realize.

Si vous venez de réaliser ce que je viens de réaliser,
Ensuite, nous nous ferons un parfait les uns pour les autres
Et vous ne trouverez jamais un autre
Viens de réaliser ce que je viens de réaliser
Nous n'avions jamais se demander si
Nous avons manqué à l'une de l'autre.

love me dead~!

thanks to roomie, i so like this song..okla..the video..ahaha..so funny..kinda follow what's the lyric says..:D:D as roomie said, part mcr, part simple plan..lalala..so like, INDIE~ haha..but kinda rock band that i would like. hehe

so, enjoice~ (but sorry bff, our network wont allow it! huhu)

Love me cancerously
Like a salt-sore soaked in the sea.
'High-maintenance' means
You're a gluttonous queen
Narcissistic and mean.
Kill me romantically
Fill my soul with vomit
Then ask me for a piece of gum.
Bitter and dumb
You're my sugarplum.
You're awful, I love you!

She moves through moonbeams slowly
She knows just how to hold me
And when her edges soften
Her body is my coffin
I know she drains me slowly
She wears me down to bones in bed

Must be the sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead! Love me dead!

You're a faith-healer on T.V.
You're an office park without any trees
Corporate and cold
Gushing for gold
Leave me alone.
You suck so passionately
You're a parasitic, psycho, filthy creature
finger-bangin' my heart
You call me up drunk
Does the fun ever start?
You're hideous and sexy!

Must be the sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead! Love me dead!

Love me cancerously
Brrrot-dot-da-d-da-da!
How's your new boy?
Does he know about me?
You've got the mark of the beast.
You're born of a jackal! You're beautiful!

Wha' 'bout that sign on my head
That says, oh...
Love me dead!

for alvin, who is to be neutered..

thanks to art, i've successfully read "the witch of portobello". the title itself has made me wander about portobello, but the story wasnt..but i like it~! a different approach in describing the witch. haha..well, i feel good!

and now..i've been tagged!! like last week..maaplah bff baru nk buat nie..jgn marah k! :P

5 things in my bag:
i. my 3G k610i handphone (ntah btul ke tk..but it does serve my craze for video calling..haha<--malangnya takde sapa dah nk bervideo call dgn)
ii. my esprit walllet
iii. keys + my little black book
iv. CD lip gloss (sometimes i dont hv cosmetics in my bag, tatau nape tetibe ada satu..haha)
v. my almost FULL ipod classic! (serves me well during my "breeze" walk to office

5 things in my wallet:
i. notes and cents
ii. essentials: ic, driving license yg tk gune langsung (must drive car this weekend!), medical card, ATM cards
iii. no photo watsoever (new wallet, still single, dont hv time to find pix to put..but i do have 1 big compartment for pix in it..need to update, definitely!)
iv. cards: isetan, bonuslink, real, kotamas, borders RM30, aussino, jcard
v. others: i have voucher to sunway theme park. other than that..naada!

5 favourite things in my bedroom:
i. my "penjara nort" bedframe
ii. the ikea spring mattress that quite the reason i always oversleep
iii. all my bedsheets, cozy pillows, comfy comforter and alls that's on my bed (that might include alvin+brad<--when they kacau me lah)
iv. i like the built-in wardrobe too..happily fit all my clothes
v. the cermin also i like..with its drawers and space to put all my make-up and stuff..eh, i like all my books too..:D my reading area. haha

5 things i wish to do:
i. of course to finish this fast so i can sleep..oh, but i cant..have work to do.huhuhu
ii. kalau boleh, nk jumpe tengku hussein pastu ckp kat die..saya kan ada..*wink wink dgn gediknya*
iii.kalau boleh gak, nk jumpe budak sebelah rumah pastu ckp kat die, "cant you see and get it, already?"
iv. kalau boleh jugak..kalau boleh laa kn..nk jumpe gerard way face to face and heart to heart..ecewahh~!
v. honeymoon ngan husband.

5 things i'm doing now:
i. menjawab mende alah ni la kan..:P
ii. berangan pasal tengku hussein, pastu ngan gerard gak..pastu ngan budak sebelah rumah la..huhuhu..takleh concentrate ni..huhuhu
iii. pastu pk2 plak..camne la nk menghadapi the rest of the week.
iv. chat ngan sesapa tah..boleh tk kalau tk layan je?
v. haa..si alvin ni dh mengacau dah..tgh duduk atas my lap..:P

5 people i would like to tag: (make sure u have this game on your blog)
i. i dont hv 5 ppl la..how? the one that tagged me of course already did rite..the one she tagged which me + roomie..done already..so who else?
ii. sapa2 nk buat la kot
iii. cos..
iv. im ending it..
v. here..lalala

oklaa..nitenite everyone! i miss you.

the alchemist-paulo coelho

i finished the alchemist in almost 3 hours. the interesting story of a shepherd, santiago. how he traverse the world for treasure. his Personal Legends, one's goal in life..his adventures, how he met the world, how he become the world. and how he found his love.

the story makes me wonder and wander..what's my own personal legends? well, right now..i'm Lost and hope to find one shoulder perfectly fit me to lean on for the rest of my life.

"when you are in love, things make even more sense, he thought."

where have my "love life" gone?

i dunno where it is..huhu..i'm sad..because i like the story..it's sad..to lose someone, when you and him/her are meant to be forever..but to sulk over it is a no-no..so, a plead to my dear friends..if you gals have it, please return it..huhu

thanks a lot~!

oh, good news everyone~! found back my AIRCON tix.. yeay~!

bad news..it is indeed monday blues! i got tons of work..and i cant find where the hell to apply for MBA in UM site! is it me, being so stupid today? huhuhu

AIRCON.

i've watched a theatre, as title, last night. meant to update it asap, but my eyes and body defeated me. :D oh, it was a full house preview..and i hope, the play will get a very good review!

i lost the ticket, though..feel a lil sad about it..so jz hv to bear with the lost..like the poem's read in the play, "One Art" by Elizabeth Bishop.

"The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster."

so, the play...hum.what i can say most...is, im so like the actors..all of them did a very good job in conveying the mesg..ok2 maybe some of them, talk a bit faster, or sounds mumbling..but it is good~! i like projection of Bob/Burn on his recital of ayat Qursi, azan, and even performing the shalat..I can say it did bring goosebump a lil..hehe..Chep is great actor too..he did outlive his character...and the foursome awesome? tk igt lak..they're cool..conveying their lembut.lembik style with character, i might say~ aishwarya! superb..just marvelous..the teacher's , cikgu hensem and ustaz..just the kind of character's needed in the play..haaa..dont forget ah kok~ the aircond repairman, yg suka menyibuk~! ahaha

so, overall..i can see shahnon has success in potraying the scandal between the young hearts, the character is given a fair share of scene. hehe..and the directors are great~! i say... a play well done~!

therefore, my dear friends...(kalau burn tk ckp pun, nk promote gak~! haha)..tengokla AIRCON @pentas 2, KLPAC. now until this sunday~ more details can be found here <--event in facebook. :D

some details on the play is here -->

3-6 July 2008

830pm (Thurs-Sun)

3pm (Sat-Sun)

RM 42, RM 27 (students, seniors)

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updates on me--> i feel so not motivated on tuesday night..ahahaha..resulting me to sleep my head in on wed morn till noon..im OK now, i guess..thank you~!

damned~!

i didnt woke up at 230 or even at the sound of phone call..and i missed the final. huhuhu..and me, being the deutschland's kaki..feel a little bad..my sokongan tk smpai sana..tuh sbb kalah. hahaha..

it's okay then..that marks the end of my ball updates..for the next wc should be my next one..hopefully lah..hehe!

enjoy everyone, and i hope i have a great monday~! *cross-hands*

oh, lupe..viva spain for the second euro win ;) better luck next time, deutsch~

err, lupe lagi..rasanya mcm ada mimpi dia lah malam td..*sigh*

nani's engagement + urbanscapes~

huhu..saturday was quite hectic! yes, it was! pg2 bgn..(if u consider 830 is pg la kan..haha) but i was quite degil malas nk bgn..tp terkenangkn, it's gonna be a longgg day...paksa diri bangun..basuh baju...bg makan kucng..siap2 pegi umah nani..hooray~!

result:
1. at nani's, it was great..gonna updates pix later..or maybe at my picasa. her theme was good, white.silver. :D the food was delicious..nyum2..rasa nk tmbah jek lagi..ehehehe..the offerings was nice..cantik jek..and goodie bag is best..got cupcake! hopefully it was good. oh and chocolate..:D i like!

