it's my birthday~!

hukhuk..it is. well, nothing special on this day..just a day, that i might got a little attention a bit..ahaks. :D

thank you for all the sms wishes, phone calls, and everything, my dearest friends + families. ahaks.. more love~

will be back to SgRokam soon..and believe me..i'm on leave today, eventhough i have came and still here at the office..:D what to do eh? dont hv anything special la in mind to do..huk huk..with me being sick (flu+fever a bit+cold+cough)..hukhuk..

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taking care~ happy raya!

Eid mubaraks, everyone~!

uhuks, since the last updates..it was like in the mid of fasting..and now, just another 2 days to celebrate raya or "eid"..ihiks. finally, i made the e-card to circulate to friends, and i will gladly post it here. :D with some notes, notes of love, if you may..ahaks..


to everyone, Selamat Hari Raya + Maaf Zahir Batin.. makan lebih2 sket ok~! hehehe..:D

utk hommie, maafkan aku selama ada tersalah pape ke..ok? kot2 ada yg tk terpuas hati ke kan? yelah..keadaan rumah tuh mcm horror jek slalu..ahaks..so kosong-kosong k, muwahs..cya next week..pastu jgn lupa buat cornflakes choc tau~! this time, i will be doing what you've done..muahaha..oh, td ptt boleh jek buat sessi bermaafan..ahaks..takpe takpe..after balik cuti~!

untuk bff, selamat hari raya beb~! maafkan aku ok, walaupun tadik kita dah buat session tu kan..tuh la..tk dpt nk peluk2..ahahaha..takpelah, virtual jelah ye..ahaks. akan ku datang ke rumah ko raya nnt..wait for me~!

utk kekure, maafkan aku kalo ko byk terasa ye, sejak 2 menjak ni. :D:D kosong-kosong..datang lah umah raya ni..kalo ko dtg..aku buat la something special..ahaks.

yang lain tuh..mcm takde la kot..jz a big hug to everyone~! and please, have a FUN and SAFE raya, kay~! muwahs.

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ok, done on the wish. :D now, i would like to tell about our little event 2 nights ago~! bermain bunga api di tgh2 malam-27..:D which we conclude was the night! :D bff and i both were having so much fun playing the not so good fireworks, as it was kinda "masuk angin" and after lit it up for a few secs, it went dead. huhu. not so best..but we did hv fun experimenting with the fireworks like hanging it on the liner and lit it up with us sing along raya songs..ahahahaa...so much fun..and we didnt realise that we've been playing, like for hours...ahaks..how's that for being such a kiddo~!? ahaks..but then, we were those with heart that as young as children..ahaks. what else eh? oh, we did wake roomie, but she was so tired..she didnt even wake up..uhuks..sorry mate~! but we did hv fun the other day, right? ihiks..ok~! since we didnt have any high-tech camera that night, it's quite limited on what kind of experiment we can do..but heck, it was reaallly fun~! and you know, what's more funny is when we've gone to sleep..bff kinda confused which way is the door.. :D ihiks..ini semua gara2 main bunga api sampai kol 2 dan pastu dok lepak2 baca cleo..ahaks..wohoo, what a night~! insyaAllah, akan ingat sampai bebilaa~! ok, cheerio! hv to do some work before depart to 2 hours journey to bro's place.

taking care all~! selamat hari raya + maaf zahir batin~!
hv fun and safe raya!

fall to pieces.

is something i dont want to be. ahaks.. but i guess i am. yesterday, i lost my other-half. at work. no more sametime, no more ride home to lrt, no more working together on saturday, no more sharing latest gossips, no more praying together2, lunching together2..uhuks..it's hard eh to let go of things as such. but for what's worth, i hope she's cool at her new place..anddd, dont forget to meebo, my dear~! :p

to date, classes is like on every day...uhuks, and my brain is like working sideways...i hope all the
info is cemented and fully understood. ahaks. very tiring. and no use of complaining as this is fully work related..ahaks..and i dont know what's i am babbling about~ better stop like, right now..ehehehe

what else aa..this week sucks~! :D thank you.

dan tak saba nk kembali ke rumah...hoyeaa~! oh, what should i get him? huhu..rasa nk bagi jek ..err..tak kot..ahahaha

okla..mau tidur dulu..nighty nite~!

