstick, whichever reachable first, Avon Lips Defense for moisture, Anna Sui Lip Gloss (x igt no) but I love the rose smell of the gloss

2. MOST WORN Earrings/ Necklace
I dont do earrings, haha..for necklace I love my used to be once a year wear, during raya..as it was kept by Mak and I claim it mine..which is mine, really...my heart shaped gold pendant with unique gold chain. I want to replace the chain to another one, since I tend to snap it..but till now, did not find the right one.

3. MOST WORN Shirt/ Top
my KLue subscription give-away t-shirt. it's time to find a new one. haha

4. MOST WORN Nail Polish (changing this to my wrist watch)
same as my bffs, i change it to my wrist watch..but, wait a minute~!! i dont wear one~! haha i stop wearing it quite a while now, for unknown reason.

5. MOST WORN Shoes
currently, Crocs Olivia. eventhough its an imitation, but its comfy.

6. MOST WORN Hair Products
since i'm lazy mood dependently, i used shampoo+plus conditioner all the time. haha

7. MOST WORN Perfume
I love DKNY Be Delicious, but I tend to wear whatever easy to grab. Depends on my mood, it would be DKNY Be Delicious, CK One, CH Chic, Tommy Girl and new addition, thanks to bff aka roomie, CK Eternity.oh, I'm wearing it now..:D

8. MOST WORN Handbag
hmm, this is hard. I hardly wore one this few weeks. beg TM, boleh? I keep bringing laptop, and the bag keep all my stuff together. hehe. again, mood dependently, I go with my red bag, my black bag, Estee bag, oh..I love my purple Cleef bag too. today, I go big with my free Estee black bag. hehe. and I hope in future, my most worn handbag would be one's from miu miu. cant wait to get my hands on one, even if that would be in 4 years time..ahahaha

there, my MOST WORN~! thanks hommie

i love blue, but i have tendency to pick red, own purple clothing, black item. sometimes, i wore green and yellow..but really, i love blue. <3

a blast week-ends for a 28.

yea yea yea. 28 years and 2 days old I am. hehe. not much to brag about.. families who loves unconditionally, BFF, lovely friends, not too much to love colleagues (boring office), oh yea..my two cats (ye fila, derang bila aku ada mula lah melompat2 mintak attention gitu..blah la..no more love for both of you), stupid obsession with that guy, and bla bla bla...

overall, life can be draggy and damn and whatever..but we must not give up. it's too short to be filled by nonsense, ahaha. and i have a blast last weekend. a very long weekend~!

friday: i have allergy and take injection. :( sleep all day, and back hometown at about 8 something, or was it 9 something.. CSI was attentive! sampai rumah terus tido! walaupun lapar sebenarnya, yelah satu hari makan bubur nasi, ikan bilis pedas + lobak masin je..thanks yatoque!!

saturday: woke up early..terus tk tido blk..everyone's busy with kenduri..and me end up helping out with the lamb (huhu) and "kacau"ing gulai kawah..huhuhu. penat jugak la..selamba jek org tu tk datang..eee, geram jugaklah kan. the kenduri was great! met up with makcik2 and pakcik2 and min~ thanks dear!!

sunday: yeayy~!! i turn 28 and i feel 18..ahaha went to teluk batik..well, it was a long drive.. I have a blast tho~! mandi laut tk ingat dunia..lalala

monday: it's time to go back :( if not for the last day of economics class, you can expect me to be home tuesday morn..ahaks..but anyway, my sister and husband and baby afiq go back melaka after months in ipoh (sis and baby, of course), oh my bro off to penang, the kelantanese also went back (my older sister la..ahaha)..and lastly it was me. the other sis hv to stay because of her conditions. she have something in her throat? (i dont know, pity her) the other one want to wait for her boyfriend..mengada! the other one got 1 week off. jealous~! it's all quiet back at home.

and we come to today..where I'll be swamped with office, assignments!~ oh, help me please.. outta here~!

