finally~

she told me! part of me was glad, part me was sad.

IC-less

huhu..i left my IC at home today..and also my ATM card with money~ great~ kan kan? ahahaha..bagusla sangat. with the day, i'll sleep over at Yatoque's place. dan juga dengan keinginan nk minum kopi yahudi ni..uhuks. agak saiko gakla. luckily still got some money..ehehe. okla berpada2 sket weh banje this year. you got a loongg way to go~!
and a long list to adhere~ ahaks. ok..buat keje! tolonglah.

ps: later i'll updates on my weekend! best la jugak. :D

the end.

Now come one,
Come all,
To this tragic affair,
Wipe off that make up,
What's in is despair,
So throw on the black dress,
Mix in with the lot,
You might wake up and notice you’re someone you're not,
If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see,
You can find out firsthand what it’s like to be me,
So gather 'round piggies and kiss this goodbye,
I'd encourage your smiles,
I'll expect you won't cry.

(currently my tones for sms received. so saiko, tp i love. silalah sms saya selalu. you'll think of death. eh, me more likely~)

my musical~

haha. nothing perfect can be said with the latest scrubs episode. just marvelous. haha. more than that~ it's all started when a patient passed out and wakes up again listening all the people (people here means - JD, Turk, Dr Cox, Carla, Elliot, even Dr, Kelso..hey dont forget The Jan-Itor ahahaha..dan lain-lain watak sampingan) around her singing to converse. how musical is that~? i was like laughing my eyes out watching it. all the way~ sambil memaksa missfila, my roomie tgk. wakaka. i love all the song. the singing. from the "guy love" (which is so gayY~) and ""Everything Comes Down to Poo"(so disgusting..haha) it was so entertaining. haha. hey, also got matt leblanc as cameo too. ihiks. you can watch the two videos @youtube~ just search for nbc scrubs. think that'll do. ;) but seriously, it's a good watch~! LOL. ok nite2. got to rehearse my speech tomorrow. oh dear, do not be so nervous my laling~

the list.

just read zach braff myspace blog. he's so awesome~ did i tell ya i love his humor and thoughts. lagi, dia sangat senang dipandang. tidak jemu, bak kata orang2 tua. :x hehe. can you sense where i'm going to? naah! ehehehe. ok lemme tell you what i did confess to my dear cousin, Ana. hell she keeps that in mind. so, i'm gonna write it here so i wont forget. or maybe when i read it again few years later, it'll make me laugh until my heads turn. ihiks.

i told her that there are 3 men that i love and they share same age, which is 34. that is in year 2006. born in 1972. with different birthdate, the three men were and always be Mr. Mark Hoppus, Mr. Zinedine Zidane and not too forget Mr. Wentworth Miller. yes, they did not share the same career but age. :x but i'm so loving them.

but if you were someone close to me, and know me. you always know there would be someone not reachable, i repeat, not reachable.. that i love. if there was to be a list, humm...maybe more than 10. but with reasons. so, to make do what i promise to do (well, i told yatoque to do a list about this..) so, here goes. eh before i forget. i love jude law. and just recently found out he was born in 1972. see where it goes? :D

ok. here goes my list. (without alphabetical or 'whom i like the most' order.. just list whoever i remembered)
1. Zidane - French, of course~ since he's retired, i dont know who to root for. uhuks. i mean World Cup. the only football game i ever watched. :D
2. Mark Hoppus - Blink182. whyyy, they have to break-up. hait~
3. Wentworth Miller - Prison Break. need I say more. he's like SO hot~
4. Jude Law - the englishman. so brit. haha
5. Gerard Way - OMG. current obsession~!
6. Bert McCracken - still OK~! harap2 dia jumpa apa yang dia cari ;)
7. Zach Braff - walking genius. i just love his humor and bittersweet language. my, i love u, man~
8. Ahmad Izham Omar - uhuks. malu~
9. Rashidi Ishak - ngee.. kalau ada drama die berlakon, sure nk tgk. whether it's his slit eyes or his smile. dunno. so, mcm i like~
10.Johnny Depp - willy wonka~ willy wonka~ the greatest actor alive! muwah muwahs.
11.Billy Corgan - abang botak tetap menjadi pujaan hati. a poet that i always refer to.
12. Daniel Wu - hehe, agak hensem la cina atong ni. ahaha. eh, guess what? he's '72 babies too. :))
13. Doug Robb - dob:2 jan 1975. uhuks..mmg suka mamat ni. tertinggal plak. neway. he got small eyes. ihiks.
err..ada lagi ke ek?

