thank you bff for your kind words :)

I want to be forgotten,and I don't want to be reminded.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.I wanna be beside her.She wanna be admired.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.Oh dear, is it really all true?Did they offend us and they want it to sound new?Top ten ideas for countdown shows...Whose culture is this and does anybody know?I wait and tell myself "life ain't chess,"But no one comes in and yes, you're alone...You don't miss me, I know.Oh Tennessee, what did you write?I come together in the middle of the night.Oh that's an ending that I can't write, 'cause I've got you to let me down. I want to be forgotten,and I don't want to be reminded.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.I want to be beside her.She wanna be admired.You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet...

-what ever happened? by the strokes.

surrender.

tonite..i surrender, in trying to know man.

maybe tomorrow.. i start, again.

France 0 - 2 Italy

huhu..almost 2 yrs since i watch football match. haha. and with this, i hv watched match of the "wc moment" france v. italy with 80% of the match im doing sleep..haha..and i deserve to grief for france for the day..at least i got another an hour and a half to do so.

oh, thank you to kittens for managed to woke me up in shock with bunyi pecahan set comel cawan roomie at 230am. notti sgt korang ni..pdn muke, fila's wont talk to u 2 notti kittens for what...2 weeks. hahaha. on your face!

so, back to my grief..uhuks uhuks..maybe it's just not their luck with ribery injured only in 7 minutes playing..huhu..and then, the game was just quite a blur for me..and the reception signal of our house didnt help either..when i woke up..i dont know when, it's like i see 1-1..which makes me quite jumpy..but then..0-1..damn~! did they hv a chance? uhuks..well, wake up for subuh..and then surf euro2008.uefa.com to find the answers..huhu..mark the starts of my griefing day~ sleep again till 8 (kes malas juge nk pegi keje)..arrived at 9..eat cekodok keras (kelig said, jgn beli lg dah), eat medicine, go training..and pissed. haha..and also, announce my griefness @gmail..ahaks..well, it's such an effort tau for me, with being sick, eat medicine which supposed to make me sleep..and also managed to catch 20% of the match..:D:D haa..tatau nk merapek apa dah nie..

okla, the conclusion is...even how much you like the team, if you are sick..please just be sick. dont push it..padan muke..so, now i want to sleep..

and yes, i make a very good meal for my dear me..bubur nasi+ikan bilis+hotdog <--food for sick people. night night~ :*

promises.

it's not a promise until you break it..haha..

i promised bff to update last thursday..but i didnt..sorry babe.

nothing much happen, really..apart from me, "buat2 merajuk, sendiri kena", "kes rindu mcm x caya je", "tk jd blk umah", "tido mcm x igt dunia", "tgk movie like there's no tomorrow"+"menjadi katak bawah tempurung yg plg hebat hari ahad", oh dan melayan kucing2 yg rupanya masih tk smpai sebulan pon dok rumah..tp rasanya mcm dh bertahun kitorg jaga.

oh, ye..dan saya lupa saya cuti arini..ahahaha..it's affirmative that this week gonna be hectic. lotsa things to be done and decide. i have assessment which i dont think is really make sense to me, but like i care la kan.. training for 2 days (only observer..(bengong)), workshop on fri, a couple of paperworks. oh..got a note from our big boss. a long with a deep meaning. ahaks. penat i baca..dn cuba faham. whatever it is, boss..kalau i kawin, i nk cuti sebulan ye..terima kasih..and i'll make sure every work or task that is under my provision will be done with me or without me in the office..i'm mobile, baby~!

ngantok, and i make tasty nasi goreng paprik~! hehe.

nite nite all..

siapa nort?

sepi sendiri aku benci..

isnin mula lewat.. gara2 sendiri..
isnin dibilang blues.. gara2 sendiri..
isnin bikin bingung.. gara2 sendiri..
harus ditewas rasa ini.. bagaimana?