2.the journey towards urbanscape quite hectic..it was like..2 trip to hani's house, again..and dari pukul 2 nk smpai klpac..turn-out almost 4 we arrived..sorry belot, for the lateness..:D hehe..but we did hv fun..watching movie, then eventually bought tix for theatre~ hahaha..nk kene carik duit lebih lagi nie..uhuks..but seriously, i like urbanscape..after 4 yrs waiting..and i vote for klpac again..the venue is like so sesuaii~ ehehe..got theatre for movie and such..got gallery..and the atmosphere there is soooo peaceful..if u minus all the gig la kan..and and..the koi centre~! so la sesuaiii nk buat tmpt bercinta...ahahahaha...overalll, i give 4 out of 5 stars..for the urbanscape this yr..yeay~! cant wait for another one! :x

oh..didnt i tell you, yet! im so head over heels with gustavo..no, he's no spain footballer..he's 18 tho..but he's so handsome la for me..babyface one..and like i said..im madly falling for him..lalala...oh, he's a model..thanks bff for pursuing me to buy female~ turn out this issue sgt best~! hahaha..i got the whole pages of gustavo..and lotsa other articles too..:D

okla..oh, thanks bff for the buy 1 free 1 at starbucks..cpat2 upload gamba..jgn lupa anta k~! ihiks..

muwahs all..thanks for making my weekend a blast~! oh..next few weeks..or can i say months, im gonna be...a slave..huhu..gudlaks to me~! semoga bertahan hingga ke akhirnya~! *crosshands, hard*~

oh oh...lupa lagi~!!! malam ni final euro..huhu..tgk sorang2 lg..mmg confirm jadi jambatan main lompat2 si kucing2 ku ini..huhu..malam ini, aku seorang penyokong jerman~! go, go, deutcsh~!

updates~!

woohoo~! 40% watching..haha..but on the last minutes of the game, the live got technical problem + even the host have to check the mighty Internet for updates..haha..

germany, as expected win 3-2 with last minute goal from lehm. good for them..hehe and me, as usual..mmg menjadi jambatan lompat2 brad+alvin..

tu jek..i dont think i watch la tonite..tomorrow morning, will jz update myself thru the official site.

jaa, minna~

germany v turkey

gonna watch the game tonite..that's the plan. having cooked nasi goreng beriani..which is tasty~ despice the sayor cmpor keras sket..haip..but i dont care..still sedap..haha..that settled for bfast this morning..

so, before i go and fix myself to be "jambatan utk brad+alvin main lompat" later...i just want to remind me..if not myself, everyone got their own problem..not just me, depressing about how sucks my life is..

ok, gonna update (def.) later on the game..which is only, would be the score..if i want to write a review..dah lama i ada kat basel tau, tgk bola tu live-in-action~ haha.

oh ye, i'm being lobbied actually, to root for manU..how how how?

am i game for this? :>

till later..bff, muwahs..i miss ya~

cant get enough of futurama~

yes, i am..huhu~

haha..right now waiting for the new movie to come out and watch it lalala. i've just cant get enough of the first movie..(watched it twice..cant wait for more~haha) and i am way beyond like la..the love-hate relationship of fry and leela~! uhuks..wish i can found the "one" similar to fry in sense of liking~! hiks..

guess, i never will..huks huks. oh, right now..i've just settled with what i got~ which is nothing~!

and the cats~ uhuks..they are the biggest responsibilities..huhuhu..br jaga kucing..bukan anak lg.. i wonder? uhuks.. this might be the sign..i'm not ready yet to take care of anak org..ahaks

so, i am is..cant get enough of futurama, thank you~!

thank you bff for your kind words :)

I want to be forgotten,and I don't want to be reminded.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.I wanna be beside her.She wanna be admired.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.Oh dear, is it really all true?Did they offend us and they want it to sound new?Top ten ideas for countdown shows...Whose culture is this and does anybody know?I wait and tell myself "life ain't chess,"But no one comes in and yes, you're alone...You don't miss me, I know.Oh Tennessee, what did you write?I come together in the middle of the night.Oh that's an ending that I can't write, 'cause I've got you to let me down. I want to be forgotten,and I don't want to be reminded.You say "please don't make this harder."No, I won't yet.I want to be beside her.She wanna be admired.You say "please don't make this harder." No, I won't yet...

-what ever happened? by the strokes.

surrender.

tonite..i surrender, in trying to know man.

maybe tomorrow.. i start, again.

France 0 - 2 Italy

huhu..almost 2 yrs since i watch football match. haha. and with this, i hv watched match of the "wc moment" france v. italy with 80% of the match im doing sleep..haha..and i deserve to grief for france for the day..at least i got another an hour and a half to do so.

oh, thank you to kittens for managed to woke me up in shock with bunyi pecahan set comel cawan roomie at 230am. notti sgt korang ni..pdn muke, fila's wont talk to u 2 notti kittens for what...2 weeks. hahaha. on your face!

so, back to my grief..uhuks uhuks..maybe it's just not their luck with ribery injured only in 7 minutes playing..huhu..and then, the game was just quite a blur for me..and the reception signal of our house didnt help either..when i woke up..i dont know when, it's like i see 1-1..which makes me quite jumpy..but then..0-1..damn~! did they hv a chance? uhuks..well, wake up for subuh..and then surf euro2008.uefa.com to find the answers..huhu..mark the starts of my griefing day~ sleep again till 8 (kes malas juge nk pegi keje)..arrived at 9..eat cekodok keras (kelig said, jgn beli lg dah), eat medicine, go training..and pissed. haha..and also, announce my griefness @gmail..ahaks..well, it's such an effort tau for me, with being sick, eat medicine which supposed to make me sleep..and also managed to catch 20% of the match..:D:D haa..tatau nk merapek apa dah nie..

okla, the conclusion is...even how much you like the team, if you are sick..please just be sick. dont push it..padan muke..so, now i want to sleep..

and yes, i make a very good meal for my dear me..bubur nasi+ikan bilis+hotdog <--food for sick people. night night~ :*

promises.

it's not a promise until you break it..haha..

i promised bff to update last thursday..but i didnt..sorry babe.

nothing much happen, really..apart from me, "buat2 merajuk, sendiri kena", "kes rindu mcm x caya je", "tk jd blk umah", "tido mcm x igt dunia", "tgk movie like there's no tomorrow"+"menjadi katak bawah tempurung yg plg hebat hari ahad", oh dan melayan kucing2 yg rupanya masih tk smpai sebulan pon dok rumah..tp rasanya mcm dh bertahun kitorg jaga.

oh, ye..dan saya lupa saya cuti arini..ahahaha..it's affirmative that this week gonna be hectic. lotsa things to be done and decide. i have assessment which i dont think is really make sense to me, but like i care la kan.. training for 2 days (only observer..(bengong)), workshop on fri, a couple of paperworks. oh..got a note from our big boss. a long with a deep meaning. ahaks. penat i baca..dn cuba faham. whatever it is, boss..kalau i kawin, i nk cuti sebulan ye..terima kasih..and i'll make sure every work or task that is under my provision will be done with me or without me in the office..i'm mobile, baby~!

ngantok, and i make tasty nasi goreng paprik~! hehe.

nite nite all..

siapa nort?

sepi sendiri aku benci..

isnin mula lewat.. gara2 sendiri..
isnin dibilang blues.. gara2 sendiri..
isnin bikin bingung.. gara2 sendiri..
harus ditewas rasa ini.. bagaimana?

--
kata umpama tiada erti, sekelumit pun tidak mampu menyuarakan apa yang tersirat..apatah lagi jika tuan badan pun tidak mengerti..apa kata hati?

jadi, apakah mungkin aku lewat saja..dan biarkan ianya menjadi..sepi~

mimpi yang terbunuh.

sudah..berakhir sudah..

harapanku.. 'tuk memiliki hatimu..

hancur.. semua anganku..

semua hayalanku..

dirimu diriku.. menjadi satu..

taukah kamu..bahwa diriku..

terlanjur jatuh..dalam cintamu..

hingga dirimu..bunuh mimpiku..

sudah..kuberi semua..

segala yang kau minta..

untuk memuaskan maumu..

tapi..kau membalasnya..

begitu kejam..

hingga hancurkan diriku..mimpiku..

apa yang kau cari..

tak cukupkah diriku berarti..

yayaya~

sejuk..br lepas pindah ke tgkt 9..i'm single now. kami sudah berpisah..uhuks.

on other notes, some things were just not meant to be. :

enough on that, im gonna miss bff. it's her travelling month. (sgt jeles di sini) but i hope she have fun!

and then, i dont feel very good. huhu. mcm satu bdn gatal..muke pon..uhuks..makan tk btul ke? ke i have allergic with cats? huhuhu...rashes pon dh naik2 ni..uhuks..i dont feel good about this.

