tattoo'd~

haha..mcm terkena plak dgn lagu nie..uhuk uhuk!

"I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'll always have you"

tattooed, figuratively i was..but the best thing is, i will always have it..haha..

based on saharil.com, my pick today is "mudita" which is explained by wiki ->"mudita is a Buddhist (Pali and Sanskrit) word meaning rejoicing in others' good fortune." so, expect me to be a very very sweet little girl who shall rejoice in others' good fortune! hehehe.

the other one is Schadenfreude, a German word meaning 'pleasure from misfortune'..but, between you and me lah kan, i like this word better...ahaks..uhuhuhu...where are the sweet little girl, huh? hehehe...but takpela..apa2 pun, im still that notti notti one..ahaks...

yes, for today..i go for mudita~! want to share happy news with me? i'll make you happier~! muwahs..

my supposed 99th post...now, it's the 100th!

"haha. countdown to the hundreth. ahaks. well, im not one to post daily, my life forbid me to. ahaha..well, here it is..after almost 1 year and 5 months, the number finally almost reach 100. ahaha. nothing much actually to ramble today..im going to work, maybe alone.

house is installed with pest control this morning. hopefully all is ok.

craving for kopok lekor."

there you go, that was supposed to be my 99th post..ahaks..but with God blessing, turns out to be my 100th post in nottikos.blogspot.com today, 5th March 2008. it's obviously not 1yr5months now..ahaks..

oops..kene kluar kjap..brb.

ok dah..meh sambung..almost 1yr 7months now, my dear blog.nothing mature about it, though. i just wrote what i want, what i like, whenever i feel like it~!

but since, this is my 100th post..it wont hurt eh, to write what happened today..(arinije kot..cm tk dpt nk pk whatevr happen to my life in chronology)
-no work..go seminar only..haha..another excuse to be very very RELAX..(if u know what i mean)
-got news the list of appraisals results were uploaded..huhu..a very shocking + good news indeed.Alhamdulillah! hmm..dan terasa mcm tk percaya je..ada org tu..makin gempak appraisals..betul ke?
-gossiping on works related item, as if la..uhuks..me going to do TM for real..saiko btul..gonna leave ESS for real..sad sad sad.
-poor k.mas~!jahat sgt jiran die soh pindahkan kucing2 die..jahat sgtttt..she was so devastated that she shall move too with her precious cats.cats.cats. oh, she offer us to adopt one of her cats..so tempting..but the decision is up to hommie. *cross hands* hopefully she'll agree.but if she is, no more fantasy of cik/encik kapas + si comot yang comel..hehehe. kitten actually, the name is joni. hehehe..tah btul ke tk tu..hehehe.
-oh, br kembali dr menemani asnani (kelig keje) utk jalan dgn kete baru..punyalah dgn percayanya igt die dh terer..rupanya hentam kromo juge..siap kluar vista td tk pasang lampu OK? betapa saikonya muke aku..ahahhaa..but all went well..selamat smpai ke rumah nie ha.Alhamdulillah
-oh, oh ye...hommie hasut makan mcD..:p tp mkn jugak sandwich buat sendiri telur goreng+hotdog! hehe..sama jek..but at least sendiri masak..oh, oh..she would like to heat our almost lemau kukis..the first one ok..but the second batch! uhuks..semerbak satu rumah..i did not notice the burntt..tp..mmg harum la satu rumah..ahaks..trus mcm, kitorg..ah, tidak~! yatoque.....!~! trus sorok kukis dlm kabinet..ekekeke..tgk tu yatoque, betapa sayangnya kitorg kt ko..tahan kemahuan ni.supaya ko dpt merasa kukis~! ehehehe

oklah..nk samung baca some light reading -> "the manny" :x

taking care all~! muwahs.

kukis kasih sayang dari hommie~ ;x

tenkiu for hommie, berhempas pulas buat kukis untuk diri sendiri dn juga saya. with sole intention, to bring some to office. hehehe. more like 2/3 of whole adunan..ahaks..

dearest fila, walaupun terdapat rintangan, kukismu masih tolerable.. sedap aja dilidah ku..ekeke..weh, bukanlah~! sedappp sgtt! marilah berusaha lagi..there's lot room for improvement~! haha..br buat 4 kali nie..we got a whole life to implore..hmm..kene pkpk ni nk kasik kat calon2 mak mertua nie nnt..ahaha.

kepada cik yati, kami berdua menunggu kedatangan anda..cepat tau~! nnt kukis abih..>;)

hari minggu yang sgt hebat..3 recipes, 3 new bought books, 3kgs gained at least..ekeke..

yeah yeah yeah..masih ku igt "hopes+fears" ku. no worries. nite2~!

