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sometimes i wish he's getting married, or even gay..so in a way, i could move forward. but that's gonna hurt, lots! :|

saya suka!

I forgot today is public holiday for Selangor, and was quite confident driving to campus to resit my paper. There, right in front my eyes, I could see that I'm sooo going to be late for my paper! It's not even Jalan Bangsar yet, and I kept on braking~! Cuak satu badan seh!

As I'm quite good in finishing up the story without the climax, haha. all turned out OK! I managed to resit at about 3mins late. rupanya start 10.15am~ huhu, I hope I pass. The result would be out Monday! *cross hands*

But what I really want to highlight here was during that drive, I was listening to Nadia fly.fm rumbling about show stopper hits, and this song was the winner! and to think about it, mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku~ ;|

Mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
Mengagumi tanpa dicintai
Tak mengapa bagiku asal kau pun bahagia
Dengan hidupmu, dalam hidupmu

Telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
Menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
Tak mengapa bagiku cintaimu pun adalah
Bahagia untukku, bahagia untukku

Ku ingin kau tahu diriku di sini menanti dirimu
Meski ku tunggu hingga hujung waktuku
Dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
Dan izinkan aku memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
Tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
Dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

RM102.93 and re-sit Econ paper. huhu

this few days was hectic with personal issues caused by yours truly and also work..and news in the study department. huhu. but Alhamdulillah that personal issues has been a success after calls after calls to machines and bebelan tk sudah..haha. and thank you for the rebate, and i will surely come again. <3

works quite sucks, no doubt about it..but of course after not much toughts, just bear with it. hehe

in that study department..before lunch yesterday, it was great news..and right after lunch~ I have to re-sit! huhu..so goodlucks to me!

i'm quite happy with myself anyway, as my 2009 journal's quite filled with stuff. turn out, I dont have such a boring life! haha.

holiday party plans?

what holiday?
what party?
what plans?

Thanks but NO, thanks.

I have lots in my mind to ponder out, really! but i was and am quite pissed to those who had make being a guarantor, a pain in the ass~!! I mean those who didn't pay loans etc2 and thanks to them, most people felt that it's not beneficial to be one. In the end, you will kene one..they thought.

And now, I have no one willing to be my guarantor~ Not like I'm going to run away pon kan?..I'm not like ppl I've known..but never mind, this is just me feeling frustrated. So, who would care rite? I think I have been a guarantor..ah, yes..for my sisters scholarship, and oh yeah, my colleague's company loan. Well, that's where I draw the line I guess. OKla, i should have learned my lessons.

Never to assume~! even, when really, what you want is to help out a friend.

*be nice to ppl

let's move on~

i lost a friend on the net.. :( it's a shame, but worry not. real world is where we shall meet, and YM (occasionally)

or, this one? huhu

i like this.

myHalloween!!

yeehaa!! have a blast with tyson and the boys along with THE entourage namely kekura, harry, nana and sistas!!! my halloween's cool! next year i'm thinking COSTUME PARTY!!!! hommie, can or not? hehehe

oh, happy birthday ADIK!! congratulations NURUL!! and I have quite an insight at National Art Gallery!! definitely going back soon!

oh, again! i got a surprise from NY Film Academy. I never tought I would get THE booklet, since they are @NY and me @here and I've already downloaded the .pdf. anyway, maybe that's where I'm gonna be someday, who knows~!

ain't tyson's one hella guy~!? :x I bet he stinks! ahaks~

I've been tagged~! here goes..

1. MOST WORN Lipstick/ Lipgloss
for lipstick Benefit my treat or Estee Lauder Pure Color Crystal Lipstick, whichever reachable first, Avon Lips Defense for moisture, Anna Sui Lip Gloss (x igt no) but I love the rose smell of the gloss

2. MOST WORN Earrings/ Necklace
I dont do earrings, haha..for necklace I love my used to be once a year wear, during raya..as it was kept by Mak and I claim it mine..which is mine, really...my heart shaped gold pendant with unique gold chain. I want to replace the chain to another one, since I tend to snap it..but till now, did not find the right one.

3. MOST WORN Shirt/ Top
my KLue subscription give-away t-shirt. it's time to find a new one. haha

4. MOST WORN Nail Polish (changing this to my wrist watch)
same as my bffs, i change it to my wrist watch..but, wait a minute~!! i dont wear one~! haha i stop wearing it quite a while now, for unknown reason.

5. MOST WORN Shoes
currently, Crocs Olivia. eventhough its an imitation, but its comfy.

6. MOST WORN Hair Products
since i'm lazy mood dependently, i used shampoo+plus conditioner all the time. haha

7. MOST WORN Perfume
I love DKNY Be Delicious, but I tend to wear whatever easy to grab. Depends on my mood, it would be DKNY Be Delicious, CK One, CH Chic, Tommy Girl and new addition, thanks to bff aka roomie, CK Eternity.oh, I'm wearing it now..:D

8. MOST WORN Handbag
hmm, this is hard. I hardly wore one this few weeks. beg TM, boleh? I keep bringing laptop, and the bag keep all my stuff together. hehe. again, mood dependently, I go with my red bag, my black bag, Estee bag, oh..I love my purple Cleef bag too. today, I go big with my free Estee black bag. hehe. and I hope in future, my most worn handbag would be one's from miu miu. cant wait to get my hands on one, even if that would be in 4 years time..ahahaha

there, my MOST WORN~! thanks hommie

i love blue, but i have tendency to pick red, own purple clothing, black item. sometimes, i wore green and yellow..but really, i love blue. <3

a blast week-ends for a 28.