oh, i hope our little outing a success~!

okla..nk melayan gatal nie. oh, my current place is very the near pintu belakang..not so cool~! but i get to see people in, ppl out..so please more cute/handsome ppl lah yg lalu lalang..:))

we've made it..

finally~! after all these -->

cant quite make the right time to fetch'em, always got bz hehe;

out of sudden..the damn lift failed us (after that we found out, that the lift would fail us for as long as 22 July..man that's like 2 months away..:(( makcik kurus la gini..13 tingkat maa);

prior to that, i was like climbing up and down 2 sets of each yesterday..carrying about 5++ kg of goodies..(kalo makcik tk kurus ni, mmg makcik bakar jek blok 3 tu~);

and maybe more or less everything..

it was a long week or rather speedy one..ahaks..but here are the outcomes -->

we have adopted 2 cats..brad (the one slightly bigger, he's about 5mnths;birthdate 04.12.2007) + alvin (kucing angkat, dok buat teman si brad sampai la sekor lagi bard switch, about 3 months; birthdate prolly 2 mnths after brad)

ini adalah brad yg konon shy2 cat..up till today, he's still adjusting..muwahs~!

so, my mission's are:

taking care of the not so little cats;

learn to scoop the poops (huhu);

try not to be too attached with alvin, bcos i think i already love him (uhuks);

think of a.k.a. names of our cats (haha);

err..lotsa going on on my mind..haha..so this is it..my updates on how our nite's adopting cats..thank you k.mas...it's tender loving care with the cats, affirmative~! thanx too roomie for your efforts. really appreciated it ;)

so, now that i have 2 more responsiblities under my care...i hope, i'll achieve whatever i want..what do i want, really?

hero makes me mad and me thinks me made him mad back; bfast tomorrow wif abe (i dont know what to do, eventho it's me who've asked); aab's so tensed i dont know how to make better (no~)

what i want is..

ok, before i proceed...hooray~! bff, komapsumnida~ berjaya jugak akhirnya kamu meninggalkan komen...shukran, danke, thank you..all the thank you's ever spoken in the whole wide world for you..muwahs.

this is supposed to be a crappy slash sad slash emotional post..but i dont feel so crappy slash sad slash emotional anymore (for the time being la..ahaha) camno? tapi...nk jugak citer nie..how how how?

ok jek la..it begin with friday, the day before that was quite forgotten, really..i didnt write anything on my lil black book. huhu..anyway, on friday..got makan2 at office, i've been paid to make my delicious biskut batik..hahaha..iye sedap~ but i was late to punch in (ehem2), only sempat to ask help regarding my dishes..and hurriedly grab my chair and sit through the whole knowledge transfer thingy. eh, but that's not what i want to tell about..haip..okla..before that, hv breakfast with bff. she slept over and finally, get to eat my biskut batik..yeay~!

ye la ye la...bermula malam itulah selepas pulang ke rumah..eh, sebenarnya semenjak di pejabat terngiang-ngiang melodi ini, sehingga merasakan sangat perlu untuk menonton semula filem itu...

"come what may...come what may..i will love youuuu...until my dyinggg day~"

jadi, aku tonton..aku rasa..dan aku terharu..well, i am sappy for love songs..oh, tidak..my crappy slash sad slash emotional feeling has emerged. damn~! argh..takpe la..ewan looks so damn wantable in the movie..dan kak nicole sangat anggun..and confirmed! moulin rouge is my most favourite musicals ever. that's it.

tepat tgh malam, dia balas sms aku yg dh berjam2 lamanya tu semasa aku dah bersiap tidur. main futsal, katanya. (mestikah lelaki2 ini main futsal jumaat malam sabtu ye?) aku balas dan akhirnya tewas. instead of sms-ed bff, i told aab i'm depressed+just need someone to tell, but not to my bff. what's happening to me?

satu saja..ada yang hilang dalam diri..tapi tidak tahu apakah dia? serabutlah ei~

huhu.

i went for the most unexpected event i would go....alone~! mmg sgt tk dipercayai..uhuks..but all in all, it was worth it~ i got to meet the infamous hishamudin rais..he's cool~ and he have signed my reason-to-come-to-the-event-in-the-first-place's book. ahaha..thanks, z."Keganasan, Penipuan & Internet-hegemoni media daulah pecah", mr isham's compilation of words in various prints. :D cant wait to read it, yeah~

i find there's more title to be purchased..but my pocket is not so deep : uhuks..maybe next time..but it was tempting..mental note: to read more articles. haha

oh, the unexpected event is...

the gig was awesome, set in MCPA near monorail Maharajalela..the space is cool, the bands playing was great..the sounds OK, but im not sure why i dont get to hear the lead vocals clearly..but all the bands was freaking awesomw~! i only managed to catch a few band that i quite like (hujan, couple, muck + free love), but hv to ditch butterfingers with such heavy heart..it's 10pm beb..eventho did not hv curfew..but still hv to come home what..esoknya keje..huhu..so damn malas~! okok, sambung~! im honored that 3 of 4 bands that i mentioned is based in my hometown..ahahaha..ipoh mali talak somong lo~! ahaks. oh, what makes the gig more special is, their performance is accompanied by set of orchestra~! cant u believe it..as cliche it might sounds, they sounds perfect~! and special..:)

oh, blk umah mkn ngan hommie..and also get to eat my "biskut batik yg lain sket rasanya tp still sedap".wakaka.

okla, done on that! which is "what happened on sunday!"..on sat, went to klcc and finally got my birthday present..thanks again~! watched "ps, i love you" heart the book versions better! oh, b4 that..late dinner with f,e,j+b. ahaha. thanks, f~! banje mkn..semoga murah rezeki~! oh, by end of this week...my room is more teratur~! :D

ok, sleep sleep. tomorrow's gonna be a longg day~! x

ps: i dont think i would write something on my fav idol. i lost some faith in him..:D

the one korean person that i shall love always...

with jang nara of course..haha

that one person is jang hyuk..i so adore him la..having first saw him in "successful story of bright girl" (did i get it right? pape lah..haha) it was like love at first sight..since then, i've tried to watch/find movie series with him..well, i did have some mishap, i missed the event that he has to go some military service that seems like a MUST in korea..so i did lost him for quite some time...that was after the movie "windstruck"..mmg depress and sedih habis~! first time tgk..tersedu2..lpas tu, tgk lg..sedu lg..hahaha..tp citer tu mmg gerekkkk habis~!

then, come a time like last few months, i have seen some clips in TV, i think..about this one series, "thank you" which is like a comeback for him...i was like, "oh, this is a must watch~!" asked my colleague to buy it..which actually she did owned it..terlupa! and finally, last week...i managed to catch it~! it was a blast! sad, and happy and comedy, and comforting, at the same time, depressing~! ahaha..ye lah kn, typical series..at first you fight2..then mcm tk ngaku plak perasaan tu...wakaka..sapa jugak yg tgk kan..sendiriii jugakk~! ahaks..but i like hyuk in here..so handsome~! wakaka...mcm die cakp.."suave"..ahahak..ikut translation la kan..tp takpela..mmg minat dia, nk wat camno? :D

err, i managed to buy the OST today..is it melampau kah? ahaks..so tonite, im gonna make it my lullaby~! below is one of the many videos in youtube~! mmg kerren di buat teman tidur, enggak? :x

well, since the unfortunate event..i'm becoming less me and more emo! crap crap crap~! i dont like it, but i cant help it~! but "komapsumnida"..thank you, thank you, thank you for those who always be there and humor me...;)

still, i havent write anything about my idol..damn~!

recklessly impulsive~

help~! i have affluenza~ not chronic..but almost :(

and i havent post anything on my favorite idol :((

morning, everyone!

the post of my favourite idol is not done...huhuhuhu

and i dont know why friends cannot post comment. huhu..why blogger, why? :(

why do fools fall in love?

because they are..FOOLS..ahahahaha.

im pissed and im sorry..

lalala.

this is what you get...when you are impulsive, emotionally distressed + just plain gila!

hehehe...next, ode to my idol~!

lost memory.