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updets: gamba2 kucing comel~! :D psst...pardon the quality, my camera phone..biasa2 jek..hehehe

yg ni, nk kasi nama encik atau cik kapas (bergantung pada jantina)

yang ni pulak, si comot yang comel..hehehehe

[kalo dapt amik dedua ekor kan best~! tp semua ni, adalah emotional thinking not rationally...huhu]

week ends with sistas~

hommie too, of course..ahaks.

started with last minute plan lead to stressful nite..but all was worth it~ dan seperti biasa, telefonku mati tiada batt. it might suggesting something, but i chose to ignore.

oh, the plan --> make it short, enjoy one hella movie with kekure.."there will be blood". memang bertumpahnya darah malam tu..hahaha..lucky enough, amukan puaka kekure, no victim was initially down..:D

that nite, i was so tired, physically and mostly emotinally..i slept like a log. oh..my two sis come over too. which make it hectically haywired..as they dont hv keys..and me watching movie..how how? haha..

saturday was fun. morning @jusco midvalley. got myself signature hot choc which burnt my tongue..(sakit lg..mkn x sdap dah) shopping groceries to cook nasi ayam! my conclusion is, come early to supermarket, fresh fresh fresh. i ate salad and baby tomato for breakfast..yummy~! oklah, hv lunch of nasi ayam..it was great. disbbkan semua lapar..lupa nk tangkap gamba~! sis said, the presentation was good. kipas~! hommie said, can do business ni..@kl sentral..hari2 die makan..weks..oh skali ngan jimmy..and the stall would be called, "nort nasi ayam". haha..funny~! pastu semua tewas dn tido. haha..oh ye..my other sis also came..which make us 5 person all. ina, yana, ila, fila and me. yg tewasnya 4 org..sbb ada la sorang tu gi dating. ahaks. oh, lupe..sbb tido yg mcm x bersedia, boleh lupe tuan rumah nk datang melawat anai2..ahahaha..kesian adik2 kene paksa bgn. ;D

ptg merangkap malam, we (me+yana+ila) went to pantai dlm pasar mlm. it was great. the plastic bags we brought back was countless. ahahaha..nafsu nafsu. pastu mkn lg malam tu..ahaks..habiskan nasi ayam.got satay, ayam tulang, apam petak yg sdap, apatah lg..oh, the real reason we went there in the first place is to get us things to cook nasi lemak..haha

tewas skali lg, semua org pg tadi. yana, who earlier planned to go back yesterday postponed her journey to eat nasi lemak..haha..sanggup. but all went well. the nasi lemak was good too..love it~! bertambah 2kg semua org..ahahaha..aku lebih sket kot..haip..oh, menu for breakfast cum lunch is..nasi lemak+ayam goreng berempah+sambal with udang,ikan bilis, kentang+ikan bilis sedap+sayur kacang goreng udang+starbucks coffee gazebo blend. nyum nyum..our deserts is courtesy from yana, rojak buah pantai dalam.

thank you to all who participate..it was a great week ends spent together. looking forward for next week. muwahs..cya @sg rokam.

adakah anda betul2 yakin dengan pangkahan anda? ;-)

29.02.2008

closure.

i do not believe it, i guess. but at least, i do not deny it.