--
kata umpama tiada erti, sekelumit pun tidak mampu menyuarakan apa yang tersirat..apatah lagi jika tuan badan pun tidak mengerti..apa kata hati?

jadi, apakah mungkin aku lewat saja..dan biarkan ianya menjadi..sepi~

mimpi yang terbunuh.

sudah..berakhir sudah..

harapanku.. 'tuk memiliki hatimu..

hancur.. semua anganku..

semua hayalanku..

dirimu diriku.. menjadi satu..

taukah kamu..bahwa diriku..

terlanjur jatuh..dalam cintamu..

hingga dirimu..bunuh mimpiku..

sudah..kuberi semua..

segala yang kau minta..

untuk memuaskan maumu..

tapi..kau membalasnya..

begitu kejam..

hingga hancurkan diriku..mimpiku..

apa yang kau cari..

tak cukupkah diriku berarti..

yayaya~

sejuk..br lepas pindah ke tgkt 9..i'm single now. kami sudah berpisah..uhuks.

on other notes, some things were just not meant to be. :

enough on that, im gonna miss bff. it's her travelling month. (sgt jeles di sini) but i hope she have fun!

and then, i dont feel very good. huhu. mcm satu bdn gatal..muke pon..uhuks..makan tk btul ke? ke i have allergic with cats? huhuhu...rashes pon dh naik2 ni..uhuks..i dont feel good about this.

oh, i hope our little outing a success~!

okla..nk melayan gatal nie. oh, my current place is very the near pintu belakang..not so cool~! but i get to see people in, ppl out..so please more cute/handsome ppl lah yg lalu lalang..:))

we've made it..

finally~! after all these -->

cant quite make the right time to fetch'em, always got bz hehe;

out of sudden..the damn lift failed us (after that we found out, that the lift would fail us for as long as 22 July..man that's like 2 months away..:(( makcik kurus la gini..13 tingkat maa);

prior to that, i was like climbing up and down 2 sets of each yesterday..carrying about 5++ kg of goodies..(kalo makcik tk kurus ni, mmg makcik bakar jek blok 3 tu~);

and maybe more or less everything..

it was a long week or rather speedy one..ahaks..but here are the outcomes -->

we have adopted 2 cats..brad (the one slightly bigger, he's about 5mnths;birthdate 04.12.2007) + alvin (kucing angkat, dok buat teman si brad sampai la sekor lagi bard switch, about 3 months; birthdate prolly 2 mnths after brad)

ini adalah brad yg konon shy2 cat..up till today, he's still adjusting..muwahs~!

so, my mission's are:

taking care of the not so little cats;

learn to scoop the poops (huhu);

try not to be too attached with alvin, bcos i think i already love him (uhuks);

think of a.k.a. names of our cats (haha);

err..lotsa going on on my mind..haha..so this is it..my updates on how our nite's adopting cats..thank you k.mas...it's tender loving care with the cats, affirmative~! thanx too roomie for your efforts. really appreciated it ;)

so, now that i have 2 more responsiblities under my care...i hope, i'll achieve whatever i want..what do i want, really?

hero makes me mad and me thinks me made him mad back; bfast tomorrow wif abe (i dont know what to do, eventho it's me who've asked); aab's so tensed i dont know how to make better (no~)

what i want is..

ok, before i proceed...hooray~! bff, komapsumnida~ berjaya jugak akhirnya kamu meninggalkan komen...shukran, danke, thank you..all the thank you's ever spoken in the whole wide world for you..muwahs.

this is supposed to be a crappy slash sad slash emotional post..but i dont feel so crappy slash sad slash emotional anymore (for the time being la..ahaha) camno? tapi...nk jugak citer nie..how how how?

ok jek la..it begin with friday, the day before that was quite forgotten, really..i didnt write anything on my lil black book. huhu..anyway, on friday..got makan2 at office, i've been paid to make my delicious biskut batik..hahaha..iye sedap~ but i was late to punch in (ehem2), only sempat to ask help regarding my dishes..and hurriedly grab my chair and sit through the whole knowledge transfer thingy. eh, but that's not what i want to tell about..haip..okla..before that, hv breakfast with bff. she slept over and finally, get to eat my biskut batik..yeay~!

ye la ye la...bermula malam itulah selepas pulang ke rumah..eh, sebenarnya semenjak di pejabat terngiang-ngiang melodi ini, sehingga merasakan sangat perlu untuk menonton semula filem itu...

"come what may...come what may..i will love youuuu...until my dyinggg day~"

jadi, aku tonton..aku rasa..dan aku terharu..well, i am sappy for love songs..oh, tidak..my crappy slash sad slash emotional feeling has emerged. damn~! argh..takpe la..ewan looks so damn wantable in the movie..dan kak nicole sangat anggun..and confirmed! moulin rouge is my most favourite musicals ever. that's it.

tepat tgh malam, dia balas sms aku yg dh berjam2 lamanya tu semasa aku dah bersiap tidur. main futsal, katanya. (mestikah lelaki2 ini main futsal jumaat malam sabtu ye?) aku balas dan akhirnya tewas. instead of sms-ed bff, i told aab i'm depressed+just need someone to tell, but not to my bff. what's happening to me?