From SE..hehe

Mencube mende yg dh lama ada,tak buat2 je. Celcom gila smalam menybbkn
aku subscribe bb daily.tp sama je,mmg xleh nk connect pn.skang dedua
dh boleh,kenelah gune fon supaya x rugi.hehe.oklah. Tgh sakit kepala
yg amat ni.huhu. Taa.

--
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in search of Joseph Gordon-Levitt, i found this~!

which is better, actually..hehe

Hopefully this going to be my new obsession~! dan bukan hangat2 tahi ayam..lalala.

and I'm going to start by "This Is Who I Am". You wait Carrie, gonna reply soon enough! ;)

ok, on other notes..I'm going home tonight to Ipoh..cant wait, really~ if given the chance, I like to flee now..haha..but still at work..lalala.

and please, please, please...let me have what i want~! :D:D

notes, what happened this week~

1.monday class, OK

2.tuesday class, saiko

3.wednesday class, cancelled. 45minutes on the road for a less than 1km distance!!!!

4. in the mood for raya...actually, in the mood for not doing work's work done..ahahaha

Eid Mubarak 1430H

Quelqu'un M'a Dit

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses.
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud que de nos chagrins il s'en fait des manteaux pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore,
C'est quelqu'un qui m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore.
Serais ce possible alors ?

On me dit que le destin se moque bien de nous
Qu'il ne nous donne rien et qu'il nous promet tout
Parais qu'le bonheur est à portée de main,
Alors on tend la main et on se retrouve fou
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit ...


Mais qui est ce qui m'a dit que toujours tu m'aimais?
Je ne me souviens plus c'était tard dans la nuit,
J'entend encore la voix, mais je ne vois plus les traits
"Il vous aime, c'est secret, lui dites pas que j'vous l'ai dit"
Tu vois quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore, me l'a t'on vraiment dit...
Que tu m'aimais encore, serais ce possible alors ?

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud
Que de nos tristesses il s'en fait des manteaux,
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit que...

blind.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor


how can i make you see?

15malaysia

this has been around for a while now..only myself being the one so lambat to update on this...anyway, only 2 of 15 shorts has been released~! i love both of them!!!!!!!

oh, k.min~! how much i miss you :) Chocolate features the handsome, Kahoe and the ever beautiful, Amani. In less than 3 minutes, the shorts reveal issues in Malaysia..(note that I dont want to discuss it here) and that just the way K.Min sees it~

Potong Saga is by Yu Hang, another familiar name in indie scene.. You should download it..it's funny~! remember Namawee (the guy who makes whole Malaysia angry for the Negaraku song)..he's the main character..being fooled by his friends (kene sunat dulu b4 apply loan with Islamic bank) hahaha

Support Malaysian product!

ps: bitter i must not, when i did not get what i wanted..it may be for the best! :D

Noor Hazera Sohri says, "Talentime telah membuat dia menangis."

Would I'd be out of line if I said.....

I miss you~?

with her, you wont need photo imaging! :*

Blessed with the chance to know the one person with great mind and kindest heart, who connect me to inspiring individuals that later become friends; I thank you K.Min.

You shall never be forgotten and always be missed.

<3

predictably irrational~

well, there's times when i would become irrational. this is one of the time. i'm broke with RM20++ (kot) in my purse...and i'm about to make payment of not-my-car-first-time-service @sucks service center. (got wi-fi and i cannot connect..heh! and turn up using my own broadband (whch btw surprisingly smooth!)) and the charge would be about RM172.++ huhuhu...hopefully enoughla money in my sis account..lalala.

okla..leave that to that! yea! my other cat at kampung..nanang has gotten herself pregnant..and yesterday nite was the birth of my cucu! got 3 of them...i hope they make it..nanang jaga baby leklok k! hopefully i come back home and gave them names! they are so smalllllll...so fragile...and i'm excited but  at the same time scared for them..huhu..hopefully they all survive! rasa mcm tknak blk ok, pagi td! huhu...sanggup tuh..yelah...tatau sapa nk nurse my fragile little kittens..huhu...scaryyyyy! siap call k.mas lagi bgtau...risau plak..boleh ke si nanang yg kecik tu jaga baby..dah la kecikkk jek..tak sampai setahun pon umo..dah tak dara dah..siot tol jantan yg merosakkan dia..huhu..ohh..my sweet little nanang..huhuhu...bila la plak aku nk mengkasikan dia tu..kucing jantan  2 ekor yg debab tu pon tak dikasi2 lagi..huhuhu...ok, brad je xtra debab...si alvin tu harap muke je tembam!