NO, is what i get. I'm not going to ask for "nape?". Just let that be.

do not be sad, i said, as there are those sadder than me.

so, is this a closure for me? as far as the ego said yesterday..it is.

oh, i dreamt of someone (rather odd but sweet, t'was) last monday. thank you stranger (kinda) for making my day worth smiling/blushing all day. stress is a four letter word.

gatal tangan.

hey hey~! guess, where i am?

guess la..ihiks. @lobby EDC, UUM. jauh nun ke utara saya pegi. terlupa kn nk bawak passport..kalau tak dah boleh ke selatan thai..ihiks. :D saje jekla menggatalkn..dah nama pon tema gatal..ahahaha.

ckp pasal gatal nie..gatal plak tangan ni..dua belah plak tu..tk suke pule..maksudnya mcm duit dpt..duit pon keluar jugak..huhu..tak boleh berbelanja nmpaknya..uhuks uhuks.

ptt nk kluar ni ha..tk keluar2 lg nye..mana tah org yg ditunggu2 ni tak kunjung tiba..oklah, segan lama2 kat sini..nnt org lain nk gune juge~!

nk baca buku, kasut buku rubina by sufian abas. lama2 baca...terhadharilah kita dibuatnya..ahaks..:p

tudeloo~!

Before It's Too Late~

I wondered through fiction to look for the truth

Buried beneath all the lies

And I stood at a distance

To feel who you are

Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you

Is the one that would save

A life you dont live is still lost

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it

Love til you feel it

It's all that we need in our lives

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

booming "hoo-hoo"

"seperti sang pungguk rindukan bulan
terlantar dia di bucu katil
irama lagu-laguan jadi teman
entah kenapa berputik di kala
hatinya akan kekal pemuja rahasia.."

oit~ berangan pulak..syooh syooh..buat kerjalah..ahaha

182

my supposed lucky day. well, i feel luckier already. haha..

will you dance with me tonite? :x 

good day~!

while, im updating this (again!)..i'm crying..not that there's something bad/sad happening..like now..but i cannot help it..this song, jz keep me doing it..crying, i mean *sobsob* me cant sing it properly also..yelah, i cant stop crying what.haha. the lyrics + melody melancholically stabs thru my sensitive heart. :D anyhoo, please read this poem..you, who knows me..shall understand. 

"If you could told me everything

You could have found what love is

If you could have told me what was on your mind

I would have shown you the way

Someday I'm gonna be older than you

I've never thought beyond that time

I've never imagined the pictures of that life

For now I will try to live for you and for me

I will try to live with love, with dreams

and forever with tears"

fyi though..it's not mine..googling about "X-Japan-Tears", the song that always kept me crying. huhu..i found this poem..sources said, there would be times that in the end of this song, the poem is recited by the band. 

you are happy when..

you smiles a lot and in the edge of hugging everyone! yes, that would mean every strangers you met along the way..haha~!

he did it, he did it, he did it~!

:x

on other notes..dok melayan Nidji "Top Up" album. i like it~ but the first one was the best :D

"bukan aku tk cinta, tp aku tk mampu.."

hazera adalah seorang yang malas 2 hari ini. sbb bos xde.:))

mana cik fila ni..kata nk layan movie? :p ok..make a move first..nk masak bubur, sup sayur dan ikan pekasam mak buat..nyum nyum nyum..lapanya terasa..cepat2 gerak gi masakkkk...tata!

update khas untuk puan rynn~

hello all~! how's your holiday? hehe..mine was OK. I spend my 2 of 3 days leave in the office. haha.. even it was half day..it was worth it..ihiks. :D:D

takde lah aku rajin sangat OK..but i felt it was some responsibility (walaupun macm aku buat mcm opis aku sendiri..hehe)

untuk kesenangan puan rynn, aku akan cuba kasi clear sket cerita aku..ihiks..:D but no worries, puan..mostly crap. x paham pon xpe ;)