...

kerap.

wuhuu. got 2 days extra weekends..with thursday being sick. i got diarrhea..uhuks..too many acid in my tummy, i cant handle..and still sick now~ :( friday&saturday spent in peninsular residence, business suite hotel. OKla~ i think i might make sis feeling crap, but do not want to think or write more on it.

well, lots been going on! and i hate to mention it here..because that would have reminded me that lot of things were taken for granted. haha. like for instance, safety & security. how we fail to take care of ourselves, friends, belongings.. but i dont want to start on that.

i want to tell one funny but strange thing. i dreamt of him, twice..two days in a row. huhu. it was flattering, yes. we didnt do bad things, obviously, it just strange..but i dont know what to think, or what to feel..with my tummy and my body problems..huhuhu..i hate la this weekend~ no..this week! it's tire me, mentally and physically..:(

will i dreamt of him later tonight? that i dont know..have to sleep first and find out~! haha

i dont know about him, but im surely missing him. goodnight~!

ps: having watched gossip girl the whole day..i need someone like dan humphrey, pronto! :* alaa..but i like rufus too~ dan's father. ahaha. oh, the OSTs great! listening to oneRepublic, they're cool!

pss:lupe plak, thanks bff for the dedication~! :p

happy birthday, husband!

as a tribute to him, i've updated my description. yelah, kantoi tk smpat nk buat something..hehe..but anyway, my dear gerard arthur way, happy 31st birthday, eventho u didnt look like one..hehe. you know, i've almost hv to separate with you, damn environment! makes me do it..luckily, the system went "weng" a lil bit, and you're safe! ahaha..me and my fantasy la. anyway, dear..i hope ur happy with your real wife (i didnt bought any of her albums yet)..and please be sober, baby! i need you..i hope as long as i ever lived. ;) and on this day, for the rest of my life, i remember you.

haha..just read what i wrote last year for him..

"11 April 2007 - another one! nk wish jugak lagi, sbb i'm so loving this man~ (walaupun org lain akan admit they do too; well, at least not my friends la kan. org2 lain kat the whole wide world) dear gerard arthur way~ happy birthday! dunno how you celebrate it this yr. no coke and drinks for you ok, my dear! not good for your health. starbucks should be OK~ eventho not too healthy also. ahaha. neway, you shall be my forever obsession (for now!) until i find me a very decent man. kalau smpt, saya mimpikan awak,ok~"

tee hee, that was last year..still are my my forever obsession..xoxo..how about next yr eh? well, well well, love makes you do lotsa things! my dear husband, taking care always! oh, thanks for missing me yesterday..:* (kalau rajin, klik di sini untuk tahu bagaimana dan kenapa)

our little "re-union".

hahaha..yeay, right~!

our so-called re-union, happened when my sis, yanti, asked whether i was out for err..a re-union..and me, with such a straight face said, yes~! funny la me, as me and the girlfriends...was like seeing, if not talking, like everyday..so, to be called re-union, was like..ahaha..funny funny funny~!

but anyways, we go and eat at chillies..with all of us, gladly or might i say, unconsciously, have our pre-chillies..like days before the actual Chillies days~! me, went with my dearest colleagues, like last last thursday at klcc (with fila got to eat on "walaupun baki, masih byk lagi :D) ..and yatoque last wk (tk igt kat mane)..

well, to actually set the date was quite not troublesome (sketla)..but really hard to find suitable times..with our ms student who got class every tue, wed+thurs..and ms fii always got work and hv to make appointmnt like early..and me..well, me..i dont hv any probs to fit any time..ahaha..so, finally after much consideration..ahaha..exegerate~! we set the date to yesterday! yeay, best!

and the output is here and the pix above~! maybe we're all over-excited over our little "re-union," there are no pix of our way delicious food taken. we have triple play (bit masin, but still yummy), monterey chicken (bff pick), mushroom jack fajitas (yummy~!) and lastly, nyum nyummmm, our desserts, molten chocolate cake.

all in all, it was a FUN nite out~! and now, i have to think what to write to my dear husband. till 9 Apr post..muwahs..nitenite~!

i remember you.

Just watched October Road..such a good episode. i remember you. sometimes, we did take life for granted. im not sorry though, i didnt update much, maybe i shall update more later. but now, i just want to indulge "i remember you" by skid row..a song that first came out..like 18 yrs ago..i was like 9yrs old then. i didnt even know this song..haha. but i find it appealing. the intro guitar, the sounds, the voice..oh sebastian bach..handsome! in a ****ing rocker way..and he's cool! like gerard way cool..so i like! ok, need sleep! tomorrow gonna be a long day~ aktiviti makan dan kerja! i remember you, hero!

--
Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through

I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss

Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
Id wanna hear you say - I remember you

We've had our share of hard times
But thats the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you''ll never be lonely

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you

yeay, we're adopting~!

hehe..sari berita panas je dulu..<3

btw, baru jek lepas tgk sindarela....sooo sweett.."ayang, org ckp ja..."oops..hahaha..that was one of the scene in the so called soap drama in malaysia..haha..who said, i tk layan citer melayu..weks..ok, maybe it because of amani, but i did lovee bront too...he was way cute la..ahaks..hope my dot dot dot kite pon mcm tu..comel sgt tk boleh belah..hahaha..

ok, cukuplah mengenai perasaan ini..beat this one~! so, mcm cengkam jiwa like deep deep..my jiwa la kan..yeah, i know..lovey dovey month dh over..tp nk wat camne..my jiwa is some what gila~! haha..kalo boleh hari2 nk berjiwa2...wakakaka

----

yovie & nuno - menjaga hati

masih tertinggal bayanganmu

yang telah membekas di relung hatiku

hujan tanpa henti seolah pertanda

cinta tak di sini lagi

kau telah berpaling 

biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini

menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri

engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi

kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh

sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

masih adakah cahaya rindumu

yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimu

aku takkan bisa menghapuskan dirimu

mesti ku lihat kini

kau di seberang sana

andai akhirnya 

kau tak juga kembali

aku tetap sendiri

menjaga hati

biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini

menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri

engkau pergi, aku takkan pergi

kau menjauh, aku takkan jauh

sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu

sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkamu.

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oh, crap~! having typed it...this one is so like, wayyy jiwang~! oh, tidak..apa kau telah buat kat nort nie..tidak tidak tidakkkk~! pulangkan dia kembali! huhu..so, sekian berita untuk minggu ni...dengan rasa sedih dan hiba, diumumkan blog ini akan sepi untuk sementara waktu..tuan punya harus punya waktu utk belai diri, famili, rakan2 dn kerja. oh ya..nk jaga hati jugak..muehehe..eh, i think it's the coffee talk la..but who cares..i love my  coffee, and always will. eh..i love my chocolate too..haip! too many things to love la..okla..better go + menyepi before i got wayy crappy with words. taking care all~! muwahs..luvya~!

sehari bersama kukos.

oh, tidak..adakah aku hanya akan update setelah habis minggu? ahaha..well another weekend of burnt money and on loan..(again!) haha..thank you sekali lagi bff..ahaks

ok, to make it short..here it is..:D:x mestilah satu kepentingan kan my own mychem..hahaha..

and before that~! we've met puan mayang..muwahs..it such a great meet-up gurls!
cant wait to see ya again beb~! insyaAllah, nnt aku dtg umah ko..:D

and you know what...before that i met up the not so new born..baby Haziq! Tengku Rayyan Haziq..son of proud parents, Cak+Huda...congrats dear~ ;)maaflah gamba gelap..aku pon tatau kenapa aku tknak gune flash..haha..pastu tk smpat aka malas nk edit..:D

..and this all is happened in one fine day of 23rd march 2008..

along with man u vs. liverpool..which apparently marked the legend of ronaldo..haha..which i bet bff is and always head over heels about..:D and others..

well, i must say, this week was a mixed feelings and event of issues and also whatever raised..oh, sistas and me went to sunway..last thursday..it was fun~! we must do it again! this time, into the sunway lagoon we come! haha

okla..works currently, humm..boring, sucks, relax? hahaha..no la..everything's OK!

