Hola 2011~!

18 February 2011, today is! haha..I've been away too long. Miss it, but do not feel like writing in cyberspace or in my physical journal, either. I missed quite number of pages and also months but I do try to jot things down (mostly in my secret place..haha) Nah, just kidding~

Anyway, this year started off (well) slow~ and fast at the same time. It's been almost Wk 8 in my final semester (I hope!) and I still have not finalized the dissertation title! huhu. I hope today's meeting with the Supervisor bear some fruits. :D I really want to graduate this year, before the turning of BIG 3-0. Argh, just the thoughts of it makes inner me wish for a time machine for a different path of life..ok ok, that just wishful thinking..

Works seems so-so. Nothing much to say.. and it's appraisal time~! So, let's see where I go from here.. *cricket cricket*

I'm still stuck here..and I don't like it. Seems like nothing I could do, but I don't know what else to do. I don't see any light in this never-ending tunnel, I feel like I want to give up..but the question is, why?? Haha..I have now in my plate, a full study-career-wants-needs-envy-self inflicted injury, i might have to forget it just yet. :D I've waited almost my adolescence life..I can wait couple of years more. haha. Even on the 8th, I have totally forgotten about it!

So, today is my supposed lucky day~ oh, I feel it! and I'm gonna start off my 2011's entry with..

WEEKEND TO-DO

Saturday

• Tidy up that lil' back room aka Alvin's toilet
• Stop by at SS2 for Alv's litter
• Diana+Faezal's Wedding
• Finance Proforma Class
• new bedsheets (heart)
• Watch Bones
• Thesis activities
• Zumba's beginner (maybe!)

Sunday

• Watch new Glee
• Strategic's assignment
• Finance's reading and understanding
• Zumba..again, maybe? haha (if Zumba's on Saturday didn't happen..just ignore the "again"..haha)

p/s: I hope I manage to do all this. *cross fingers*

ALWAYS BE THINKING ABOUT THESE THINGS

I find an interesting read on "Always be thinking about these things". Makes me wander.

I've just got a call from Penang, suddenly. About the damned event that had happened during Raya eve. Well, suffice to say..I am damned, pissed and tensed and feel like I have no one I can confide to. It's highly likely I have to pay for the damage done and pricey too. I don't have it, seriously. Now, I really hate my day. I cannot say life, as I would've lied.

So, let's go through what to think:

Dreams. Yes, with that un-interesting event..I might have to postpone my dreams. Heck, I have lots of it. It would be suck. :( But I have make a list about it. Hip hip hooray for that.

Living. Hmm..I'm living life but I feel a bit like loser now.

Influences. Many, I'll think later.

Relationships (near and far). Because relationships are central to everything else. Is there a phone call you need to make? What can you do to help someone, or at least show them you care? <-- What can I do to help me? I'm super annoying.

Passion. Because life is short, you might as well spend it doing things you’re excited about. It’s only an overused word because most people don’t know what it is. <-- I cannot chose one, pathetic.

Destinations. Because you need to know where are you going, whether it’s a real destination or a representative one. (If you don’t know where you’re going, you’ll probably end up somewhere else.) <-- I dont know where I'll end up, really.

Deliverables. Because producing something worthwhile leads to a meaningful life. Every day you can wake up and think, what’s next? It’s often easier to focus on deliverables than a time schedule that may vary depending on what else is going on. <-- I have a list now.

Growth. Because it’s not about growth for the sake of itself, but if you have something good and you can build it further without losing anything, why not grow? <-- maybe, I just dont want to grow up :(

Metrics. Because you need a way to measure your journey. <-- hmm, later maybe?

Legacy. Because this is the most important thing! What are you building? What is the story of your life, and what will be its ultimate impact on the world? <-- I still working on it. :(

I hate this feelings.

It's my birthday...

and what I got is the news that my beloved Brad has died, 4 days after, 2 days ago. It was the worst present ever, thank you.

Devastated, I was. Still do, I am.

So, I don't know how to celebrate my birthday.

Do you?

glee's finale perfect ending~

to end it with this are just wonderful~ makes me wishing upon stars. and judy garland, oh was she just fabulous? i'm so watching wizard of oz~

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Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high,

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue,

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish

upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far

Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly.

Birds fly over the rainbow.

Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh why can't I?

well, it's gleeks time..ok la tu! haha

you are...my hero?

via le love

Obsessive Consumption: What Did You Buy Today?

1901's at 19th May 2010 with bff, her treat~! Thanks beb~!