updates dari mana2 yang aku igt:
1. blk ipoh, ada la diskasen family sket..yelah, adik aku nk kawin beb..insyaAllah bulan 11 or 2..nnt aku jemput k ;) ada pape idea tak utk brg berkat? i'll be happy to receive some comments dearest friends..:D
2.ye, terima kasih cik yati kasi clear..aku naik gred. Alhamdulillah..more responsibilities to be held, obviously. :D
3.cuti aku byk lg, sbb tuhla berusaha utk habiskan cuti thn ni..disbbkan ongkos pon tidak membenarkan tahn ini, x dptlah digunakan utk ber"vacation" di luar negara..sehingga terpaksa membiarkan cik yati kita ber"vacation" dgn kawan baru dia..ehehe..jgn marah ek babe~! (psst, thanx call td..walaupun cubaan tk berjaya..maaflah, di waktu kejadian kawan awak yg sgt bijak ni..blk kg tk bawak charger blk..padan muka kt dia..sekarang masih charge)
4.sedang melayan dunia baru..ahaha..dan juga berusaha utk tengok sindarela tetiap minggu..wish me luck!
5.masih berusaha juga mengosongkan harddisk.hehehe..sebb nk isi citer lain lagi..
6.masih setia juga menunggu "writers guild strike" habis, supaya boleh donlod dan layan series dgn gumbiraa~!!

oklah..aku br blk dr ipoh ni..tgh basuh baju sambil layan dunia baru..hehe..so, taking care ok puan rynn. thanx singgah~! muwahs.

love life.

it's fuckin' indescribable life can be. huhu..it's sucks today, mostly.

sangat tk cool~

my intention was good..tego2 setelah lama tk bertego sapa kan..is, "oit, sombong~!!" dengan nada memain, sounds rude? knowing me, tak ke itu mmg aku..but..tegoran mengatakan aku bukan islam, mmg sgt tk cool..ok, memberi salam mmg bagus..tp wajib ke memberi salam dlm YM? hello, where are you...heaven?~! oh, F U la...uhuks..pastu nk lgi memberi ceramah ttg mmberi salam itu satu kewajipan..oh, please...salah la ko menyakitkan ati aku skang...eee...aku mmg marah skarang...tk bg salam dlm ym boleh isu kepada dia..so, you can go to your lil community..and i wont be in your little community, period. sekian, terima kasih~!

built to last.

so, not to make this long long long..i've just got to tell you truth..nothing but the truth. i am in love..ahahaha..i just hope the other person knows it too..which i highly doubt it. haha

this, is my hope towards the ever-to-be-if-it's-ever-gonna-be anything..:x

oh, i'm pretty much high in my selfless mind..ahaks..(tolonglah sedar, minah oi!) i'm so full of myself i cant properly think of the consequences..what i do know is i'm crazy..ahahaha..this must be because of me <-- caffeinated. it does me, sometimes..caffeinated, sugar high..i really did well in that division..ahaha..i can climb this very building of block 3 and sang my heart out..just to let him know what i really felt..do you think he'll hear me~?! *batting eyelashes*

or, it must be the song that i've heard first last yr @MTV, and it has successfully haunt me back this year. and without fail, i'm still loving it~ oh, it must be my sensual mind working it's way. damn~! i bet if i were destined to be dead, right now..my autopsy result would be..love anxiety overwhelmed~! ahahaha..whatever i was rattling, like now~! oh, it MUST be the coffee, definitely. fyi, i've got 4 sacks of coffee bean from starbucks..how do u think i'm gonna finish that huh? coffee freak, that's me..

you are my sun in my universe~!

i'm pretty much adore mike, from melee. he seems err, shy. :)

ode to abg heath~

1979 - 2008

It's sad when someone you know dead
Even sadder when that someone is someone you love to watch
Saddest when that one can relate you to something
Devastated when he leave a mystery behind
But who am I to judge, let alone define
May you rest in peace..:)
Is only what one can hope.

Heath Ledger is that someone that catches my eyes + heart in "10 things i hate about you", "a knight's tale", "brothers grimm" and "casanova".

yes, i'm one sensitive girl. thank you.

dan tidurlah..

haha..i wish~! mana boleh tido bai sekarang...ahaks..br pukul 1.55pm..ahaks.

adakah anda terasa digunakan bila:
a. dicari hanya jika ada perkara berkaitan HR berlaku?

humm...tak kot..ahahaha...

andra oh andra..your voice is kinda sexy. i like~! alamak, curangkah aku kepd husband?..oh, tidakk~!

whatevr i'm mumbling of..sbb pc lembap la nie..tkleh nk tgk gossip girl pilot. uhuhu..dan oh dan..ihiks..better stop, like now~!