..malam bulan dipagar bintang..

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Makin indah jika dipandang
Bagai gadis beri senyuman
Pada bujang idaman

Belai kasih ingin dimanja
Dengan cumbuan mesra
Untuk pelipur lara
Penawar dik asmara

Malam bulan dipagar bintang
Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi
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haha..klasik tak? tgh layan2 lagu secara rambang, terdgr lagu ni & terasa tk dsempurna jika tidak kongsi bersama lagu ini. ahaks..layan jgn tk layan~! eh, mestikah aku kumpul rindu jika emangnya tiada rindu darimu untukku? :x

Saat dunia masih milik kita.

Apakah kau pernah merasa semua
Yang tlah kau dapatkan terbuang percuma
Dan seakan semuanya menghilang sia sia

Begitulah rasa yang sedang kurasa
Saat dirimu meninggalkan duka
Dan takkan pernah hilang terhapus terlewati

Akankah semua
Kembali seperti yang dulu
Akankan semua
Menjadi indah dan sempurna

Seperti saat diriku dengan dirimu
Hatimu masih milikku
Dan dunia masih milik kita

Hidup adalah tak seperti yang pernah
Kita bayangkan dan kita impikan
Terkadang ada duka dan juga menyakitkan

Seperti saat diriku dengan dirimu
Hatimu masih milikku
Dan dunia masih milik kita

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i love the way the song goes. with flows. :x

ahaha.

jz finish organizing my room, a.k.a. dissemble my kayu bedframe and relocate the penjara nor frame. ahaha. hee..more spacecy..but dearest bff and also sistas might hv to sleep over the floor..>:) ehehe..no worries dearest dearest..always a good host i am, please please sleep on my spring bed. ahaha..

well, i feel a lil gloomy today..must be the all day sleep i have, or the full marathon of g&g and also kami. uhuks..not too forget bewitched..ahaks..best best best~! oh, i did not go any further than my balcony yesterday..thoughts of cooking bihun goreng thrown over window as my malasness to go out embraces me..:D i've cooked magi goreng sedap instead. totally sedaps..ehehe..with my over manis tea..but who cares..only prepared them for meself. and it does taste great.

it's sunday already~ uhuhu. i havent done my work yet..huhuwa..help help help~! please let there be some rajin left for me to do it..oh lupa..i've organised my hundreds of pix..yeay~! more to print..hoho. but to date, not about pix..akhirnyaaa..bajuku sudah siappp..mekasihh bff~ tidak sabar mau berjumpa nampaknyaa....ehehe..di manakah ye? sleep over, again? ahaha..

okla..maybe it's time for me to sleep over at yours, dont you think?

what else eh? time to sleep..wanna wake up for sahur..:D nighty nite, everyone~! muwahs.

gonna rock your world~

do you miss me? cause i miss you. ahaha

20092007

semoga hari ini lebih baik dari semalam. ;) morning sunshine~!

come one, come all~!

quite a weekend i have and havent had the chance to write accordingly..hehe. thanks to workloads and also myself. haha..so, in brief..my weekend was hectic, fun, jerits2 manja gitu and food, food, food~~!