on other notes..tahniah kepada skuad malaysia yg berjaya x memalukan negara sampai MU tk puas hati nk main lagi..hahaha.all the best skuad malaysia malam ni~! aku tgk result jek la esok..:D

apa lagi nie? perjalanan blk pg td alhamdulillah, selamat...smpai tol jln duta dlm kol 6.18am, hantar ila semua, dan smpai vista kol 6.34am..boleh tahan clear la jalan..bagus bagus...td masa nk ke bkt kiara plak..mcm jem jalan nk ke TM..aku suspek mmg UM lah tu..tidak syak lagi..ahahaha.seb baik la..aku cilok federal ke bangsar..alhamdulillah smpat hantar yanti..and now i'm stuck here waiting for the car service.

and i talk rubbish! ahaks..oh, news alert...Frank McCourt, author of "Angela's Ashes", dies at 78. Rest in peace, Mr McCourt.

i better finish up my contemporary economic book! andd.. i havent start my book review yet...wish me luck! even this one is a toughie..i would lurve to score! ihiks..have a good week, everyone..i know mine would be a blast...a so-so most likely...buttttt i want to make it a blast! =)

the Crown Prince gets him to talk.

whoa~! thanks a lot.it's been a long time since he talk. life is a circle, i guess.

what happen to me? I've managed to finish my second semester..and now in my third. Wish me luck as I am definitely sure, this gonna be a toughie..ihiks. the project i'm working in still not gone live. well, sucks actually. but just try to live it up.

bff get married, friends come and go, oh friends get married too..watch theatres a lot! movies..tv series..the cats FATTER, exclusive of alvin who got problem catching up with brad. but he will, like hommie said.

miss my ipod a lot~ havent heard it the way suppose to listen. currently, it become my external hard disk. haha

walk for 7km in one and a half hour..not bad~! :D

bodoh!

just enjoy the show~

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, Life is a maze and love is a riddle, I don't know where
to go I can't do it alone I've tried and I don't know why....


I'm just a little girl lost in the moment, I'm so scared but I don't show it, I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know, I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show."

last week was my bff's wedding. 06.06.09. memorable, yes? Alhamdulillah, like in their video presentation..
this going to be a new beginning for them. I wish them a happy life..;)

okok...now, my life still hectic..and i dont like it, at all! i still havent got time to lek lek chill in my room,
kidnap brad, and yada yada.  and i still hasnt submit my assignment..and i crave for makcik kembara's
nasi lemak..which now makcik kembara no more, it's become makcik hilux.
huhu..dh kaya sgt agaknya makcik nie..asik tk bukak jek..:((

 ok, i think i hv to find food la..lgpon, sarapan pagi kan penting~! =) muwahs.

Alhamdulillah~!

bersyukur...and i must strive harder..and smarter~! ;)

It's been 1 year 4 days~!

...since addition of Brad+Alvin in the 3-13-1 clan. woo hoo~! ini adalah kes terlupa anniversary, which explains the extra 4 days..hehe.

anyhoo, the cats are fat, phat and alv lost his hair whilst brad grown more..ihiks. and both soooo cuddle-able. (more to brad, actually~!)

ok, keja keja! smpai botak kepala!

hey~ have you heard?

Blink182 re-unite! huhuhu...i'm definitely head over heels...mcm dah agak cair pon ada nie....I so lurve them very much...

You can read it here, here, here, here, here and actually the lists go on!