0klah, mau tidur..and cant wait to be home this weekend~! taking care all..later~!

ok, almost there~!

huhu..my weekend was filled with burnt money and on loan..ahaks..and almost bought the really wanted ipod..ahahaha.

tributes to bff for all the attention showered..heh~! hope you're fat already with the special homemade roti boyan and kopok lekor (tq fila) and starbucks coffee yg aku buat sedap tu..ahahaha. sorry ye dear, if yesterday turns to be one of your ugliest moment..tp ko dpt plasma tv yg diidamkan? hehehe..that crossed one of your wishes already ;) i think the other 2 is within reach this year..*crossfingers*

oh, sorry for the temptation..but was worth rite..siap tergedik2 lg dgn bdak starbucks...but it was way weird heh, since i really dont think we were late that nite...kan kan? but your sushi's always great..walaupun bukan ko lah yg buat..ehehehe

huhu, i've jz wrote in random..but what i've done last week quite great...screening with the TSCers..i jz way beyond like la with kak min. hahaha..having watched muallaf makes me wonder and evaluate back whether i am a good muslim. well, not even close to good yet, but not bad either..but i will be better. as death is definite..everyone gonna face it.so, i want to be a good one. :) the other not-planned screening, which happened on the same nite is a special docu on poverty in rural area in pahang..having watched that too enlightens me to become more aware of what surrounds me and at least have the empathy to know what's going on in the world apart from my of course hectic work life..oh, please let there's be balance in me life. :D

of course, girls nite out with yatoque..with fila, cant make it, as she's quite bz with family matters..her sister safely delivered baby boy..yeay~! less attention to idris..ehehhee..takdela..:D:D oh, talking about baby..one of my good friend, huda's too safely delivered a baby boy..nama tatau lg..org tanya tk terjawab pule..haha..thanks min for the mms pix..tk smpat lak nk upload..tahniah encik azrul + puan huda untuk baby boy anda..ckp kat baby, nnt auntie kukos dtg k...:D

apa lagi, apa lagi..oh, im on break~! from one part of life..i would like to concentrate more on works without jeopardising my life la..so called balanced life, konon...ini semua thanks to the course im taking, which i will graduate next tuesday...long story short..i've to write my goals and dreams in paper...hehe..gudlaks to me~!

minggu lepas terasa lambat..harap2 minggu depan akan berlalu dengan cepat...dan bolehlah selesaikan apa2 yg patut...seperti beli ipod? ahahahaha..no lah...lotsa other things..

okla..taking care all! nk balik rumah dulu..kt opis ni..psst, tq bff tolong anta..tunggu k, our girls nite out~! chillies and maybe movie? ehehe..muwahs

tattoo'd~

haha..mcm terkena plak dgn lagu nie..uhuk uhuk!

"I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken

No need to worry 'bout everything I've done

Live every second like it was my last one

Don't look back got a new direction

I loved you once, needed protection

You're still a part of everything I do

You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'll always have you"

tattooed, figuratively i was..but the best thing is, i will always have it..haha..

based on saharil.com, my pick today is "mudita" which is explained by wiki ->"mudita is a Buddhist (Pali and Sanskrit) word meaning rejoicing in others' good fortune." so, expect me to be a very very sweet little girl who shall rejoice in others' good fortune! hehehe.

the other one is Schadenfreude, a German word meaning 'pleasure from misfortune'..but, between you and me lah kan, i like this word better...ahaks..uhuhuhu...where are the sweet little girl, huh? hehehe...but takpela..apa2 pun, im still that notti notti one..ahaks...

yes, for today..i go for mudita~! want to share happy news with me? i'll make you happier~! muwahs..

my supposed 99th post...now, it's the 100th!

"haha. countdown to the hundreth. ahaks. well, im not one to post daily, my life forbid me to. ahaha..well, here it is..after almost 1 year and 5 months, the number finally almost reach 100. ahaha. nothing much actually to ramble today..im going to work, maybe alone.

house is installed with pest control this morning. hopefully all is ok.

craving for kopok lekor."

there you go, that was supposed to be my 99th post..ahaks..but with God blessing, turns out to be my 100th post in nottikos.blogspot.com today, 5th March 2008. it's obviously not 1yr5months now..ahaks..

oops..kene kluar kjap..brb.

ok dah..meh sambung..almost 1yr 7months now, my dear blog.nothing mature about it, though. i just wrote what i want, what i like, whenever i feel like it~!

but since, this is my 100th post..it wont hurt eh, to write what happened today..(arinije kot..cm tk dpt nk pk whatevr happen to my life in chronology)
-no work..go seminar only..haha..another excuse to be very very RELAX..(if u know what i mean)
-got news the list of appraisals results were uploaded..huhu..a very shocking + good news indeed.Alhamdulillah! hmm..dan terasa mcm tk percaya je..ada org tu..makin gempak appraisals..betul ke?
-gossiping on works related item, as if la..uhuks..me going to do TM for real..saiko btul..gonna leave ESS for real..sad sad sad.
-poor k.mas~!jahat sgt jiran die soh pindahkan kucing2 die..jahat sgtttt..she was so devastated that she shall move too with her precious cats.cats.cats. oh, she offer us to adopt one of her cats..so tempting..but the decision is up to hommie. *cross hands* hopefully she'll agree.but if she is, no more fantasy of cik/encik kapas + si comot yang comel..hehehe. kitten actually, the name is joni. hehehe..tah btul ke tk tu..hehehe.
-oh, br kembali dr menemani asnani (kelig keje) utk jalan dgn kete baru..punyalah dgn percayanya igt die dh terer..rupanya hentam kromo juge..siap kluar vista td tk pasang lampu OK? betapa saikonya muke aku..ahahhaa..but all went well..selamat smpai ke rumah nie ha.Alhamdulillah
-oh, oh ye...hommie hasut makan mcD..:p tp mkn jugak sandwich buat sendiri telur goreng+hotdog! hehe..sama jek..but at least sendiri masak..oh, oh..she would like to heat our almost lemau kukis..the first one ok..but the second batch! uhuks..semerbak satu rumah..i did not notice the burntt..tp..mmg harum la satu rumah..ahaks..trus mcm, kitorg..ah, tidak~! yatoque.....!~! trus sorok kukis dlm kabinet..ekekeke..tgk tu yatoque, betapa sayangnya kitorg kt ko..tahan kemahuan ni.supaya ko dpt merasa kukis~! ehehehe

oklah..nk samung baca some light reading -> "the manny" :x

taking care all~! muwahs.

kukis kasih sayang dari hommie~ ;x

tenkiu for hommie, berhempas pulas buat kukis untuk diri sendiri dn juga saya. with sole intention, to bring some to office. hehehe. more like 2/3 of whole adunan..ahaks..

dearest fila, walaupun terdapat rintangan, kukismu masih tolerable.. sedap aja dilidah ku..ekeke..weh, bukanlah~! sedappp sgtt! marilah berusaha lagi..there's lot room for improvement~! haha..br buat 4 kali nie..we got a whole life to implore..hmm..kene pkpk ni nk kasik kat calon2 mak mertua nie nnt..ahaha.

kepada cik yati, kami berdua menunggu kedatangan anda..cepat tau~! nnt kukis abih..>;)

hari minggu yang sgt hebat..3 recipes, 3 new bought books, 3kgs gained at least..ekeke..

yeah yeah yeah..masih ku igt "hopes+fears" ku. no worries. nite2~!

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updets: gamba2 kucing comel~! :D psst...pardon the quality, my camera phone..biasa2 jek..hehehe

yg ni, nk kasi nama encik atau cik kapas (bergantung pada jantina)

yang ni pulak, si comot yang comel..hehehehe

[kalo dapt amik dedua ekor kan best~! tp semua ni, adalah emotional thinking not rationally...huhu]

week ends with sistas~

hommie too, of course..ahaks.

started with last minute plan lead to stressful nite..but all was worth it~ dan seperti biasa, telefonku mati tiada batt. it might suggesting something, but i chose to ignore.

oh, the plan --> make it short, enjoy one hella movie with kekure.."there will be blood". memang bertumpahnya darah malam tu..hahaha..lucky enough, amukan puaka kekure, no victim was initially down..:D

that nite, i was so tired, physically and mostly emotinally..i slept like a log. oh..my two sis come over too. which make it hectically haywired..as they dont hv keys..and me watching movie..how how? haha..

saturday was fun. morning @jusco midvalley. got myself signature hot choc which burnt my tongue..(sakit lg..mkn x sdap dah) shopping groceries to cook nasi ayam! my conclusion is, come early to supermarket, fresh fresh fresh. i ate salad and baby tomato for breakfast..yummy~! oklah, hv lunch of nasi ayam..it was great. disbbkan semua lapar..lupa nk tangkap gamba~! sis said, the presentation was good. kipas~! hommie said, can do business ni..@kl sentral..hari2 die makan..weks..oh skali ngan jimmy..and the stall would be called, "nort nasi ayam". haha..funny~! pastu semua tewas dn tido. haha..oh ye..my other sis also came..which make us 5 person all. ina, yana, ila, fila and me. yg tewasnya 4 org..sbb ada la sorang tu gi dating. ahaks. oh, lupe..sbb tido yg mcm x bersedia, boleh lupe tuan rumah nk datang melawat anai2..ahahaha..kesian adik2 kene paksa bgn. ;D

ptg merangkap malam, we (me+yana+ila) went to pantai dlm pasar mlm. it was great. the plastic bags we brought back was countless. ahahaha..nafsu nafsu. pastu mkn lg malam tu..ahaks..habiskan nasi ayam.got satay, ayam tulang, apam petak yg sdap, apatah lg..oh, the real reason we went there in the first place is to get us things to cook nasi lemak..haha

tewas skali lg, semua org pg tadi. yana, who earlier planned to go back yesterday postponed her journey to eat nasi lemak..haha..sanggup. but all went well. the nasi lemak was good too..love it~! bertambah 2kg semua org..ahahaha..aku lebih sket kot..haip..oh, menu for breakfast cum lunch is..nasi lemak+ayam goreng berempah+sambal with udang,ikan bilis, kentang+ikan bilis sedap+sayur kacang goreng udang+starbucks coffee gazebo blend. nyum nyum..our deserts is courtesy from yana, rojak buah pantai dalam.

thank you to all who participate..it was a great week ends spent together. looking forward for next week. muwahs..cya @sg rokam.

adakah anda betul2 yakin dengan pangkahan anda? ;-)

29.02.2008

closure.

i do not believe it, i guess. but at least, i do not deny it.