oops, i think there's more. but none come to mind. no worries, the list will be updated as and when i feel like it. hehe. kenkawan.. kalau agak2 ada yang terlupa, minta tolong ingatkan ok..;)

eh, lupa pasal zach's braff. he did write something about colin hay's song, i'm doing fine. got to find it. sounds like a good hear. neway, enjoy the lyric. muwahs~

oops great~ takde dlm internet lirik dia. biar betul. nampaknya mmg kene carik CD dia. ok, in the meantime, some of it (taken from zach's blog. TQ dude~!)

“Sometimes I’m up…

and sometimes I’m falling down.

Lately my luck…

Has been dragging on the ground”

and..

“I’m doing fine…

and thanks for asking.”

enjoy your week, everyone~!

home.

"Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Let me go home
'Cause I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home"

caffeinated~

did i ever told ya i'm a coffeholic~? more like starbucks freak! but really, i dig good coffees...whenever i felt like it~ like today, i think i was sugarhigh/hyper/caffeinated..you named it~ i was like a walking junkie that was so hyper active i felt that i must help all the people that i met..i was being quite a psycho..ahahaha...a little bit wonka i think..ahahaha. well still is~! ok..it's all started with that 1/2 full of milo in a cup filled with hot water for late breakfast... 1 perfect shot of mocha strawberry whateva@sfc for afterlunch and lastly..perfect shot of espresso frapp@starbucks for dinner come supper! yes, with that perfect rocky road~ so chocolaty! i'm completely caffeinated~! ahahaha...the effect still last till now. oh ya, i made someone feel flattered today~ didnt think i can do that! it seems rite.

well, i have a date with my best friend yatoque, which happened to celebrate her birthday yesterday. so it seems quite appropriate for me to see her the day after. ye lah kan, dia pun nak redeem present dia. dasar perempuan~ ahahaha. but the celebration was so sweet. again, i rephrase, never thought i could do that. and then, me being quite "gedik" (which here meant hyper/pyshco/whatever).. i was requesting for a candle..customised my drinks..and sang to her birthday song in front of people. plus, i did networking with that girl working there (starbucks) broaden my horizon, konon~! hehehehe. betapa saikonya saya. but it was worth it~ every minute of it! thanx yatoque for being such a good friend..;) thank you too for appreciating your good friend..:D

so apa lagi ye? before terlupa. alamak, lupa lah saya apa nk ckp..ahaha. tp td dah buat jelingan maut kt delifrance klcc. you can expect me to boycott that particular outlet!

oh yeah! cant wait to see muse in action~! ok, i only bought the cheapest tix available. such a cheapskate. wakaka. well, i'm not interested to lompat2 terkinja2 and mix around people to see them. i'm like that old lady who only come to enjoy the music. ehehe. so me with my dear yatoque will sit at the corner of the stadium and enjoy their ever good live! music. uhuhu..tak saba la makcik~ sure seronoks! hopefully my another good friend kekure and her friends would finally got their seat. ;) haish kene follow up ni tanya dia current news.

oh satu lagi. updates on my room. such a mess. we both are. selamba je si yatoque ni mengatakan niat dia untuk provoke aku pindah ngan die..wek wek wek~! tunggu dan lihat saja. whatever happen next~!