yea yea yea. 28 years and 2 days old I am. hehe. not much to brag about.. families who loves unconditionally, BFF, lovely friends, not too much to love colleagues (boring office), oh yea..my two cats (ye fila, derang bila aku ada mula lah melompat2 mintak attention gitu..blah la..no more love for both of you), stupid obsession with that guy, and bla bla bla...

overall, life can be draggy and damn and whatever..but we must not give up. it's too short to be filled by nonsense, ahaha. and i have a blast last weekend. a very long weekend~!

friday: i have allergy and take injection. :( sleep all day, and back hometown at about 8 something, or was it 9 something.. CSI was attentive! sampai rumah terus tido! walaupun lapar sebenarnya, yelah satu hari makan bubur nasi, ikan bilis pedas + lobak masin je..thanks yatoque!!

saturday: woke up early..terus tk tido blk..everyone's busy with kenduri..and me end up helping out with the lamb (huhu) and "kacau"ing gulai kawah..huhuhu. penat jugak la..selamba jek org tu tk datang..eee, geram jugaklah kan. the kenduri was great! met up with makcik2 and pakcik2 and min~ thanks dear!!

sunday: yeayy~!! i turn 28 and i feel 18..ahaha went to teluk batik..well, it was a long drive.. I have a blast tho~! mandi laut tk ingat dunia..lalala

monday: it's time to go back :( if not for the last day of economics class, you can expect me to be home tuesday morn..ahaks..but anyway, my sister and husband and baby afiq go back melaka after months in ipoh (sis and baby, of course), oh my bro off to penang, the kelantanese also went back (my older sister la..ahaha)..and lastly it was me. the other sis hv to stay because of her conditions. she have something in her throat? (i dont know, pity her) the other one want to wait for her boyfriend..mengada! the other one got 1 week off. jealous~! it's all quiet back at home.

and we come to today..where I'll be swamped with office, assignments!~ oh, help me please.. outta here~!

From SE..hehe

Mencube mende yg dh lama ada,tak buat2 je. Celcom gila smalam menybbkn
aku subscribe bb daily.tp sama je,mmg xleh nk connect pn.skang dedua
dh boleh,kenelah gune fon supaya x rugi.hehe.oklah. Tgh sakit kepala
yg amat ni.huhu. Taa.

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in search of Joseph Gordon-Levitt, i found this~!

which is better, actually..hehe

Hopefully this going to be my new obsession~! dan bukan hangat2 tahi ayam..lalala.

and I'm going to start by "This Is Who I Am". You wait Carrie, gonna reply soon enough! ;)

ok, on other notes..I'm going home tonight to Ipoh..cant wait, really~ if given the chance, I like to flee now..haha..but still at work..lalala.

and please, please, please...let me have what i want~! :D:D

notes, what happened this week~

1.monday class, OK

2.tuesday class, saiko

3.wednesday class, cancelled. 45minutes on the road for a less than 1km distance!!!!

4. in the mood for raya...actually, in the mood for not doing work's work done..ahahaha

Eid Mubarak 1430H

Quelqu'un M'a Dit

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses.
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud que de nos chagrins il s'en fait des manteaux pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore,
C'est quelqu'un qui m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore.
Serais ce possible alors ?

On me dit que le destin se moque bien de nous
Qu'il ne nous donne rien et qu'il nous promet tout
Parais qu'le bonheur est à portée de main,
Alors on tend la main et on se retrouve fou
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit ...


Mais qui est ce qui m'a dit que toujours tu m'aimais?
Je ne me souviens plus c'était tard dans la nuit,
J'entend encore la voix, mais je ne vois plus les traits
"Il vous aime, c'est secret, lui dites pas que j'vous l'ai dit"
Tu vois quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore, me l'a t'on vraiment dit...
Que tu m'aimais encore, serais ce possible alors ?

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud
Que de nos tristesses il s'en fait des manteaux,
Pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit que...

blind.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor


how can i make you see?

15malaysia

this has been around for a while now..only myself being the one so lambat to update on this...anyway, only 2 of 15 shorts has been released~! i love both of them!!!!!!!

oh, k.min~! how much i miss you :) Chocolate features the handsome, Kahoe and the ever beautiful, Amani. In less than 3 minutes, the shorts reveal issues in Malaysia..(note that I dont want to discuss it here) and that just the way K.Min sees it~

Potong Saga is by Yu Hang, another familiar name in indie scene.. You should download it..it's funny~! remember Namawee (the guy who makes whole Malaysia angry for the Negaraku song)..he's the main character..being fooled by his friends (kene sunat dulu b4 apply loan with Islamic bank) hahaha

Support Malaysian product!

ps: bitter i must not, when i did not get what i wanted..it may be for the best! :D

Noor Hazera Sohri says, "Talentime telah membuat dia menangis."

Would I'd be out of line if I said.....

I miss you~?

with her, you wont need photo imaging! :*

Blessed with the chance to know the one person with great mind and kindest heart, who connect me to inspiring individuals that later become friends; I thank you K.Min.

You shall never be forgotten and always be missed.

<3