NO, is what i get. I'm not going to ask for "nape?". Just let that be.

do not be sad, i said, as there are those sadder than me.

so, is this a closure for me? as far as the ego said yesterday..it is.

oh, i dreamt of someone (rather odd but sweet, t'was) last monday. thank you stranger (kinda) for making my day worth smiling/blushing all day. stress is a four letter word.

gatal tangan.

hey hey~! guess, where i am?

guess la..ihiks. @lobby EDC, UUM. jauh nun ke utara saya pegi. terlupa kn nk bawak passport..kalau tak dah boleh ke selatan thai..ihiks. :D saje jekla menggatalkn..dah nama pon tema gatal..ahahaha.

ckp pasal gatal nie..gatal plak tangan ni..dua belah plak tu..tk suke pule..maksudnya mcm duit dpt..duit pon keluar jugak..huhu..tak boleh berbelanja nmpaknya..uhuks uhuks.

ptt nk kluar ni ha..tk keluar2 lg nye..mana tah org yg ditunggu2 ni tak kunjung tiba..oklah, segan lama2 kat sini..nnt org lain nk gune juge~!

nk baca buku, kasut buku rubina by sufian abas. lama2 baca...terhadharilah kita dibuatnya..ahaks..:p

tudeloo~!

Before It's Too Late~

I wondered through fiction to look for the truth

Buried beneath all the lies

And I stood at a distance

To feel who you are

Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you

Is the one that would save

A life you dont live is still lost

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late

Until we leave this behind

Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it

Love til you feel it

It's all that we need in our lives

So stand on the edge with me

Hold back your fear and see

Nothing is real til it's gone

booming "hoo-hoo"

"seperti sang pungguk rindukan bulan
terlantar dia di bucu katil
irama lagu-laguan jadi teman
entah kenapa berputik di kala
hatinya akan kekal pemuja rahasia.."

oit~ berangan pulak..syooh syooh..buat kerjalah..ahaha

182

my supposed lucky day. well, i feel luckier already. haha..

will you dance with me tonite? :x 

good day~!

while, im updating this (again!)..i'm crying..not that there's something bad/sad happening..like now..but i cannot help it..this song, jz keep me doing it..crying, i mean *sobsob* me cant sing it properly also..yelah, i cant stop crying what.haha. the lyrics + melody melancholically stabs thru my sensitive heart. :D anyhoo, please read this poem..you, who knows me..shall understand. 

"If you could told me everything

You could have found what love is

If you could have told me what was on your mind

I would have shown you the way

Someday I'm gonna be older than you

I've never thought beyond that time

I've never imagined the pictures of that life

For now I will try to live for you and for me

I will try to live with love, with dreams

and forever with tears"

fyi though..it's not mine..googling about "X-Japan-Tears", the song that always kept me crying. huhu..i found this poem..sources said, there would be times that in the end of this song, the poem is recited by the band. 

you are happy when..

you smiles a lot and in the edge of hugging everyone! yes, that would mean every strangers you met along the way..haha~!

he did it, he did it, he did it~!

:x

on other notes..dok melayan Nidji "Top Up" album. i like it~ but the first one was the best :D

"bukan aku tk cinta, tp aku tk mampu.."

hazera adalah seorang yang malas 2 hari ini. sbb bos xde.:))

mana cik fila ni..kata nk layan movie? :p ok..make a move first..nk masak bubur, sup sayur dan ikan pekasam mak buat..nyum nyum nyum..lapanya terasa..cepat2 gerak gi masakkkk...tata!

update khas untuk puan rynn~

hello all~! how's your holiday? hehe..mine was OK. I spend my 2 of 3 days leave in the office. haha.. even it was half day..it was worth it..ihiks. :D:D

takde lah aku rajin sangat OK..but i felt it was some responsibility (walaupun macm aku buat mcm opis aku sendiri..hehe)

untuk kesenangan puan rynn, aku akan cuba kasi clear sket cerita aku..ihiks..:D but no worries, puan..mostly crap. x paham pon xpe ;)

updates dari mana2 yang aku igt:
1. blk ipoh, ada la diskasen family sket..yelah, adik aku nk kawin beb..insyaAllah bulan 11 or 2..nnt aku jemput k ;) ada pape idea tak utk brg berkat? i'll be happy to receive some comments dearest friends..:D
2.ye, terima kasih cik yati kasi clear..aku naik gred. Alhamdulillah..more responsibilities to be held, obviously. :D
3.cuti aku byk lg, sbb tuhla berusaha utk habiskan cuti thn ni..disbbkan ongkos pon tidak membenarkan tahn ini, x dptlah digunakan utk ber"vacation" di luar negara..sehingga terpaksa membiarkan cik yati kita ber"vacation" dgn kawan baru dia..ehehe..jgn marah ek babe~! (psst, thanx call td..walaupun cubaan tk berjaya..maaflah, di waktu kejadian kawan awak yg sgt bijak ni..blk kg tk bawak charger blk..padan muka kt dia..sekarang masih charge)
4.sedang melayan dunia baru..ahaha..dan juga berusaha utk tengok sindarela tetiap minggu..wish me luck!
5.masih berusaha juga mengosongkan harddisk.hehehe..sebb nk isi citer lain lagi..
6.masih setia juga menunggu "writers guild strike" habis, supaya boleh donlod dan layan series dgn gumbiraa~!!

oklah..aku br blk dr ipoh ni..tgh basuh baju sambil layan dunia baru..hehe..so, taking care ok puan rynn. thanx singgah~! muwahs.

love life.

it's fuckin' indescribable life can be. huhu..it's sucks today, mostly.

sangat tk cool~

my intention was good..tego2 setelah lama tk bertego sapa kan..is, "oit, sombong~!!" dengan nada memain, sounds rude? knowing me, tak ke itu mmg aku..but..tegoran mengatakan aku bukan islam, mmg sgt tk cool..ok, memberi salam mmg bagus..tp wajib ke memberi salam dlm YM? hello, where are you...heaven?~! oh, F U la...uhuks..pastu nk lgi memberi ceramah ttg mmberi salam itu satu kewajipan..oh, please...salah la ko menyakitkan ati aku skang...eee...aku mmg marah skarang...tk bg salam dlm ym boleh isu kepada dia..so, you can go to your lil community..and i wont be in your little community, period. sekian, terima kasih~!

built to last.

so, not to make this long long long..i've just got to tell you truth..nothing but the truth. i am in love..ahahaha..i just hope the other person knows it too..which i highly doubt it. haha

this, is my hope towards the ever-to-be-if-it's-ever-gonna-be anything..:x

oh, i'm pretty much high in my selfless mind..ahaks..(tolonglah sedar, minah oi!) i'm so full of myself i cant properly think of the consequences..what i do know is i'm crazy..ahahaha..this must be because of me <-- caffeinated. it does me, sometimes..caffeinated, sugar high..i really did well in that division..ahaha..i can climb this very building of block 3 and sang my heart out..just to let him know what i really felt..do you think he'll hear me~?! *batting eyelashes*

or, it must be the song that i've heard first last yr @MTV, and it has successfully haunt me back this year. and without fail, i'm still loving it~ oh, it must be my sensual mind working it's way. damn~! i bet if i were destined to be dead, right now..my autopsy result would be..love anxiety overwhelmed~! ahahaha..whatever i was rattling, like now~! oh, it MUST be the coffee, definitely. fyi, i've got 4 sacks of coffee bean from starbucks..how do u think i'm gonna finish that huh? coffee freak, that's me..

you are my sun in my universe~!

i'm pretty much adore mike, from melee. he seems err, shy. :)

ode to abg heath~

1979 - 2008

It's sad when someone you know dead
Even sadder when that someone is someone you love to watch
Saddest when that one can relate you to something
Devastated when he leave a mystery behind
But who am I to judge, let alone define
May you rest in peace..:)
Is only what one can hope.