satu saja..ada yang hilang dalam diri..tapi tidak tahu apakah dia? serabutlah ei~

huhu.

i went for the most unexpected event i would go....alone~! mmg sgt tk dipercayai..uhuks..but all in all, it was worth it~ i got to meet the infamous hishamudin rais..he's cool~ and he have signed my reason-to-come-to-the-event-in-the-first-place's book. ahaha..thanks, z."Keganasan, Penipuan & Internet-hegemoni media daulah pecah", mr isham's compilation of words in various prints. :D cant wait to read it, yeah~

i find there's more title to be purchased..but my pocket is not so deep : uhuks..maybe next time..but it was tempting..mental note: to read more articles. haha

oh, the unexpected event is...

the gig was awesome, set in MCPA near monorail Maharajalela..the space is cool, the bands playing was great..the sounds OK, but im not sure why i dont get to hear the lead vocals clearly..but all the bands was freaking awesomw~! i only managed to catch a few band that i quite like (hujan, couple, muck + free love), but hv to ditch butterfingers with such heavy heart..it's 10pm beb..eventho did not hv curfew..but still hv to come home what..esoknya keje..huhu..so damn malas~! okok, sambung~! im honored that 3 of 4 bands that i mentioned is based in my hometown..ahahaha..ipoh mali talak somong lo~! ahaks. oh, what makes the gig more special is, their performance is accompanied by set of orchestra~! cant u believe it..as cliche it might sounds, they sounds perfect~! and special..:)

oh, blk umah mkn ngan hommie..and also get to eat my "biskut batik yg lain sket rasanya tp still sedap".wakaka.

okla, done on that! which is "what happened on sunday!"..on sat, went to klcc and finally got my birthday present..thanks again~! watched "ps, i love you" heart the book versions better! oh, b4 that..late dinner with f,e,j+b. ahaha. thanks, f~! banje mkn..semoga murah rezeki~! oh, by end of this week...my room is more teratur~! :D

ok, sleep sleep. tomorrow's gonna be a longg day~! x

ps: i dont think i would write something on my fav idol. i lost some faith in him..:D

the one korean person that i shall love always...

with jang nara of course..haha

that one person is jang hyuk..i so adore him la..having first saw him in "successful story of bright girl" (did i get it right? pape lah..haha) it was like love at first sight..since then, i've tried to watch/find movie series with him..well, i did have some mishap, i missed the event that he has to go some military service that seems like a MUST in korea..so i did lost him for quite some time...that was after the movie "windstruck"..mmg depress and sedih habis~! first time tgk..tersedu2..lpas tu, tgk lg..sedu lg..hahaha..tp citer tu mmg gerekkkk habis~!

then, come a time like last few months, i have seen some clips in TV, i think..about this one series, "thank you" which is like a comeback for him...i was like, "oh, this is a must watch~!" asked my colleague to buy it..which actually she did owned it..terlupa! and finally, last week...i managed to catch it~! it was a blast! sad, and happy and comedy, and comforting, at the same time, depressing~! ahaha..ye lah kn, typical series..at first you fight2..then mcm tk ngaku plak perasaan tu...wakaka..sapa jugak yg tgk kan..sendiriii jugakk~! ahaks..but i like hyuk in here..so handsome~! wakaka...mcm die cakp.."suave"..ahahak..ikut translation la kan..tp takpela..mmg minat dia, nk wat camno? :D

err, i managed to buy the OST today..is it melampau kah? ahaks..so tonite, im gonna make it my lullaby~! below is one of the many videos in youtube~! mmg kerren di buat teman tidur, enggak? :x

well, since the unfortunate event..i'm becoming less me and more emo! crap crap crap~! i dont like it, but i cant help it~! but "komapsumnida"..thank you, thank you, thank you for those who always be there and humor me...;)

still, i havent write anything about my idol..damn~!

recklessly impulsive~

help~! i have affluenza~ not chronic..but almost :(

and i havent post anything on my favorite idol :((

morning, everyone!

the post of my favourite idol is not done...huhuhuhu

and i dont know why friends cannot post comment. huhu..why blogger, why? :(

why do fools fall in love?

because they are..FOOLS..ahahahaha.

im pissed and im sorry..

lalala.

this is what you get...when you are impulsive, emotionally distressed + just plain gila!

hehehe...next, ode to my idol~!

lost memory.