tgh layan muse (black holes and revelations), MCR (the black parade). loving 'em all~ bila la my dear gerard and the whole bunch nk dtg malaysia ni..:-?

okla..cukup2lah tu updet blog. want to dream about my special someone (no one that i really know in reality) and pray for him to find me ASAP. pastu nyanyi sesama, "together we're invincible". kata nk kawin by 18 Feb, tp boipren tkde lg ni..camne??

argh~ hilang lagi!

this time, my jeans jacket. :| unfortunately, i left it in deli france, klcc. went back less than 30 mins later, the bag's gone, the jacket gone. the manager claim did not receive anything from her staff and see anything under the table. uhuhu..so sad. not that that piece of clothing was expensive. not at all..less than RM30. huhu. but the personal value is high. uhuks. now i have to buy a new one~ :( aku kene lepaskan baju itu. :( tambah plak, ada baju anak sedara skali dlm tu. baju2 yg t'tinggal kt s'pore. hilang jugak kt kl. so irony. huwa. ok enough~! lupakan baju itu. :(

hello, sunshine~ (ala2 gaya mr wonka)

heya..it's 2007 already. how time flies. i'm 25+ and getting older each and everyday. huhu. what do i achieved eh? humm..let see. none stands out other than being me. plain impulsive naughty "sedikit malas" hazera :D

haha, anyway..my resolution for 2007 is...nothing. :D for everyday, i am blessed with all these practical resolution, so i just stick to day-to-day resolutions and live the day as it is. my life, my way. but mind me, i still have what they called plans. it's all on my head. say, if i forget one..the plan will find its way back to me. so no worries. hehe.

so, it's already 6/1/2007. what i achieved so far...more to what i did so far. Bekerja bertungkus lumus dari hari rabu ke jumaat dengan selingan-selingan merehat minda. 80% competent and continously effective. :D akhirnya, mendapat hadiah dari minah kekure. thanx alot bebeh. i like, of course. sendiri mintak~ haha

currently, im sorting out all my personal belonging. CDs, mags, collectibles. musics, prints, such an expensive hobbies. bless me. :D eh, lemme story briefly what i did in singapore recently.

thursday nite: all the way to pudu with very heavy feet. terasa malas2 nk gerak. haha..smpat tgk "what women want" believe me, apart from them being handsome (some lah kan) (the contestant i meant) i dont want any of them. :D not what i want.
friday morn'- at the wee hour of 4am, arrived. found out my prepaid hasnt been registered yet. what the? i remembered it being registered at tmpoint when i'm downgrade my 3g line. haiya. manyak susah wo ini macam. i have to call the careline like at 4am and ask. lucky i'm quite in happy mood that morn, so takde lah amukan syaitan kat larkin. wakaka. neway, at that wee hour, still many people...looking lots like me..lost, sleepy..kalau disorongkan bantal, harus tidur~! apa-apapun, selamat sampai ke rumah bibik. dan jumpa mak..hoyeah..i love. lepas subuh, tidur wlaupun sebenarnya digesa emak ikut dia pegi umah bibik pia. haha. lucky me. tidur smpai puas. kunci alarm pon tk bgn. haha. after zohor, more likely after 3. gone to older uncle+untie house. my dear uncle is diagnosed with prostate cancer. it's been like the whole year, he has to undergo chemo and mostly radiotherapy. it's been glad to see him happy to see us visiting him, but in the same time devastated as there's no words to express what i was feeling that day. i just hope, he'll be OK and pray for his health.
after that went to jurong point to met mariyam, so we three..eh lupakan nk bgtau. ana, yam and me went to bibik pia's house all the way in ..(eh, lupe plak kat mana. tp yg pastinya, terhangguk2 gwe tertido dlm taxi haha)sampai2 makan. oh ye, my bibik and her husband were going to perform haj at Makkah. konon pegi menghantar la kan. :D yelah, dah my mak and bapak and also my oldest bro family datg sana, mestila mau menyibuk jugak. :D okla everything went well. but so damn tired. huhu.
saturday: my mak and bapak and the whole bunch balik ipoh that morning. me stay sampai bosan. :D gone to vivocity that evening. nice place. all the at south of spore, with view of sentosa island and the cable car. but i did not go there. maybe next time. :D
sunday: just hang around at house. ana's attend friend wedding. but on that evening, we went to movie. nice~ night at the museum :D then lunch/dinner at thai kitchen. OK~! thanx ana. muwah muwah.
monday morn: balik kl. but merempit with abang kiki. dia hanta gwe sampai larkin. hehe. best tk best? sangatlah experience nye ha..:D