details:
1. rabby and baby sophie come sleep over. owh, with bff..ahaks. we were like lunching and dinner @2200 as our beef stew was ready by then..ahaks..but it was deliciousss and finger licking good~! baby sophie was more cuter and also quite cranky by the hour..ahaha..but not too forget, her auntie noor is crankier..muahaha.
2.went to ikea with intention to get the new catalogue, but to no avail. well, quite devastated but hv to letgo.
3.watched disturbia, sambil jerit2 manja, and gossips a little with bff. yeah, yeah..:p welcome for the thank you. yeap, i gave her priviliges to sleep on my cosy little bed. ahaks.
4.sunday morning, woke up a little late. and kene paksarela membeli bahan utk masak. thanx roomie for lunch~! delicious~! ahaks
5.gol&gincu. sexier and juicier by the week. btw, i way love shasha's room~! bila nk cat bilik ni?~!
6.tido jek keje dan agak malas nk membuat keje. :( so, i dont like~!

ok, now..last 3 days. at work, hectic as ever..we're gonna go-live one system this saturday (br teringat, camne nk blk kg nie?) so, it was like hell in my place. and i was being quite gila2 this few days..with classes on this one module, tm, and tomorrow, py. and also others. i have to master at least 5 modules. man~! that was tough. not only modules, skills too. java, webs, configs..huhu..and i miss him..

there, i said it. uhuks..weeks feels like forever, and i did not even wish him. that was not good~ what i've been up and about, i dont know. with my other half in office leaving by end of this month..i must say, i feel quite not great. please, please, let there be motivator in me..please, please let me be a good girl and eat my sahur, and read 4 pages of Quran after solat. please let me be extra good and be at office at least before 0800. and please, please..let me be extra rajin too. please, please, let my brain works well so that i can learn and explore life and work. please, please..bersihkan hati saya sempena bulan ramadhan ini.

oh, ye..sy agak sedih ni..sbb kedai yg sy nk pegi b4 pose ni, tknak masak nasi goreng ikan masin dan telur dadar utk saya. lepas tu, kedai sup sendeng pon tutup..ali cafe pon..pastu derang taknak gi stoberi field..tp akhirnya makan a&w.. but it's ok..sy redha. :D

oklah..rasa mcm nk blk lah, sy sgt pnat..tolonglah rajin sket..nk basuh baju, nk basuh 2 sets of bedsheet (penat tau jadi saya), nk bukak katil, nk solat terawih, nk online kjap kt umah..pastu tido..

oh, last words..dear all..i'm sorry for my wrong-doings..selamat berpuasa semua. ;)

"Make You Smile"

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the sun shining in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the freeway

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear with your voice ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the DJ

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear with the noise ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, I'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

I don't, don't wanna take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you were to stay with me a while

..gediks mode..

i love you, always forever..near and far, closer together..everywhere, i will be with you..everyday, i will devour you..:x

jgn salah sangka..having heard this song by donna lewis (after so many years), reminicsing those innocent time. kalau tk silap lagu ni sudah berumur lebih 10 tahun (around that time~) okok, just googled it..it was 1996..close heh? 11 years wow~! that's how long since i heard it last..gila lamaa. hehe..dan sangat cute~!..when i sing-along this song, terasa sgt gedik. hahaha. okayla..terpaksa mengaku, sy sedikit gedik..muahaha.

oh..psst, teringat satu lagi.."i could be the one" pon sgt gedik..ehehe..but cute definitely~! terpaksa post satu gamba gedik..haha..oops boleh ke, teredit sekali..:>

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sepi sendiri aku benci.

that's the way..

my love is, my dear. hehehe. i always love a poet i guess. but me, i'm no poet..eventhough how much i wanted to be..i could never express it well..more likely to spoilet..ahaha..

been listening to smashing pumpkins's zeitgest..not all..but this particular song. this song..okla..billy corgan..abang botakku~ (slain pakcik din..hehe) his unique voice is so haunting and dreamy..isn't he? ahaha..well, he is. one of those person that i'll look up to..yeah, i got many personality to look forward to, for different occasion. well, a girl got to have lotsa option open but only one to remain as numero UNO :D well, been working on that one. tough luck~!

having heard the new album, i always would remember their other works..said sadly (sad and beautifully written), stand inside your love (just breathtaking and romantically epic..just love it when billy kiss the girlfriend's feet..ah, the affection~), thirty three (jz discover this one, pure acoustic and honest), try try try (melodically lyrical) and many many more..to list down all, would take up entire days of mine. where oh where art thou, my poetic heart?