Andddd.....it's a MISS i only know it like now..:( but it's ok (ayat sedapkan hati) i still love mark..and he's 37!

teringat plak my post about list of men that i like/love/whatever!

hahaha..mmg sgt pencinta lelakilah saya ni..::x:*

apa yang kita kejar?!

love? fame? money?

yeay! the song that i like..

local rupanya..yeay yeay! no more hunting for the song. lalala ..supports local products! yippie!



Excuse Me
Lyrics by Jipie Music by Pesawat

I don't know what you want...
But I would never give up for you...
Do you know what I want?
That I would never wanna give you an excuse...

It seems so easy..
Yet ..so pleasing...
You heard what I've said...
Maybe its never too late...

But it's not over....till its over!

Shed some shine
When you feeling fine..
With somebody (with somebody)
I don't know if I could take this...
To be somebody (be somebody)

You knew ...what I've said
We tend to make a mistake
Believe me all instead...
Maybe it's time for us to bend and break

But it's not over ...till its over!

Shed some shine
When you feeling fine...
With somebody (with somebody)
I don't know if I could take this...
To be somebody (be somebody)

Shed some shine when you feeling fine
With Somebody (with somebody)
I don't know if I could change this...
To be somebody ...be somebody you...love...

Do I love you?

It's not over....till its over...

note: Pix & lyrics "pinjam"ed from Pesawat myspace's blog. TQ.

psst..later la i update on my BKK experience..:x

guess where I'm at!?

hehehe..maybe it's not a very good time top visit bangkok now...i'm stuck here in the guesthouse lobby! it's been raining the whole morning..and believe me, it's good to snuggle up in bed...butttt, i'm in land of smiles now! i want to visit the grand palace..the wats and i want to go to the night market that we did not manage to go to last nite!

oh, you know what? we have fine dining at indian's cuisine last nite. it stated halal, so we went in..with 25% off ala carte, we spent a bit after hundred there..:( seb baik sedap kecuali silap order kuah lain plak..tuh yg terlebih mahal plak...sooooo, no fine dining after this..hehe..i've been running low in baht deparment..and i have not shop yet at chatuchak! no no no! so, have to jalan2 today..finish up all the sight seeings..before shop til you drop at chatuchak..hehe

ok! cant wait to see you gals at home! and the boys too...huhu..muwahs!

ebony & ivory cheesecake!

yang dah takde la nak cari kan...butttt, i've been looking for it for
a while now..huhu. the cake was so nice i really love it! and i always
try to search for it whenever i go to starbucks.but always to no
avail...pity me..

humm..well right now, im in starbucks in the hope of
ebony&ivory..hahaha...tk dpt..barulah tau dah tak produce lg. but it's
so yummy!!!!! i really love it! now, i crave for it..huhu..maybe i
should bake it someday...haha...i wonder when would be my someday!
lalala

anyway...today is one of best friend's wedding. lucky, i sms-ed her in
the morning..i really thought her nikah is on the nite! teruk
betul..ahaks..pape pon, Alhamdulillah her ceremony went well...good
good. :x i'm happy for her..harapnya she'll lead happy and good
marriage.

on other notes, this one shopaholic got one confessionnn! i spent way
too much la..how how? how can i curb my sickness of seeing everything
essential and important? ahahahaha..oops oops..serious issue here
please! dont laugh..lalala. uhuks.. got to curb this like...PANTASS!

i vow to myself, the bangkok trip would be end of my lavish
spending..after that only necessary item. kabush! ihiks.

oh, okla..maybe i should be back home i and kemas rumah..or cuddle up
with Alv. hehe..lagipon..this starbucks is too noisy la..if you want
noisy,.outside la, kat dalam ni nk chill2 jek..terganggu internet
i..walaupon senanya tk berjaya gune strbucks wifi :( terpaksalah gune
my already-exceed-5gb-broadband-usage! sgt tk best...oh..terganggu nya
gelak beso minah ni..uhuhu..baik aku belah before more sins is
commited..ahaks..

so, till next time..oh, you know what? terganggu dgn lagu yg taktau
sapa nyanyi ni..dok cari tk jumpe2..so, if anyone..knows who sang song
that goes something like this.."but it's not over till it's
over..bla3.." gimme a buzz! muwahs..thanks! well i heard it 2x already
at Hitz.fm.