oh tu je la. not too brief nampaknya. :D

uhuks..tuh je la setakat ni.tgh dok melayan lagu2. my chem, muse, the killers and lots of other songs. and hoping i could go to the muse concert. takda sapa nk belanja ke? :D

i lost a friend.

The Fray - How to save a Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

watsup~

tired~ expectedly. :D balik2 bekerja terus kerja bertimbun. ahaks. so later. nk uplod gambar pon mcm beso la plak file. later~

whatever happen in December 2006.

Heya. Banyak perkara berlaku rupanya pada Disember. Eh, sebenarnya suku tahun akhir 2006. Tapi, aku nak senaraikan untuk bulan Disember je. :D

1 Dec - My dear sis birthday, beloved Ina. She's 23. Will be married earlier than me, that's positive. :D
8 Dec - Yanti + Yatoque sleep over. Bercanda sampai malam tengah malam dan pagi plak. haha.
9 Dec - Family Day TM. tp pegi bersama rakan2. ahaha. Petang tu, masak dinner for Yanti. Tempe, ikan Bilis, kentang sambal...mmg mengancam..sedapppppp~
10 Dec - Met up with Mak, Bapak n Abg Dan's family. Not to forget my bro, Abang. terpaksa lone ranger, k.Nora n Nabil ke Johor. eh lupa my dear sis Yanti and anak2 sedara yang comot2 tu (Bila, Syahid n Hafiz)
11 Dec - Tgk Barnyard dgn yatoque. Sleep over @her house.
12 Dec ( 9 am - 1 pm) - melepak @ opis Yatoque dn beli tix to Bali. Cant hardly wait~ :x
12-15 Dec - The best camping ever. Got to meet great people and it felt so wonderful.
16 Dec - Terlepas Rock The World + Words & Tunes @ BORDERS TS. the day I found out about her being pregnant. :|
17 Dec - Terlepas Troubadors @Atrium sbb tersalah dengar dan pergi ke Ikano. a long story actually. haha. ignore the spelling mistakes, malas nk check. :D
18 Dec - my childhood friend's birthday, Ina. A mother with a beautiful daughter, turned 25.
19 Dec - Outing with Kekure n Habri. Watched Glastonbury. Enlightening. Sounds fun to go to the Carnival. Cumanya, sanggup kah? :>
20 Dec - Got extraction. Sakit siottt....hopefully bertahan sampai akhirnya. ok. no more tooth decay~! ever~!
21 Dec - Go to Singapore hooray~! catch up later about that after Christmas.

ps: did I ever tell ya I love Christmas~! ehehehe

The first to know?

No, I guess not. She is 13 weeks & 5 days pregnant as at Dec 16, 2006; and i'm still not on her list to be informed. Well, the first to know? You decide.

coba

Terlalu Singkat Untaian rasa yg kuselitkan.. Semoga mampu 'tuk meluluhkan.. Hati pemilik senyum itu.. Perbagai cara akan ku coba.. Agar aku takkan kehilangan.. Pandangan dari senyum itu.. Dan di saat ku katakan “jadi kekasihku” akan membuat kau jauh lagi hebat.. Percaya padaku…. Percaya padaku…. Jiwaku untukmu.... Hidup terlalu singkat… Untuk kamu lewatkan tanpa mencoba cintaku…

Don’t you wanna feel my skin on your skin?