That's the way my love is
That's the way I care
You should call on me baby
I'm always there for you
Yeah, I'm always there for you

yeah, baby..if you let me, i'm always there for you. ALWAYS~

nothing much.

what i achieved this past few days..nadaa nadaa..ahaha..neither i hate or like it. i dont feel any balance at all. i pissed off at quite some things..and i love other things too.

mix of feelings being thrown and wasted..i dont want to be wasted but then..i just, was. sucks, eh~!?

however, i managed a very great nite out with the gals to gwen's concert @bkt jalil~! all that thnx to bff..muwahs..love ya babe~!

what should i do? what should i do? nothing much, i guess.

aku mau.

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

KepadaMu aku berserah untuk segalanya. :) Tabahkan hatiku untuk apa jua jawaban. Kuatkan semangatku untuk semua kemungkinan. Syukurku dan sujudku untukMu Yang Maha Kuasa.

"abang mak dah takde~"

that's what my mother hv said, in the trip that seems like forever to the muslim
cemetary. I was shocked to hear that and together we cried. I held her small frame
close as i reached for her hands. She was so fragile. I was too. I can feel her
sadness. it was indescribable.

Remembering the day that I met Obek Juri last year, it was devastated as he was no
longer the uncle who used to bring me and my brother to walks, trips when I was in
Singapore. When I was small. When my speech was still tongue challenged. When I
was so excited to ride on double decker bus and fell off my seat, while singing.
haha. biasalah budak lg kan..(everybody still remembers that, you know & yeah,
that's the routine stories to be laughed about la..yeah, about me) when I was
that cute innocent little girl, which still am. ahaks.sorry la, terangkat bakul
plak..

but he is still my dearest uncle. the father to all his sisters. my mother, & my
aunties. i may not remember all his kindness, but i'm sure he will be remembered
by his grace, kindness, thoughtfulness and above all, his love.

i'm not good in eulogy..i'm sucks at it..(very true)..seeing him yesterday in the
strectcher and looking all sick and fragile, being carried home. (if you're in
s'pore, it is quite a hassle in conducting kenduri's (happy, sad and all). I cannot
tahan my sadness, and me being me..i cant get myself to kiss him..but at last, i did
manage to kiss him goodbye. he died peacefully at noon on Sunday, 29 July 2007.
of cancer.

So long, farewell. ;)

kota singa, here i come~

my singapore trip come early. instead of year end, i shall go tomorrow nite. i was told, my dear uncle is already critical. :( i'm sad, i'm glad, i'm confused, :(

whatever it is, i'm coming. whether i like it..or not.

hear, hear~

i'm married~ yippie, in development..ahaha. effective 1st July recently, i am a proud wife of mr gerard arthur way..mrs way..hehehe..funny..ehehe..okok~ only in 110 ok. yet, i'm just plain happy. ok, husband..luv ya~

on other notes, just finished love life. sad but happy. the author really developed its character and situation and it felt like i really know them and feel them. uhuk uhuks. they're so real..they feel real and close.. well, it make me aware how to cope with fear of not knowing..and cancer. i'm scared of it, no denying it..but i'm hoping the best..for me, my family..and others. to my dear obek juri, i'm sorry i ever try to avoid you. i'll come over someday..ready. he might not read this, but take care.

my work: quite sucks, but thanks to my other half..and others..we're ok. oh, not to forget, him. TQ. kerana korang semua aku masih di sini. *poyo*
my life: bosan gak la..but dengan quite golongan yang sama, aku masih OK.
bff: sgt rindu.
familia: rindula kat derang.
cinta: are there?