Heath Ledger is that someone that catches my eyes + heart in "10 things i hate about you", "a knight's tale", "brothers grimm" and "casanova".

yes, i'm one sensitive girl. thank you.

dan tidurlah..

haha..i wish~! mana boleh tido bai sekarang...ahaks..br pukul 1.55pm..ahaks.

adakah anda terasa digunakan bila:
a. dicari hanya jika ada perkara berkaitan HR berlaku?

humm...tak kot..ahahaha...

andra oh andra..your voice is kinda sexy. i like~! alamak, curangkah aku kepd husband?..oh, tidakk~!

whatevr i'm mumbling of..sbb pc lembap la nie..tkleh nk tgk gossip girl pilot. uhuhu..dan oh dan..ihiks..better stop, like now~!

okla..andra+thebackbone..mmg sgt best. lirik for lagi..dan lagi..*enjoy!

huhu..x jumpe plak..so, relaks~!

oh..x saba nk cuti raya cina yg sgt pjg..i dont care..nk cuti jugak~! haha

selamat hari lahir bff~

maaf lmbat ye bff..:D:D so here goes..

sorry this year, i have not done my job well as you have your new best friend..ahaha..siap recordkan lagu birthday lagi..ampun ampun..ahaks.

anyway, hope you have a blast on that day..which i knew you did..;) so, a year older..not a soul older eh..marilah kita bersama kekalkan kemudaan kita smpai bila2..ahaks..muwahs muwash..and believe me, even you hv "new best friend" >:) i will always claim my right as your bff..;) muwahs muwahs..thankx for the cake, dear..it was way delicious..i gain quite a few pound, TQ. haha..maybe i should stop being your all beloved "tong smpah" huh? ehehehe

lastly, selamat hari lahir my dearest..semoga terbuka hati ibu utk benarkan kamu berkahwin..;) i'll always be there, k ;) :x

Alhamdulillah!

Syukran Alhamdulillah for the rezeki given to me. Thank you thank you thank you. It is expected, but not this month..so I have to say I am shocked when the HR man told me congrats, for whatever reason I'm not sure of. and more shocking when PL ask me to see her with another colleague..as I was like, "alaa..ada prob ESS lagi ke? huwaa~!" when I went to see her, congratulations is what I got and I was in total shock and glad as well, as extra money is quite what I seek this few months..haha..tp x dpt pon..:D:D kene usaha lebih lagi nmpaknya.

On other notes, updates for the past few days:
1. On the event of my last updates, actually there was some issue pertaining our house. Well, it was a mess, still is :D my hommie mostly..her room is leaking (we're on 13th floor..upstairs is studio house..so, the top of my hommie's room is like nothing and only roof. got anai2 some more..her bathroom door cannot close. okok..jgn bg info byk sgt..haha..so the story went like this..we ask for one particular foreman to come and have a look..(because of the free checking, according to his iklan..cheapskate la katakan)..then the fella come and bombarded our house like there's no tomorrow..membebel2 tah apa2..he rudely comparing me with the pintu(wtf~!) but me being one lil nice girl just hear whatever he said..believe me..die mmg suka bebel dan sgt mcm kasar perckpannya..okla..to think of it..mcm tk bagus la sgt cara die ckp tu..mcm tkde respek tau..but maybe itu mmg cara die ckp..so i wont judge more..okla, the story nye..my hommie was so pissed off with him. kirenya..malam itu adalah amukan puaka hommie. ok done~!
2. yatoque's coming over..and we were and always be a good host for her..haha..have dinner of mcDs bought by her..and we eat eat eat sambil diskusi hangat mengenai perkara yg terjadi sebentar tadi..tuptup tup dah pukul 12..boleh ke? we're like still hv plans for the nite. haha
3. after, clean ourselves..go to hommie's room and layan movie~! it was so great...memula layan "Enchanted"..it was fun, it was fantasy, it was dreamy..and it was heartwarming..but the princess was so opstimic rasa nk baling2 jek..mcm hello~! does that kind of story exist in the real world? ye lah kan..since i havent found my soulmate..trus rasa mcm tk best...tapiii..the second movie what's make us all dreamy..hahaha..tyler prince is seriously gorgeous~! haha..we've watched "Sydney White"..it was hilarious, funny and make us feel differently of dorks..as in a way, we're all DORKS in our own way..hehehe..so kesimpulannya, janganlah memandang rendah kepada orang lain...sebabnya..semua orang adalah sangattt ISTIMEWA ;) muwahs to all. okla..on the dreamy parts..we all so high of tyler..he is so handsome..dan saya sgt spoil..sbbnya...i did reveal that mr long is married..hahaha..semua org benci aku..wakaka..sorry..~!
4. hari khamis..cuti..bgn lmbat..mama hot datang..bila die dtg br bgn..we have brunch of roti bakar...(it was my current fav as the other day..the smell of roti bakar at level7 sgt memikat hati..and i have 2 slice of it..tak malu nye budak) and lotsa kaya, jem, baked beans with egg (bff masak) and semua lah yg ada dlm fridge tu. haha. oh, mama hot datang nk wat keje..with helps of hommie..i tolong tgk jek. :D pastu lunch+dinner plak kt kedai sup sendeng..sgt kenyang + gemok..pastu beli cakoi yg sgt sdap..haha..best~! mlm tu tido awal konon. :D
5.jumaat keje..huhu..sgt bosan. but i half-day.konon nk pegi mmc, melawat kawan2 but tk jadi sbb aku yg sgt ngantok dn tidoo..haha but berjaya la smpai keje dlm kol 12 dan oh..k.mas dpt kek..birthday nye esoknya. :D makan puas2 dan sgt gemokk..ahaha
6.blk kampung..malamnya..yeayy..bas kol 10..sorry ye..terlmbt..byk keje la..and weekends..tidooo~!
7.sabtu-kemas bilik..adik, belajar elok2, kalo tkde SAP, i shall consider pembelian motor..ahaks..oh ye..sbb tgh tgk amanda bynes..minat plak kt die..then tetibe mlm tu ada plak citer die.."What a girl wants"..layannnnnn~! best! siap tido kol 245am..lmbt kan.. oh ye..kemas bilik mmg sgt penat~! pastu main badminton lagi..pastu main2 ngan anak sedara lagi...mmg sgttt penatt..:p
8.ahad...tido smpai bosannn..ahaha..pastu nabil dtg..hahahaa...comel jek budak gemok tu..siap berlakon2 jatuh plak ha.......berpeluh die lepas aku blk dr pasar malam..hehe..
9.isnin pagi..blk kl kol 430 am..yelah konon malas nk blkk..sbb nk tgk citer tiga segi setelah dijemput penulis/director, woo ming jin kt facebook kan...kene lah tgk..okla..:D keje mcm bosan..pagi2 dh smpai opis..kol 730 am..dhla tkde passcard..seb baik pintu blakang bukak..so awal gila smpai ..dn terhapa2 dibuatnya...pg got walkthrough..the afternoon was the most tension bit of the day ..got meeting with user..seb baik tkdela byk songeh sgt...tp adalah jugak songehnya..ahaks.blk2 konon nk tido..hommiw ajak kluar makan..so okla..takpe takpe..oh...i did hv dinner of Dominos..huhuhu...gemokkkksssss plis~! ahahaha
10.oh, after a long silence..yelah, i did one "ekspresi dirimu" a while ago haha..we're cool now.oklah kan? :-?

okla..that about all what had happened to me last wk..(walaupun tk cukup byk kan..yelah..bukan ada org baca..hahahaha) but today..it was OK. :D:D

oh..silalah layan stolen by dashboard confessional..jz like the title.the song has succeeded in stolen my heart by its first hello. :x

- Dashboard Confessional Lyrics

"NOOoOOOoOOo"

ahahahahaha..i cant stop laughing! ok, i mayyy be a little late, but i totally agree with TIME naming YOU as the people of the year last yr i think..haha..pardon me, if i was wrong. ahaks..but i did remember that..because YOU is everyone who made the intener or was it YOUTUBE popular~! YOU who made video as funny as hell can be or whatever..so, talking about YOUTUBE, i was videohopping . still do..and i found this..hilarious~

bob,"mikey ways's phone number is.."
"NOOoOOOoOOo"

hahahaha..funny funny! the other one that prominently stucks at my head is..mikey falling down in one concert in which the culprit is mr gerard way himself, the ever meanest brother of mikey (my dearest adik ipar,wakakaka) but i still heart them..both..yela semua..crazy kan? wakaka..aku gila..gilakan kamu..oh the song performed was cemetery drive.