The Killers - Sam's Town

I love the album despice Brandon's new look! tk comel dah. :D but neway, i just love'em. it's like falling again for Mr. Flower. :D

Enjoy~!

Bones

(Come with me)
We took a back road, we’re gonna look at the stars
We took a back road in my car
Down to the ocean, it’s only water and sand
And in the ocean, we’ll hold hands
But I don’t really like you, apologetically dressed
In the best put on the heartbeat line
Without an answer, the thunder speaks from the sky
And on the cold, wet dirt I cry
And on the cold, wet dirt I cry

Don’t you wanna come with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my bones on your bones?
It’s only natural

A cinematic vision, ensued
Like the holiest dream
There’s someone calling, an angel whispers my name
But the message relayed is the same
Wait till tomorrow, you'll be fine
And it's gone to the dogs in my mind
I always hear them
When the dead of night, comes calling
Save me from this fight
But they can never wrong this right

Don’t you wanna come with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my bones on your bones?
It’s only natural
Don’t you wanna swim with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my skin on your skin?
It’s only natural
I never had a lover
I never had soul
I never had a good time
I never got gold

Don’t you wanna come with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my bones on your bones?
It’s only natural
Don’t you wanna swim with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my skin on your skin?
It’s only natural

"I don't love you, like I loved you, yesterday"

yeah~! the title doesnt potray my feeling. hehe. i'm just so happy i finally got my hands on my new precious~!!!!! my precious~ ok, ok~! you all can picture me as gollum~! wakaka. just bought myself the special packaging of the black parade~! it was awesome! i have not finish harrassing it yet, well got the whole CSI to be finished off first, then I'll "berchenta" with it~ imaji ini ya, gwe berinternet dulu, sambil dengerin satu rakaman MCR di situs nya~! ahaha! seriously, they sounds awesome!~ ok, try to hear it all @ www.theblackparade.com. sorry ya gang~! malas mau link kan~! got lots of work to do~! ahahaha. oh ya, cant wait too for my present~! kekure, mana ni? hep hep~! oops..thanx my dear yatoque for the present~! i really love it~! muwahss

yes, i think i forgot few things. firstly~! Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin~! Happy Eid to all Muslim all over the globe~ May all our brothers & sisters live happy and safe altogether. peace~!

secondly, i totally forgot to visit my dear old friend~! thanx to the three moist choc cake that my sisters and i bake yesterday! sorry dear. i'll try to make it up to you another 2 weeks. hope you and baby still at kampung~! :D (ps:/ my cake is yummy~! ahahaha..more calory to burn~!)

thirdly, all the CDs and books that I lend/borrow. huhu...have to make a list~! :D

think that's all that i can list down~! wanna continue watching and harrassing~!

taking care everyone~! 3 cheers~!

friday the 13th

i just post it for the sake of just posting. hehe. when shall i meet my match made in heaven ya? takde kene mengena ok dgn subjek. haha.

adam's song

This is me being depressed..ahaha. but really, what he said make sense. we are to die alone, we're such a loner in this over-crowded world. please humor me friends, i might need some~

while you do that, kindly meet my forever-huggable-never-be-mine-boyfriend~ he's cute neh! somebody's husband with kids, he is. haha~ so, if you meet somebody look-like him...please tell him, "hazera kimsalam~!" ahaha..eh, i'm not so depressed anymore la. cool! happy fasting everyone!

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I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

imok~

Has nobody asked you how you are?
You look like you might not last the day
I wouldn't have made it very far
So we'd make a good team right away
I've not made amends for yesterday
My lip won't get me out of it
Waking up dreading hearing tales
Of all my nightmares being true
I take a breath and grab the phone
Secretly hoping you're not home
I'd leave a message - I was out
Out of my mind on drink and drugs

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