all three down~

yeah..jz finished the last tale from "ecstasy". so loving it~ despite the so brit accent i dont quite understand..but still the characters was nice..all the revenge..the emotion, the rage..it was all cleverly plotted and was a good read. hope to finish "trainspotting" anytime soon..ihiks. totally rad~

gonna start reading Ray Kluun's Love Life anytime soon. hopefully t'was good. a very true story about a husband losing his wife to cancer. uhuks. *sob*

"the most honest love story you'll ever read"

going postal~

no my sabtu..no my whatever in details. briefly what happen as below:

1. my sabtu: went to the curve with intention to join apostrophe but i'd passed for ikea..shopping~ blk tido and then went to my bro's family day @montkiara equestrian park. layan concert rocks (ada radja, ella dn lain2) and bla3. blk tido flat.
2.my ahad: melodi? berita hangat "hans&erra". visit my dear sis @UKM KL. agak kopak la perjalanan. blk ke klcc yg dgn tujuan sbg stesen lrt klcc jek..tp dh ke kino dan membeli belah buku. but loving it. bought kam raslan's confession of an old boy. dah abih pon..besttt~! oh ye..balik rumah..makan dinner ngan rumet kat stroberi field yg sgt byk.
3.my monday:pegi keje..pastu tk igt la plaka apa yg prominent for the day.
4.my tuesday: pegi keje..tensi..dan juge dpt call and pegi klcc..lagi~ ahaha..met up my cousins and auntie..oh, ye~ i emailed him..and seems quite OK!
5.my wednesday: half-day, tourist guide to my cousins and auntie to masjid jamek/jln lrt. bought myself kain..lagi~ nice~ feel good/happy? die bosan dulu..haha..so happy smpai petang or malam...sis came over..with intention to watch transformer..ok, pernah tk seumur hidup korang wayang cancel, last minute..dan only inform, when we're trying to get in~ so like %^&%&*%*#^#*& well i'm about to go postal..but i cant..so i just leave the task to my friends..
so dont think i'll be watching transformers. haish tp bff soh tgk gak..camne? later will think about it~
6.my thursday:nothing prominent too..tense lebih..and also silence..menyampah..what do he think i am? weks. oh, yatoque sleeps over..we hv fun alittle bit. she brought dinner for everyone. bersyukurlah walaupun leftovers. ehehe..oh, lupa..briefing by projectsPD. seems i have to strive more..you never know what would happen..uhuks..oh yea, i sat beside one mamat that i happened to have a crush with..before i know he's married. since then, he's only a colleague..tp kureng nye kenkawan, nk gak soh aku dok sebelah..weks..seb baik nothing happenned..ker ade ek? ahaha..only me and him know. >:)
7.my friday: went to work with bff..well, seems like our lucky morning, despites "friday the 13th" haha...yelah kan, since my bad luck has passed on wednesday..huhuhu..pepagi dh ke menara bekerja~ i see other side of a colleague..or more..but it was OK. he did but it was sucks. oh..bizi jugak~ and i did called mak before blk..she told me my so-called boifren lalu..as if la kan..ahaha..oh..forgot..i said goodbye. for good i hope.
8.my sabtu:pepagi kene bgn dn bekerja demi kompeni terchenta..tk dpt join another apostrophe session..huks..naseb baik tk crucial as the first go-live~ jadiknya, kol 1245 camtuh dh kembali ke rumah~ bagus..we went to seremban..me and roomie to anta tempah our baju-bajuan..pnat la haa..kitorg lukis2 design nk buat baju apa..in the end the makcik tamo terima pon lukisan kitorg.but no hal..tk kisah..and went jalan2 and makan2..menggemokkan diri yg mmg sedia gemok ni..ahahah..tk kisahlah, asalkn happy~! okla..currently dok dpan pc and ngadap blog..nk mandi and settlekan hidup~!

taking care all~ have to do something about my postal state..maybe i should be more postal to get what i really want. so goodbye to you my dearest..i really meant it.