okla..andra+thebackbone..mmg sgt best. lirik for lagi..dan lagi..*enjoy!

huhu..x jumpe plak..so, relaks~!

oh..x saba nk cuti raya cina yg sgt pjg..i dont care..nk cuti jugak~! haha

selamat hari lahir bff~

maaf lmbat ye bff..:D:D so here goes..

sorry this year, i have not done my job well as you have your new best friend..ahaha..siap recordkan lagu birthday lagi..ampun ampun..ahaks.

anyway, hope you have a blast on that day..which i knew you did..;) so, a year older..not a soul older eh..marilah kita bersama kekalkan kemudaan kita smpai bila2..ahaks..muwahs muwash..and believe me, even you hv "new best friend" >:) i will always claim my right as your bff..;) muwahs muwahs..thankx for the cake, dear..it was way delicious..i gain quite a few pound, TQ. haha..maybe i should stop being your all beloved "tong smpah" huh? ehehehe

lastly, selamat hari lahir my dearest..semoga terbuka hati ibu utk benarkan kamu berkahwin..;) i'll always be there, k ;) :x

Alhamdulillah!

Syukran Alhamdulillah for the rezeki given to me. Thank you thank you thank you. It is expected, but not this month..so I have to say I am shocked when the HR man told me congrats, for whatever reason I'm not sure of. and more shocking when PL ask me to see her with another colleague..as I was like, "alaa..ada prob ESS lagi ke? huwaa~!" when I went to see her, congratulations is what I got and I was in total shock and glad as well, as extra money is quite what I seek this few months..haha..tp x dpt pon..:D:D kene usaha lebih lagi nmpaknya.