oh! i'll start my special sem next week..wish me luck! :) TQ.

what a FINE day~

yes, it was.. I guess. I miss/wonder what ever happened to hero. :/ but nvm..did make over today and i was glittery all the way..haha. talk about me being glam..:D

and I bought myself 3 color eyeliner for bff wedding (well, actually I bought 2..then what about the guy's side? she asked. :p so in the end, it's 3..hehe) oklah tu..i'm going to use it anyway~

I cant wait for my high-risk trip..but it's hopeful that everything's gonna be find. *cross hands* but InsyaAllah, we'll have the safe go and return and fun and souvenirs <-- ni yang penting nie..I've to do lists of all things to buy there..no one to be missed! that'll include hero (walaupn cam x pnah nk pass brg lagi..haha) so hopefully, everything's OK!

and now, countdown to the trip! bff wedding! and.......my life!

so, take care all..

huhu.

Alhamdulillah ;)

Re: shopaholic~

wow! updated..so, might as well I update through email..ahaks..

well, for a start..there've been few things happened previously in my life..being "back-to-art thingy", theatres, movies, crushes, exams! and lots more...and more to come. cant wait for trip to bangkok..hectic weekends for May, definitely~ and please, organized,please!













hehe..among other things! :x

shopaholic~

yes, i am one quite impulsive shopaholic! will update more, hopefully! this time around..am testing posting thru email! lalala

back to me.

Hey you
So you never really found your way
Stay true
Did you ever make it through today

That when I think about a day without it
Everyday’s the same
You wish that you could find someone
But I’m the only one to blame

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way back to me

terpana.

i cant still accept the fact that i'm gonna interview the Mem. huhu. what should i ask? what should i do. already star-stricken upon asking her for an interview session. hahaha. i went all hot and red..can you believe that. maybe that's what would happen should i finally see my husband face to face. haha. oh, btw..she herself update her calendar "discussion with hazera" <-- that's me..omg! this is like next to another other big things gonna happen to me. kan dah ckp, i'm star-struck! gila kan? ahahaha.

huhu.wish me luck, i really need that! in work, studies and life!

oh, i'm planning for something red to be added in my precious, real soon. ahaks.

and beginning to miss hero back. ini semua gara2 mak mertua tegur nie. terpana..

Ada

Tahukah dirimu, Kawan?

Dalam serpih-serpih cahaya

Dan gerak-gerik halus benda-benda

Tersimpan rahasia

Mengapa kita ini ada


-dari Maryamah Karpov, catatan Andrea Hirata


nota: tetralogi indah penuh insaf saat selesai membacanya. :)

sungai lenggang.

sangat sayu. dan kuat, penyebab aku tidak akan pernah putus asa InsyaAllah. dan juga akan terus berusaha. teringat pendamping pemberian bff. terima kasih atas ingatan. :)

jadi, bagaimana mau tingkat motivasi diri? sabar, fikir, laku, ingat mak+bapak..andai terlupa, ingat sungai lenggang. ;)

well, this few last weeks..personal life, work and studies have definitely makes me not a person you want to mess with. haha. anyway, i did have fun falling for abang stephen, wish for someone just like abang jason, almost in tears during the last performance in klpac, having the yes and no feelings of stupid thinkings, stress out with work (or maybe the bosses), wish i was far away from here with somebody who love me, my first exam for mba (gila susah, ok! have to read and think more..maybe have to stimulate brain more), oh, assignmentssssss~! :( please learn to say no and meant it, oh..kene marah sbb makin berat..haha. oh, quite sensitive these few weeks (not proud of it, really), unintentionally went out with bff, attend wedding with nani, geng the movie with kekura+habri, pekan sehari@shah alam, among other things.i spent like..more than i can spend..that's horrible. and friend did not pay debt which was under my name.and hv no courtesy to response any of my messages (which is totally uncool!)..i have enough financial problems to think about. i want to buy a house. rumah atas tanah. period.