And here I'd like to thank bff for her approval and her superpower to make my WANT a reality. :)

OK, enough shopping. Time for house cleaning, pronto! I vowed by this weekend my part of the house would be cleaned and organized. Yes for better house and living~!

Always~

Bon Jovi's Always is currently haunting my head now~ "Now I can't sing a love song like the way it's meant to be. Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore but baby, that's just me..~"

There's someone I'm missing now, terribly. I don't know what to do. I feel somewhat gummy all inside. It is as though nothing is ever right for the time being. Hmm.. I have nothing good to say, I should leave it at that! argh, still..a miss is a miss. darn~!

On other news, my Coastal Scents's 78 piece makeup palette has arrived~! That was super fast! Now, bffs and me can go all crazy with all the colors on the palette. Talk about girls and makeups~! haha.

click here for details

4th may 2010.

oh gosh, what happen to me? one post a month? so depressing..hahaha..or is it life offline is better than online..ahaks..i wish la kan~!

anyway..i'm just happy :)

happy birthday~!!!

i heart you forever and always~!

pic from here

placeboRocks~!

last nite was a blast, i love it! placebo has done well with their 20 songs old and new in 90minutes performance! abg brian mmg sgt mantap dgn suara yg sgt baik! the sounds is very authentic, not too loud..overall, i love la~! maybe some of the discography, i didnt manage to catch it up~! but more than 50% i know of~! not bad for a one day extensive learning~! haha

the songlist~

it was hard :(

after a long hesitation, i did it! :( and now, i'm feeling like parts of me have vanished. no, lost.
devastated, i am..tapi hidup mesti terus! lets make new memories, keep the past lost or maybe locked somewhere in between. here's to new life of mi corazón!

untuk kita!

Menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersyukurlah pada yang Kuasa
Cinta kita di dunia
selamanya..

Cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita.

dont leave me.

Ne me quitte pas
Il faut oublier
Tout peut s'oublier
Qui s'enfuit déjà
Oublier le temps
Des malentendus
Et le temps perdu
A savoir comment
Oublier ces heures
Qui tuaient parfois
A coups de pourquoi
Le coeur du bonheur

posting this in tears, for missing KakMin..for whatever happen on Saturday, Sunday..today. for hommie, for myself..i am scared.

from le love.

thanks for sharing

Fade Kitchen Bowls

I should buy myself a house, so I can keep all the things that I like and I want and use them! uhuhu

Nice Fade bowls which is uberCool! via swissmiss

this polaroid was taken on my birthday..

somewhere else away from home. I found out about late Jamie Livington through Zana while she was looking for Polaroid filmpacks (not that I know why..hehe)

it's amazing to see how life captured everyday in Polaroid film and in a way, make us wonder about death..well live and let live before death come and take you away.

Bermimpilah, maka Tuhan akan memeluk mimpi-mimpimu

saya mahu tonton ini... kerana sejak akhir2 ni, teringat sungai lenggang. :)

The Nuffnang Footprints!!

wow, just found out beloved Nuffnang have a wall, click here for more info. bff, jom snail mail photo!! hehe..

hey, fellow nuffnangers! here is one info you dont want to miss..the address for the snail mail!!

The Nuffnang Footprints Guardian
Nuffnang Sdn Bhd
12B-5 & 12B-6, Heritage House,
33 Jalan Yap Ah Shak,
50300 Kuala Lumpur,
Malaysia.

lama tak menggunakan perkhidmatan pos malaysia, mungkin inilah masanya. <3

i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.

<3

a heart that hurts is a heart that works.

[pix curik dr kekure..hehe..amik tau beb ;) ]

i'm savoring placebo - bright lights cause love hurts! and today's 182. i heart, no..i love it!!

Cast your mind back to the days,
When I pretend' I was OK.
I had so very much to say,
About my crazy livin'.
Now that I've stared into the void,
So many people, I've annoyed.
I have to find a middle way,
A better way of livin'.

So I haven't given up,
That all my choices, my good luck...
Appear to go and get me stuck,
In an open prison.
Now I am tryin' to break free,
In a state of empathy.
Find the true and enemy,
Eradicate this prison.

No-one can take it away from me,
And no-one can tear it apart.
'Cause a heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.

A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
No-one can take it away from me,
No-one can tear it apart.
Maybe ' an elaborate fantasy,
But it's the perfect place to start.

'Cause a heart that hurts,
Is a heart that works.
A heart that hurts,
Is a heart that... works.