that's what my mother hv said, in the trip that seems like forever to the muslim
cemetary. I was shocked to hear that and together we cried. I held her small frame
close as i reached for her hands. She was so fragile. I was too. I can feel her
sadness. it was indescribable.
Remembering the day that I met Obek Juri last year, it was devastated as he was no
longer the uncle who used to bring me and my brother to walks, trips when I was in
Singapore. When I was small. When my speech was still tongue challenged. When I
was so excited to ride on double decker bus and fell off my seat, while singing.
haha. biasalah budak lg kan..(everybody still remembers that, you know & yeah,
that's the routine stories to be laughed about la..yeah, about me) when I was
that cute innocent little girl, which still am. ahaks.sorry la, terangkat bakul
but he is still my dearest uncle. the father to all his sisters. my mother, & my
aunties. i may not remember all his kindness, but i'm sure he will be remembered
by his grace, kindness, thoughtfulness and above all, his love.
i'm not good in eulogy..i'm sucks at it..(very true)..seeing him yesterday in the
strectcher and looking all sick and fragile, being carried home. (if you're in
s'pore, it is quite a hassle in conducting kenduri's (happy, sad and all). I cannot
tahan my sadness, and me being me..i cant get myself to kiss him..but at last, i did
manage to kiss him goodbye. he died peacefully at noon on Sunday, 29 July 2007.
So long, farewell. ;)
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
on other notes, just finished love life. sad but happy. the author really developed its character and situation and it felt like i really know them and feel them. uhuk uhuks. they're so real..they feel real and close.. well, it make me aware how to cope with fear of not knowing..and cancer. i'm scared of it, no denying it..but i'm hoping the best..for me, my family..and others. to my dear obek juri, i'm sorry i ever try to avoid you. i'll come over someday..ready. he might not read this, but take care.
my work: quite sucks, but thanks to my other half..and others..we're ok. oh, not to forget, him. TQ. kerana korang semua aku masih di sini. *poyo*
my life: bosan gak la..but dengan quite golongan yang sama, aku masih OK.
bff: sgt rindu.
familia: rindula kat derang.
cinta: are there?
Sunday, July 15, 2007
gonna start reading Ray Kluun's Love Life anytime soon. hopefully t'was good. a very true story about a husband losing his wife to cancer. uhuks. *sob*
Saturday, July 14, 2007
1. my sabtu: went to the curve with intention to join apostrophe but i'd passed for ikea..shopping~ blk tido and then went to my bro's family day @montkiara equestrian park. layan concert rocks (ada radja, ella dn lain2) and bla3. blk tido flat.
2.my ahad: melodi? berita hangat "hans&erra". visit my dear sis @UKM KL. agak kopak la perjalanan. blk ke klcc yg dgn tujuan sbg stesen lrt klcc jek..tp dh ke kino dan membeli belah buku. but loving it. bought kam raslan's confession of an old boy. dah abih pon..besttt~! oh ye..balik rumah..makan dinner ngan rumet kat stroberi field yg sgt byk.
3.my monday:pegi keje..pastu tk igt la plaka apa yg prominent for the day.
4.my tuesday: pegi keje..tensi..dan juge dpt call and pegi klcc..lagi~ ahaha..met up my cousins and auntie..oh, ye~ i emailed him..and seems quite OK!
5.my wednesday: half-day, tourist guide to my cousins and auntie to masjid jamek/jln lrt. bought myself kain..lagi~ nice~ feel good/happy? die bosan dulu..haha..so happy smpai petang or malam...sis came over..with intention to watch transformer..ok, pernah tk seumur hidup korang wayang cancel, last minute..dan only inform, when we're trying to get in~ so like %^&%&*%*#^#*& well i'm about to go postal..but i cant..so i just leave the task to my friends..
so dont think i'll be watching transformers. haish tp bff soh tgk gak..camne? later will think about it~
6.my thursday:nothing prominent too..tense lebih..and also silence..menyampah..what do he think i am? weks. oh, yatoque sleeps over..we hv fun alittle bit. she brought dinner for everyone. bersyukurlah walaupun leftovers. ehehe..oh, lupa..briefing by projectsPD. seems i have to strive more..you never know what would happen..uhuks..oh yea, i sat beside one mamat that i happened to have a crush with..before i know he's married. since then, he's only a colleague..tp kureng nye kenkawan, nk gak soh aku dok sebelah..weks..seb baik nothing happenned..ker ade ek? ahaha..only me and him know. >:)
7.my friday: went to work with bff..well, seems like our lucky morning, despites "friday the 13th" haha...yelah kan, since my bad luck has passed on wednesday..huhuhu..pepagi dh ke menara bekerja~ i see other side of a colleague..or more..but it was OK. he did but it was sucks. oh..bizi jugak~ and i did called mak before blk..she told me my so-called boifren lalu..as if la kan..ahaha..oh..forgot..i said goodbye. for good i hope.