well, to think about all the above makes my tummy hurts. i believe someday all these probs would be settled. InsyaAllah. ok, nk sambung membaca, semoga dapat sesuatu. terima kasih andrea hirata.

oh ya. it's friday the 13! jatuh bgn sendiri ok! ;)

mati.

datangnya dalam pelbagai cara, lambat selambat-lambatnya, cepat secepat-cepatnya, senang, susah, mudah, seksa, sakit, payah, muda, tua..ianya pasti berbeza untuk setiap orang.

aku..tak tahu bagaimana aku akan mati kelak. mungkin esok, lusa, tulat..atau entah lah. tak terfikir lagi. tapi memang mati itu benar. sudah tertakluk dalam qada' dan qadar ku. jadi, jika masanya telah tiba..apa yang aku harap, aku gembira dan bahagia dengan hidup yang ditempuh, aku telah bahagiakan mak dan bapak, hutang sudah habis terbayar..dan jika aku ditakdirkan berkeluarga, zuriatku diharap menjadi insan yang berguna di dunia dan akhirat.

satu ingatan pada diri sendiri. :)

kata hati.

hati..
pujuklah perasaan..
jauhi segala kesangsian..
cinta..walaupun berjauhan..
kan ku kenang senyuman..
kerinduan ku masih..
kepadamu..
kekasih.

siapa yang dirindukan hati ini? sukar. stephen sekadar anganan. gerard sukar dicapai tapi kekal di hati. ahmad bagai impian takkan sampai. apakah hero jawapannya?

masih sukar dimengerti.

takut...

hari ini dapat tahu, perkara cuci mata di kafetaria budak2 ni. huhu..membuatkan aku lagi sedar, siapalah aku ni, dah la umur berbeza..memang perlu dilupakan saja niat di hati. i just should stick to husband only..:D

anyway, on other notes..just chatted with bff. about her updates..and how i should update mine.
so, here i am..updating.

about nothing, that is. well, i did told her how jealous i am for her LV. bila sy nk jumpa seseorang yang sgt memahami nie..ihiks.

so, that's all! gonna update more for surprises, if any..haha

have a splendid day! xoxo

sounds like fun!

1. being in love.
2. tie the knots.
3. lots of babies.
4. grow old together.

"will you still love me in the morning?"

"forever and ever, babe~"

:-/

mungkin aku tak bisa.

tak tahu kenapa lagu ini boleh menghantui aku sekejap. mungkin emosi tak stabil kot. haha.

kenapa?
kenapa?
kenapa?
kenapa?

broadband..here i come!

yes, goodbyes to dear 03.79551821+nhazera..you guys have served me well, all this almost 4 years. thanks to pencuri kabel yg sgt tk berprihatin lagi jahat..telah menyebabkan aku mengambil keputusan yg sukar untuk dibuat. yea, talian adalah seperti satu perkara yg mesti ada dalam hidup aku. seperti gian dibuatnya, tiada talian di rumah. alhamdulillah, rezeki murah..:) dapatlah aku memulakan penggunaan talian jalur lebar yg sgt lebar nie..ahaks. well, i'm currently using it. okla, dapat juga aku online di rumah..yippie~

oh, adit has make my day after not-a-very-good remark by one of the bosses. :((.thanks you! he said, i look younger than aab. i should always stay that way. of course i will..ihiks, no doubt about it! ihiks. okla, time to sleep. got a long weekend ahead. cables to be put aside, modem+router to be packed..maybe even a room to be painted? ahaks..well, i hope that would come true..since my intention to buy house turned out be"hangat2 tahi ayam"..uhuks..yelah, byk ni nk buat thn ni ok..that would be first on the list for next yr (cross hands!)

so, smile always..even there's no teeth to be shown..;)

situasi.

diskriminasi menjatuhkan aku
reputasi kini menjadi bisu
dan aku , ku layu disitu
mengharapkan sesuatu yang barui
tulah impian aku
dan bila kau menghilang
musnah la, musnah impian
tuk menggapai bintang
terangi hidup ku
ku mahu kau tahu
engkaulah, destinasiku
dalam ingatanku
kerana diri ini tak daya lagi
menempuh hidup yang ku temui
dan aku , ku tunggu disitu
mengharapkan sesuatu yang baru
itulah impian aku...

i've been tagged~ huks. by hommie.