...

kerap.

wuhuu. got 2 days extra weekends..with thursday being sick. i got diarrhea..uhuks..too many acid in my tummy, i cant handle..and still sick now~ :( friday&saturday spent in peninsular residence, business suite hotel. OKla~ i think i might make sis feeling crap, but do not want to think or write more on it.

well, lots been going on! and i hate to mention it here..because that would have reminded me that lot of things were taken for granted. haha. like for instance, safety & security. how we fail to take care of ourselves, friends, belongings.. but i dont want to start on that.

i want to tell one funny but strange thing. i dreamt of him, twice..two days in a row. huhu. it was flattering, yes. we didnt do bad things, obviously, it just strange..but i dont know what to think, or what to feel..with my tummy and my body problems..huhuhu..i hate la this weekend~ no..this week! it's tire me, mentally and physically..:(

will i dreamt of him later tonight? that i dont know..have to sleep first and find out~! haha

i dont know about him, but im surely missing him. goodnight~!

ps: having watched gossip girl the whole day..i need someone like dan humphrey, pronto! :* alaa..but i like rufus too~ dan's father. ahaha. oh, the OSTs great! listening to oneRepublic, they're cool!

pss:lupe plak, thanks bff for the dedication~! :p

happy birthday, husband!

as a tribute to him, i've updated my description. yelah, kantoi tk smpat nk buat something..hehe..but anyway, my dear gerard arthur way, happy 31st birthday, eventho u didnt look like one..hehe. you know, i've almost hv to separate with you, damn environment! makes me do it..luckily, the system went "weng" a lil bit, and you're safe! ahaha..me and my fantasy la. anyway, dear..i hope ur happy with your real wife (i didnt bought any of her albums yet)..and please be sober, baby! i need you..i hope as long as i ever lived. ;) and on this day, for the rest of my life, i remember you.

haha..just read what i wrote last year for him..

"11 April 2007 - another one! nk wish jugak lagi, sbb i'm so loving this man~ (walaupun org lain akan admit they do too; well, at least not my friends la kan. org2 lain kat the whole wide world) dear gerard arthur way~ happy birthday! dunno how you celebrate it this yr. no coke and drinks for you ok, my dear! not good for your health. starbucks should be OK~ eventho not too healthy also. ahaha. neway, you shall be my forever obsession (for now!) until i find me a very decent man. kalau smpt, saya mimpikan awak,ok~"

tee hee, that was last year..still are my my forever obsession..xoxo..how about next yr eh? well, well well, love makes you do lotsa things! my dear husband, taking care always! oh, thanks for missing me yesterday..:* (kalau rajin, klik di sini untuk tahu bagaimana dan kenapa)

our little "re-union".

hahaha..yeay, right~!

our so-called re-union, happened when my sis, yanti, asked whether i was out for err..a re-union..and me, with such a straight face said, yes~! funny la me, as me and the girlfriends...was like seeing, if not talking, like everyday..so, to be called re-union, was like..ahaha..funny funny funny~!

but anyways, we go and eat at chillies..with all of us, gladly or might i say, unconsciously, have our pre-chillies..like days before the actual Chillies days~! me, went with my dearest colleagues, like last last thursday at klcc (with fila got to eat on "walaupun baki, masih byk lagi :D) ..and yatoque last wk (tk igt kat mane)..

well, to actually set the date was quite not troublesome (sketla)..but really hard to find suitable times..with our ms student who got class every tue, wed+thurs..and ms fii always got work and hv to make appointmnt like early..and me..well, me..i dont hv any probs to fit any time..ahaha..so, finally after much consideration..ahaha..exegerate~! we set the date to yesterday! yeay, best!

and the output is here and the pix above~! maybe we're all over-excited over our little "re-union," there are no pix of our way delicious food taken. we have triple play (bit masin, but still yummy), monterey chicken (bff pick), mushroom jack fajitas (yummy~!) and lastly, nyum nyummmm, our desserts, molten chocolate cake.

all in all, it was a FUN nite out~! and now, i have to think what to write to my dear husband. till 9 Apr post..muwahs..nitenite~!

i remember you.

Just watched October Road..such a good episode. i remember you. sometimes, we did take life for granted. im not sorry though, i didnt update much, maybe i shall update more later. but now, i just want to indulge "i remember you" by skid row..a song that first came out..like 18 yrs ago..i was like 9yrs old then. i didnt even know this song..haha. but i find it appealing. the intro guitar, the sounds, the voice..oh sebastian bach..handsome! in a ****ing rocker way..and he's cool! like gerard way cool..so i like! ok, need sleep! tomorrow gonna be a long day~ aktiviti makan dan kerja! i remember you, hero!

--
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But thats the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you''ll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you