8.my sabtu:pepagi kene bgn dn bekerja demi kompeni terchenta..tk dpt join another apostrophe session..huks..naseb baik tk crucial as the first go-live~ jadiknya, kol 1245 camtuh dh kembali ke rumah~ bagus..we went to seremban..me and roomie to anta tempah our baju-bajuan..pnat la haa..kitorg lukis2 design nk buat baju apa..in the end the makcik tamo terima pon lukisan kitorg.but no hal..tk kisah..and went jalan2 and makan2..menggemokkan diri yg mmg sedia gemok ni..ahahah..tk kisahlah, asalkn happy~! okla..currently dok dpan pc and ngadap blog..nk mandi and settlekan hidup~!
taking care all~ have to do something about my postal state..maybe i should be more postal to get what i really want. so goodbye to you my dearest..i really meant it.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
on other notes..i've been like to klcc this week for three times. for the first i went to summitSAP07. it's like an event of career day and also seminar of SAP. an ERP solution widely used in the world. since my beloved company used the solution which started live this year..and also..(also la) i might be brainwashed to love it..ahaks..tipu je la..takde brainwash pon. :D so i go la..collecting freebies. ehehe..but because of i hv meeting that morning..i cant come earlier..hence dont get many freebies..and left to go alone without my buddies..ahaks..takpe la..dont mind..haish..but the one that i want to story is..as below. :D eh lupe..the first trip to klcc's was on 3rd of July 2007.
ok..the story went like this..so it goes, we buddies want to eat that break refreshment..malangnya tk la jadik..sbb nya..dah si mamat pelayan yg tego aku tu..ckp kol 230..ok la..tunggu..yelah agak lapa jugakk..tak lunch lg kn. pastunya..nani's quite hesitant and insist that we straight away go lunching. kasik kenyang perut..ehehe..tapinya mama aza pula mcm mau tunggu..ibu roni and me di atas pagar...nk dkat 230 tuh tanya la lagi..best jek mamat tu jawap kol 245. mau jek kitorg 4 org ni sepak pelangkong sama mamat tu..tp atas dasar budi bahasa yg tinggi dn juga agak lapar dan mcm malas nk layan..kami berempat pon chow dan pegi makan ke klcc yg agak jauh tuh la..dr kl convention centre tu..ah..sakit kaki i tau. :p tp cerita yg aku amazed tu bukan kt convcent. tpnya.kt tmpt kitorg lunching. nk dijdkan cerita..kami berpecah kpd 2 kump. 1st kumpulan yg lapo gila dn tk saba nk makan.iaitu aku and mama aza. *wink* dan kumpulan yg agak lapa tp nk ke guardian membeli something iaitu nani dan ibu roni. so kumpulan 1st ni pegi la beratur..oh ye..we've decided to eat at KFC. yumm yumm. tgh beratur ni, pkpk dan bincangbincang la nk makan apa
Pastunya, mama aza pulak sampai kt tmpat kitorg...die pon amazed ngan layanan auntie betty yg sgt marvellous..die pon mmg dpt cheese top-up yg heaven..aku mcm dlm hati tu..haish..makcik ni mcm tau2 je kitorg ni suka cheese..ehehehe..pastu cerita2 la..dn memuji2 lagi auntie betty..sorry ye..i call her auntie bcos, she's a lil older and so nice...i'm so going to queue up on her line should i go to klcc's kfc again..ehehe and order myself cheesy wedges...there goes my story about the world greatest service provider, miss betty of kfc klcc. you go, girl~! ahaks..itu br kumpulan 1st. 2nd group ni..dh la beratur panjang...pastu lembap..nani mintak cheese top-up kt wedges die dpt seco'et je...jadik kitorg (me and ibu aza) ckp...lenkali kite carik line miss betty..sgt cool~! ahaks..there goes my 1st trip to klcc this week. balik opis..tau tak kol bape? almost 4pm. ahaha. but takpe2..dh dpt consent boss. :D
2nd trip to klcc, i met up my dearest friends yatoque..just to hang around..bitches about bitches..taklah..sembang sumbang jek~ and layan friendster,,ehehe..dan sembang2 la lagi
Ok..samung2..tk abih2 lg n ink updet ni..ahaks..
the third one is on Friday, 6 july 07. the day i almost got my hands on the “bag”. Haha..enuff said.Err..actually, there was a 4th trip. What? Four times to klcc in a week? Mmg dasar..sgt kompulsif.
Alas, I’ve went to kinokuniya and bought meself books~! Baca jgn tk baca..dan terjadi kejadian kasta td..menyampah plak..hello..only purchase above rm100 got paperbag? Haish la..i bought almost the amount tau..kasik je la..kedekut btul kino ni..ni yg nk bukak kedai sendiri ni..haip..mende tk best jgn ceritalah
Ok..then I went to the Petronas Gallery. That’s where and when I believed that I’m not what I supposed to be..ahahaha..ok, leave it to that..hv to type off..mau pigi makan and all..menggemukkan diri.
Next: my sabtu. :x
Friday, July 06, 2007
ps: anya hindmarch, here i come~
Monday, July 02, 2007
at last, i've have started reading Ecstasy: Three Tales of Chemical Romance by Irvine Welsh. Damn funny the first tale.A Rave & Regency Romance. hahaha. Should I know the tale is damniest witty + hillarious story..i have read it sooner..but being me, such a collector~ only collect, read later. i missed some of the fun. but why oh why, Trainspotting does not captured me that well. The urgency was not there.
Cant wait for the second and the third. oh, when will my own chemical romance arrived/emerged/muncul? eh~!