THREE NAMES THAT FRIEND CALL YOU
nor
nort/ciknort
hazera

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE
mostly birthdays-so, that would be many. haha
oh, and 18.2

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY
sleep
bersama kawan2 yg kita suka
good food, definitely~

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AS OF NOW
if it kills me
gotta be somebody
yg terlewatkan

THREE PERSON YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST
cant find anyone

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE
payung from sfc
malaysia map for my car
new sport rim? haha

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
sleeping
reading
kacau brad+alvin

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION
yogyajakarta, minum secangkir teh sambil tgk org lalu lalang di kaki bukit..:x
anywhere gerard is..
anywhere he would be.

THREE FAVORITE CARTOON/ANIME CHARACTER
conan
oggy+three cockroaches..err..that's 5 already~

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO
mid valley
klcc
amcorp mall

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS
caramel coffeee frap
extreme mocha
air kosong

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG
purse
handphone
keys

THREE FAVORITE COLOURS
blue
red
purple

TOP THREE FOODS YOU LOVE SO MUCH
humm..i love foods..full stop

TOP THREE ‘THINGS’ SPECIAL TO YOU
everything...past, present, future..:*

TOP THREE ATTITUDES YOU LIKE
good
best
great

TOP THREE FACES YOU LIKE
hommie..i hv to agree with you..derang jek aku dok tgk sejak 2 menjak nie..hehe
brad+alvin and okla..i start to miss gerard back..

THREE THINGS YOU’LL BE DOING TOMORROW
work
try not to date bff..haha (3 kali ok kitorg jumpa arini..kalah adiel..:x)
class? huhuhu..tolonglah jangan menguap2

TOP THREE WHY YOU ARE BUSY AT THIS TIME
thinking why i'm still here..haha..figuratively and literally.
finishing this tag?
why i'm still here?

I’M TAGGING:
uhuhu..i've no one to tag~ :(
perhap g way would like to be tagged? hehe

breakfast tazo green tea + roti.

it's 09.01.09 8.11am when i started to type this entry. okla, got some time before work. hehe. just few update on my studies. ok, i've already started class on tuesday as my last post presume. Alhamdulillah all went well on registration and all. Syukur. So, I registered for 3 courses (2 core + 1 elective). I've gone to the the 2 core classes, which was OK..agak gerun sket ok..the first class was Mgmt IS. the lecturer is the Dean~ uhuks..i hope i make that course through. then yesterday, went to the HCM class. the lecturer is scary, but in some sense she's OK. so i guess for this class i have to participate/study extra hard..(argh, for every course pon mestilah~) oh, what makes it scary kan, for the first class..we have been warned and briefed on the hardness..and got replacement class some more~! uhuks, there gone my perfect saturday..snuggling with brad and alvin on my perfect bed. :x but, it's ok..it's ok..i'm sure something will come up..saya yakin, InsyaAllah..;) and today, gonna have another class, hope this will be ok too. the lecturer would be a mat saleh. hehehe.

ok, on 07.01.09, i went to klcc to use my rm20 parkson's voucher..that was the expiry date..so, by hook or by crook..i have to spend it..xnak rugi. :D and, after much thinking..i end up buying a case for my ipod in red, i like~! and 6 mini marker pen in colorful combination..ihiks. i like too~!

then i went up to kino to buy the twilight saga. but, sadly enough..only the first book is available. so, i've booked the rest, bought twilight..which i hope the books quickly arrive. :x edward cullen is my current obsession, besides gee+brad+alvin+sesapa lagi lah. ihiks.