On other notes, updates for the past few days:
1. On the event of my last updates, actually there was some issue pertaining our house. Well, it was a mess, still is :D my hommie mostly..her room is leaking (we're on 13th floor..upstairs is studio house..so, the top of my hommie's room is like nothing and only roof. got anai2 some more..her bathroom door cannot close. okok..jgn bg info byk sgt..haha..so the story went like this..we ask for one particular foreman to come and have a look..(because of the free checking, according to his iklan..cheapskate la katakan)..then the fella come and bombarded our house like there's no tomorrow..membebel2 tah apa2..he rudely comparing me with the pintu(wtf~!) but me being one lil nice girl just hear whatever he said..believe me..die mmg suka bebel dan sgt mcm kasar perckpannya..okla..to think of it..mcm tk bagus la sgt cara die ckp tu..mcm tkde respek tau..but maybe itu mmg cara die ckp..so i wont judge more..okla, the story nye..my hommie was so pissed off with him. kirenya..malam itu adalah amukan puaka hommie. ok done~!
2. yatoque's coming over..and we were and always be a good host for her..haha..have dinner of mcDs bought by her..and we eat eat eat sambil diskusi hangat mengenai perkara yg terjadi sebentar tadi..tuptup tup dah pukul 12..boleh ke? we're like still hv plans for the nite. haha
3. after, clean ourselves..go to hommie's room and layan movie~! it was so great...memula layan "Enchanted"..it was fun, it was fantasy, it was dreamy..and it was heartwarming..but the princess was so opstimic rasa nk baling2 jek..mcm hello~! does that kind of story exist in the real world? ye lah kan..since i havent found my soulmate..trus rasa mcm tk best...tapiii..the second movie what's make us all dreamy..hahaha..tyler prince is seriously gorgeous~! haha..we've watched "Sydney White"..it was hilarious, funny and make us feel differently of dorks..as in a way, we're all DORKS in our own way..hehehe..so kesimpulannya, janganlah memandang rendah kepada orang lain...sebabnya..semua orang adalah sangattt ISTIMEWA ;) muwahs to all. okla..on the dreamy parts..we all so high of tyler..he is so handsome..dan saya sgt spoil..sbbnya...i did reveal that mr long is married..hahaha..semua org benci aku..wakaka..sorry..~!
4. hari khamis..cuti..bgn lmbat..mama hot datang..bila die dtg br bgn..we have brunch of roti bakar...(it was my current fav as the other day..the smell of roti bakar at level7 sgt memikat hati..and i have 2 slice of it..tak malu nye budak) and lotsa kaya, jem, baked beans with egg (bff masak) and semua lah yg ada dlm fridge tu. haha. oh, mama hot datang nk wat keje..with helps of hommie..i tolong tgk jek. :D pastu lunch+dinner plak kt kedai sup sendeng..sgt kenyang + gemok..pastu beli cakoi yg sgt sdap..haha..best~! mlm tu tido awal konon. :D
5.jumaat keje..huhu..sgt bosan. but i half-day.konon nk pegi mmc, melawat kawan2 but tk jadi sbb aku yg sgt ngantok dn tidoo..haha but berjaya la smpai keje dlm kol 12 dan oh..k.mas dpt kek..birthday nye esoknya. :D makan puas2 dan sgt gemokk..ahaha
6.blk kampung..malamnya..yeayy..bas kol 10..sorry ye..terlmbt..byk keje la..and weekends..tidooo~!
7.sabtu-kemas bilik..adik, belajar elok2, kalo tkde SAP, i shall consider pembelian motor..ahaks..oh ye..sbb tgh tgk amanda bynes..minat plak kt die..then tetibe mlm tu ada plak citer die.."What a girl wants"..layannnnnn~! best! siap tido kol 245am..lmbt kan.. oh ye..kemas bilik mmg sgt penat~! pastu main badminton lagi..pastu main2 ngan anak sedara lagi...mmg sgttt penatt..:p
8.ahad...tido smpai bosannn..ahaha..pastu nabil dtg..hahahaa...comel jek budak gemok tu..siap berlakon2 jatuh plak ha.......berpeluh die lepas aku blk dr pasar malam..hehe..
9.isnin pagi..blk kl kol 430 am..yelah konon malas nk blkk..sbb nk tgk citer tiga segi setelah dijemput penulis/director, woo ming jin kt facebook kan...kene lah tgk..okla..:D keje mcm bosan..pagi2 dh smpai opis..kol 730 am..dhla tkde passcard..seb baik pintu blakang bukak..so awal gila smpai ..dn terhapa2 dibuatnya...pg got walkthrough..the afternoon was the most tension bit of the day ..got meeting with user..seb baik tkdela byk songeh sgt...tp adalah jugak songehnya..ahaks.blk2 konon nk tido..hommiw ajak kluar makan..so okla..takpe takpe..oh...i did hv dinner of Dominos..huhuhu...gemokkkksssss plis~! ahahaha
10.oh, after a long silence..yelah, i did one "ekspresi dirimu" a while ago haha..we're cool now.oklah kan? :-?

okla..that about all what had happened to me last wk..(walaupun tk cukup byk kan..yelah..bukan ada org baca..hahahaha) but today..it was OK. :D:D

oh..silalah layan stolen by dashboard confessional..jz like the title.the song has succeeded in stolen my heart by its first hello. :x

- Dashboard Confessional Lyrics

"NOOoOOOoOOo"

ahahahahaha..i cant stop laughing! ok, i mayyy be a little late, but i totally agree with TIME naming YOU as the people of the year last yr i think..haha..pardon me, if i was wrong. ahaks..but i did remember that..because YOU is everyone who made the intener or was it YOUTUBE popular~! YOU who made video as funny as hell can be or whatever..so, talking about YOUTUBE, i was videohopping . still do..and i found this..hilarious~

bob,"mikey ways's phone number is.."
"NOOoOOOoOOo"

hahahaha..funny funny! the other one that prominently stucks at my head is..mikey falling down in one concert in which the culprit is mr gerard way himself, the ever meanest brother of mikey (my dearest adik ipar,wakakaka) but i still heart them..both..yela semua..crazy kan? wakaka..aku gila..gilakan kamu..oh the song performed was cemetery drive.

and my life currently does sounds like cemetery drive...way down way down way down way down way down way downnn~ i miss you, i miss you so farrrr...and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard~

huhu..damn i miss him~

ok, happy new year~! today is awal muharam..and i hope everything is GREAT this year..:)

psst..i've checked the above..about YOU. check this out~! rupanya tahun 2006. hehe