and my life currently does sounds like cemetery drive...way down way down way down way down way down way downnn~ i miss you, i miss you so farrrr...and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard~

huhu..damn i miss him~

ok, happy new year~! today is awal muharam..and i hope everything is GREAT this year..:)

psst..i've checked the above..about YOU. check this out~! rupanya tahun 2006. hehe

shut up and smile~

heya~! this song was like lingering on my head ever since i've watched fan's video of gerard+mikey on why we love'em..which was like weeks ago..haha..the way's brother..they are so lovable~! and the irony is..the video maker has used the song from a band that totally despised them..ahaks..but yada yada yada~! i jz love both of the band..ihiks..each with its own reason..bowling for soup(hereafter, shall be known as bfs) for their happy happy songs and mcr of course, for their gorgeous frontman..and they're rocks~!

so, please..i present you..the words from the happy band~! if you dont like it, please..shut up and smile~! >:P

----------------bfs-shut up and smile~-------------

Its not the end of the world
In fact its not even the end of the summer
But thank god the tv is on
Cuz theres no way we could know
Anything that’s goin down
Or how were supposed to be feeling about it
I cant tell you how much I wish we could shut up and smile, yeah

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream and a hug

Take a good look around
Does life really suck
Are we just complaining
I hope that this mic is on (testing 1, 2)
Cuz im on a roll here
I hope this is making some sense
I hope that you’ll throw up your hands and sing it
And tell all the haters that they should just shut up and smile, yeah

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe I’m a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream

All we need is love and beer
And old school metal and holiday cheer
TO be happy
(All you need is someone near)
like ben and jerry
(to hold you close and pretend that they care)

can we all just, get along now
we found something that we all have in common now
we can hold hands, do keg stands
water skiing sounds great to me now

Sail around the world and tell them all to keep singing it
la la la la la la
all we needs a harmony and we’ll convince the world to sing
la la la la la la
throw your arms around someone (throw your arms around someone)
maybe spread a little love
I know it sounds a little dumb (or maybe we’re a little drunk)
But all we need is some ice cream and a hug

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surfing youtube for the vids..:( didnt found it..but i found this..ahaks..mcr exclusive interviews @melodi..gerard was kinda not in the mood.maybe jetleg..i presumed..ahaks..but he's still my husband..mikey was alright..but kesian die..he's like being stopped on the part when that interviewer ask something on other band bitching about them..well, i dont give !$%*$* either darling ;) luv ya~!

it was wet, it was tad awesome~!

ehehe..it's been like a week~ and only now i'm going to update on the how i finally met my hubby? damn, it was a very damn busy week, i say. ahaks..anyway, finally i met him~! about 30 metres away, that was. ahaks..well,that's how close we are..ehem ehem..tk kisah la..because mixed feelings is what i felt during the whole one and half hour in the drizzling wet awesome parade. it was wet, and totally awesome + amazing in one breath. and me and my bff + sistas were dancing, screaming, singing like there's no tomorrow you know..ahaks. to date, the most awesome concert i've ever went..you rock, husband~! as proud as it may sound, you totally rock my world :* and now, i cant stop thinking about you...and it's no secret who you are to me, no matter where i am..ahaks ahaks..love you to death~!

they received such a good reviews on every newspapers i read and i've kept. it's like in every papers, daily, weekly, free or paid..such a good review..huhuhu..it's a missed though that the whole gang was not there..get well soon, bob~! wish you well ;) but gerard was rad, mikey too, frankie (good things your family thingy is OK) and of course cool ray~! goreng gitar gile cool~!

they performed almost every song i know by heart, helena, cemetery drive, im not okay~, welcome to the black parade (of course~)..to list was like listing all the songs of my chem~! to the end, it's like alovehate relationship for me..i almost cried during "the desert song"..it was like deep in my heart i know..it's going to end..gerard's going to end this..:( the whole crowd was eventually feels the emotion captured by him and all was silent and really into it. haha..me was emotionally swaying hands with bff the whole song and i cant help but feel sad. huhu..desert song's really cool, but at the same time sad~! and yeah, they end it with "famous last word"..which was a very good song to end such a theatrical act~! yeah babe~! you are the most effing band in the whole world that nite!~

well, pix is such total failure that night..my attempt in borrowing my bro's cam failed miserably. huhu..only our pix was cool as hell~! but i love pix of the stage backdrop..sgt cantikkk~! house of wolves..:D what else, enjoy some pix..:D

bak kata bff, "bukti~!"

me + bff

saujana mata memandang~

my chem's backdrop~

as a whole, the stage, sound system, the props, gerard, the whole gang was totally ROCK~! love you guys..cant wait for more! crossed hands, hopefully they are allowed again to come..hehehe..u effin' punk rock band~! cant wait to hear ur new song, even that means i hv to wait another 2 years..i rela, dearest! ;) ahaha..okla..

updates of the week:
1.keje bagai nk gila..almost 7 days a week, err definitely 7 days. i need rest this raya haji~!
2.berjaya dptkan diari starbucks, thanks ita..muahs muahs..cant wait to scribble on it~!
3.dia mmg sukar difahami. please, jz forget about it.
4.financially broke.must do something about it.
5.creative mind is absolutely in need of some exercise.
6.lunch, dinner is fully taken care of.
7.definitely have to exercise regularly,pronto.
8.balik kg esok malam..hoye~! hopefully, shafiqah natasya is still home.
9.lama gila x jumpe hommie, and e'eh..sapa tu?

..lastly, we'll carry on..to make this life most fulfilling..thanx my chemical romance for being such a good support for me in facing the workloads..yes, my chem saved my life~! ye ye, no worries..i know DIA YANG MAHA BERKUASA~! AllahuAkbar~!

i'm a maple.

my key quality is independence.

i quote k from the star, today~!

"You are quite an extraordinary person, full of imagination and originality. You're very clever and have a good memory.

Ambitious, proud and hungry for new experiences, you are still somewhat shy and reserved, and often nervous.

You have many hung-ups and tend to have a complicated love life, often because you're proud and wont be pushed around."

haha..thanx yatoque. most of it true. hukhuk. he's particular..damn, i never beat that :p

anyway, im just crazier and overanxious by minutes. cant wait to see the whole gang of my chem~! hope the complete set's would be playing. gerard,mikey,frank,bob+ray.muwahs to all of them~!

huhu..i miss gerard, already~

stardust.

yeay, finally went to see it yesterday..despite the problems occurred when our booking no. has expired. damn gsc..seb baik en mohd asyiq ada tolong kitorg..tk mcm mamat kaunter sebelah yang takde langsung sifat2 CRM yg bagus..muahaha..all in all, i so love stardust and also charlie cox..or better still tristan or tristran. :x

boleh tk namakan anak saya tristan? ehehehe

Alicia Keys - No One

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cuz

Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So til the end of time
I'm telling you
There is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

bad news comes in double, or might be triple~

yeah yeah..sighing is not a good thing to do..uhuk uhuk..but today + yesterday..bad news keep on coming..

1st, not so bad news la, my dear husband would coming to town..yeah~! but, a bad husband he can be..no free tix for me to see him..:( that's an OK, as we're (me+bff) will try to get discounted price or better, free tix just to see him and them...ahaks..ah, me and my fantastic imagination~! oh, forgot to tell, the tix is ridiculously expensive..(hehe, i quote ppl in internet..heyho~) but because i love him, i shall do the above..ihiks..or i'd be devastated not to go!

2nd, i told my dear sis, ila, about it..and she said, "mahalllnyaa, camne nk pegi..ila student lg.." uhuhuhuhu..well my dear, paying RM106 for a concert tix does sounds expensive..uhuks..eh, that's not the bad news...it's the news."is gerard way's married?" yes, he is. yesterday doesnt sounds so bad as today...uhuks..i've been surfing and reading on the news..and it was like, 2 months ago..can you imagine..where have i've been? why i dont know a bit at all about this? hell, this sucks~! but ok, i'll accept the defeat with the confirmation, he is and still is my husband..until i found one decent guy, ahahahaha..well, i just love being me, impulsive smart stupid girl in love~! ahaks..oh, okok, the other wife is beautiful without the punk outfit. you go girl~!

3rd..humm..our team, didnt make it to our company race..:(( news that is not acceptable. the other team who got it even got our name. totally unacceptable~! uhuks..my dear sis, ina, even postponed the engagement date for this. sure as hell i feel guilty about it..sucks~! bluwek.

okok, enough about bad news..uhuks..i got work to do..might have to work on weekends..and i know i "hutang" post with roomie..ye la, lama tau tk update..uhuks..psst, byk ni senanya citer..but i feel so lazy and brain freeze with words recently.

ok, taking care all~! cya husband!