more on books..you see, i went to klcc at night right..but previously, during lunchtime..i bought books..uhuks..it's travelog haji+travelog dakwah by same author, whom name i shall not mention here..hehe. well, i spent the whole night reading travelog haji..and this has made me more eager to save money to go..but in the same time feeling a bit scared and confuse..on the readiness of myself and hopefully my parents. so, on this one..i have to self muhasabah and get ready. :)

ok, that's all. i miss the cats. and the title, i havent have them yet. so, good day everyone. hopefully, today is a great day for all ;)

half-moon~

yeay~! Alhamdulillah.. the moon has come visit..yet another marvellous view from my own bed..i'm moon strucked..ehehe.

anyway, new update..i would finally register today! after lunch..straight off half day for the day..and attend class evening! wish me luck dears.

oh, would someday "layan" twilight saga..:-) vamps is on the loose everyone, beware~ :*

quarter-half moonlight.. shine bright, shine shine.

:x at about 12.10am, i switched off the light, get ready to bed, with blurry eyes (of course, dh mlm kan? takkan nk pakai spec lg..hehe).. there, i saw it...the most beautiful scenery from my bed i could i ever ask...Subhanallah~ first i saw the blurry bright light..then, i struggle to take back my spec and i saw it~ from the window pane, shadowed by my 3/4 curtain..the brightest quarter half moon shine brightly...first, i thought..photographic memory only la..but then, i get up..and in the darkness..get my manual SLR. and try to snap the moon..went to balcony, still in the darkness..with the boys miawed (sibuk jek org nk melayan ketenangan malam ni!) but i didnt think the SLR would capture it the way my eyes did. Subhanallah~! so, i guess..no pix to show here apart from my memory..:) anyway, it's almost half-month in Hijrah calendar..cant wait to see the full moon..hopefully, the moon would come back again..:*

i feel good, and i hope today would bring good news for me..syukran. apa pon, i'm grateful for what's i already got..and what i did not get. have a great day, everyone~!

Cats with Bells.

hommie bought bling bling for the cats~ it was like a bell parade at home..haha. ring here ring there..where can you hide, boys? nowhere..lalala..okla, if they are lost (hopefully not), they wouldnt be sent to dogs/cats pound..huhu..taknak la kan...anyway, some pix of them with their new bling..blue of course for brad, and red does look fit with alvin..oh, dear~ tolonglah jgn bertambah boroi..huhu. for more, click here.

dinner time~

apa tah brad buat nie..:D

oh, alvin..behave~

notes to my myself: really cross hands i could register already this wk. waiting is sucks, really~ wish me good. :)
oh, one more thing, rm4.85 is what i got for 30+kg junks. murah je kan? humm..

new year, new layout~

hehe..yes, it's me with new layout..well, i aim for a simpler me. along these years, i've been collecting what you might have called junks..magazines (lots of it!), brochures, small cards etc etc that has currently resides in my store-room..my room..the living room and such!

starting today (well, actually has started quite some time)..i've been throwing the junks out..(tp mmg sgt sayangggg ni~ :-( )hmm could i call it stuffs..because i have problems you see..i like to collect things..and then i dont seems to treasure it well..but i can see now, i've been creating all this clutters in my life..and i ought to do something about this, right? and being the big M sickness doesnt help either..so, with the start of new year..hijrah and masihi~ i'll be trying to simplify my life..(i even swore not to buy mags, mind me!) and keeping a list of resolution each day (cross-hands~) and try to make it true! hehe..at least, i have one done already (bffs birthday presents for 2009! eh, make that two! lalala)

ok, since i'm quite in a hurry..and actually i hv to do some work (yelah dah ada kat ofis ni..and dear me..hv to listen to that rock music yg sakit telinga nie..there's one boss guy here too..blasting his music!) but it's OK~! i'll be leaving soon..the rain has stopped i think! maybe tomorrow i come again, and see what can be done!

right now, i'm blasting off back home...take all that junks err stuff to recycle centre and clear the clutters in my room! hehe wish me lucks girls~

oh. 'ts not too late right! selamat tahun baru 1430H dan 2009M. semoga tahun baru ini lebih sempurna ibadat kita dan apa yg diimpikan berjaya direalisasikan ;)